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<h2> CHAPTER XXI. </h2>
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<p>She had made everything comfortable for the artist; there was no further
pretext for staying. So she said she would go, now, and asked him to
summon the servants in case he should need anything. She went away
unhappy; and she left unhappiness behind her; for she carried away all the
sunshine. The time dragged heavily for both, now. He couldn't paint for
thinking of her; she couldn't design or millinerize with any heart, for
thinking of him. Never before had painting seemed so empty to him, never
before had millinerizing seemed so void of interest to her. She had gone
without repeating that dinner-invitation—an almost unendurable
disappointment to him. On her part-well, she was suffering, too; for she
had found she couldn't invite him. It was not hard yesterday, but it was
impossible to-day. A thousand innocent privileges seemed to have been
filched from her unawares in the past twenty-four hours. To-day she felt
strangely hampered, restrained of her liberty. To-day she couldn't propose
to herself to do anything or say anything concerning this young man
without being instantly paralyzed into non-action by the fear that he
might "suspect." Invite him to dinner to-day? It made her shiver to think
of it.</p>
<p>And so her afternoon was one long fret. Broken at intervals. Three times
she had to go down stairs on errands—that is, she thought she had to
go down stairs on errands. Thus, going and coming, she had six glimpses of
him, in the aggregate, without seeming to look in his direction; and she
tried to endure these electric ecstasies without showing any sign, but
they fluttered her up a good deal, and she felt that the naturalness she
was putting on was overdone and quite too frantically sober and
hysterically calm to deceive.</p>
<p>The painter had his share of the rapture; he had his six glimpses, and
they smote him with waves of pleasure that assaulted him, beat upon him,
washed over him deliciously, and drowned out all consciousness of what he
was doing with his brush. So there were six places in his canvas which had
to be done over again.</p>
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<p>At last Gwendolen got some peace of mind by sending word to the Thompsons,
in the neighborhood, that she was coming there to dinner. She wouldn't be
reminded, at that table, that there was an absentee who ought to be a
presentee—a word which she meant to look out in the dictionary at a
calmer time.</p>
<p>About this time the old earl dropped in for a chat with the artist, and
invited him to stay to dinner. Tracy cramped down his joy and gratitude by
a sudden and powerful exercise of all his forces; and he felt that now
that he was going to be close to Gwendolen, and hear her voice and watch
her face during several precious hours, earth had nothing valuable to add
to his life for the present.</p>
<p>The earl said to himself, "This spectre can eat apples, apparently. We
shall find out, now, if that is a specialty. I think, myself, it's a
specialty. Apples, without doubt, constitute the spectral limit. It was
the case with our first parents. No, I am wrong—at least only partly
right. The line was drawn at apples, just as in the present case, but it
was from the other direction." The new clothes gave him a thrill of
pleasure and pride. He said to himself, "I've got part of him down to
date, anyway."</p>
<p>Sellers said he was pleased with Tracy's work; and he went on and engaged
him to restore his old masters, and said he should also want him to paint
his portrait and his wife's and possibly his daughter's. The tide of the
artist's happiness was at flood, now. The chat flowed pleasantly along
while Tracy painted and Sellers carefully unpacked a picture which he had
brought with him. It was a chromo; a new one, just out. It was the
smirking, self-satisfied portrait of a man who was inundating the Union
with advertisements inviting everybody to buy his specialty, which was a
three-dollar shoe or a dress-suit or something of that kind. The old
gentleman rested the chromo flat upon his lap and gazed down tenderly upon
it, and became silent and meditative. Presently Tracy noticed that he was
dripping tears on it. This touched the young fellow's sympathetic nature,
and at the same time gave him the painful sense of being an intruder upon
a sacred privacy, an observer of emotions which a stranger ought not to
witness. But his pity rose superior to other considerations, and compelled
him to try to comfort the old mourner with kindly words and a show of
friendly interest. He said:</p>
<p>"I am very sorry—is it a friend whom—"</p>
<p>"Ah, more than that, far more than that—a relative, the dearest I
had on earth, although I was never permitted to see him. Yes, it is young
Lord Berkeley, who perished so heroically in the awful conflagration. Why
what is the matter?"</p>
<p>"Oh, nothing, nothing."</p>
<p>"It was a little startling to be so suddenly brought face to face, so to
speak, with a person one has heard so much talk about. Is it a good
likeness?"</p>
<p>"Without doubt, yes. I never saw him, but you can easily see the
resemblance to his father," said Sellers, holding up the chromo and
glancing from it to the chromo misrepresenting the Usurping Earl and back
again with an approving eye.</p>
<p>"Well, no—I am not sure that I make out the likeness. It is plain
that the Usurping Earl there has a great deal of character and a long face
like a horse's, whereas his heir here is smirky, moon-faced and
characterless."</p>
<p>"We are all that way in the beginning—all the line," said Sellers,
undisturbed. "We all start as moonfaced fools, then later we tadpole along
into horse-faced marvels of intellect and character. It is by that sign
and by that fact that I detect the resemblance here and know this portrait
to be genuine and perfect. Yes, all our family are fools at first."</p>
<p>"This young man seems to meet the hereditary requirement, certainly."</p>
<p>"Yes, yes, he was a fool, without any doubt. Examine the face, the shape
of the head, the expression. It's all fool, fool, fool, straight through."</p>
<p>"Thanks,—" said Tracy, involuntarily.</p>
<p>"Thanks?"</p>
<p>"I mean for explaining it to me. Go on, please."</p>
<p>"As I was saying, fool is printed all over the face. A body can even read
the details."</p>
<p>"What do they say?"</p>
<p>"Well, added up, he is a wobbler."</p>
<p>"A which?"</p>
<p>"Wobbler. A person that's always taking a firm stand about something or
other—kind of a Gibraltar stand, he thinks, for unshakable fidelity
and everlastingness—and then, inside of a little while, he begins to
wobble; no more Gibraltar there; no, sir, a mighty ordinary commonplace
weakling wobbling around on stilts. That's Lord Berkeley to a dot, you can
see it—look at that sheep! But,—why are you blushing like
sunset! Dear sir, have I unwittingly offended in some way?"</p>
<p>"Oh, no indeed, no indeed. Far from it. But it always makes me blush to
hear a man revile his own blood." He said to himself, "How strangely his
vagrant and unguided fancies have hit upon the truth. By accident, he has
described me. I am that contemptible thing. When I left England I thought
I knew myself; I thought I was a very Frederick the Great for resolution
and staying capacity; whereas in truth I am just a Wobbler, simply a
Wobbler. Well—after all, it is at least creditable to have high
ideals and give birth to lofty resolutions; I will allow myself that
comfort." Then he said, aloud, "Could this sheep, as you call him, breed a
great and self-sacrificing idea in his head, do you think? Could he
meditate such a thing, for instance, as the renunciation of the earldom
and its wealth and its glories, and voluntary retirement to the ranks of
the commonalty, there to rise by his own merit or remain forever poor and
obscure?"</p>
<p>"Could he? Why, look at him—look at this simpering self-righteous
mug! There is your answer. It's the very thing he would think of. And he
would start in to do it, too."</p>
<p>"And then?"</p>
<p>"He'd wobble."</p>
<p>"And back down?"</p>
<p>"Every time."</p>
<p>"Is that to happen with all my—I mean would that happen to all his
high resolutions?"</p>
<p>"Oh certainly—certainly. It's the Rossmore of it."</p>
<p>"Then this creature was fortunate to die! Suppose, for argument's sake,
that I was a Rossmore, and—"</p>
<p>"It can't be done."</p>
<p>"Why?"</p>
<p>"Because it's not a supposable case. To be a Rossmore at your age, you'd
have to be a fool, and you're not a fool. And you'd have to be a Wobbler,
whereas anybody that is an expert in reading character can see at a glance
that when you set your foot down once, it's there to stay; and earthquake
can't wobble it." He added to himself, "That's enough to say to him, but
it isn't half strong enough for the facts. The more I observe him, now,
the more remarkable I find him. It is the strongest face I have ever
examined. There is almost superhuman firmness here, immovable purpose,
iron steadfastness of will. A most extraordinary young man."</p>
<p>He presently said, aloud:</p>
<p>"Some time I want to ask your advice about a little matter, Mr. Tracy. You
see, I've got that young lord's remains—my goodness, how you jump!"</p>
<p>"Oh, it's nothing, pray go on. You've got his remains?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"Are you sure they are his, and not somebody else's?"</p>
<p>"Oh, perfectly sure. Samples, I mean. Not all of him."</p>
<p>"Samples?"</p>
<p>"Yes—in baskets. Some time you will be going home; and if you
wouldn't mind taking them along—"</p>
<p>"Who? I?"</p>
<p>"Yes—certainly. I don't mean now; but after a while; after—but
look here, would you like to see them?"</p>
<p>"No! Most certainly not. I don't want to see them."</p>
<p>"O, very well. I only thought—hey, where are you going, dear?"</p>
<p>"Out to dinner, papa."</p>
<p>Tracy was aghast. The colonel said, in a disappointed voice:</p>
<p>"Well, I'm sorry. Sho, I didn't know she was going out, Mr. Tracy."</p>
<p>Gwendolen's face began to take on a sort of apprehensive 'What-have-I-done
expression.'</p>
<p>"Three old people to one young one—well, it isn't a good team,
that's a fact."</p>
<p>Gwendolen's face betrayed a dawning hopefulness and she said—with a
tone of reluctance which hadn't the hall-mark on it:</p>
<p>"If you prefer, I will send word to the Thompsons that I—"</p>
<p>"Oh, is it the Thompsons? That simplifies it—sets everything right.
We can fix it without spoiling your arrangements, my child. You've got
your heart set on—"</p>
<p>"But papa, I'd just as soon go there some other—"</p>
<p>"No—I won't have it. You are a good hard-working darling child, and
your father is not the man to disappoint you when you—"</p>
<p>"But papa, I—"</p>
<p>"Go along, I won't hear a word. We'll get along, dear."</p>
<p>Gwendolen was ready to cry with vexation. But there was nothing to do but
start; which she was about to do when her father hit upon an idea which
filled him with delight because it so deftly covered all the difficulties
of the situation and made things smooth and satisfactory:</p>
<p>"I've got it, my love, so that you won't be robbed of your holiday and at
the same time we'll be pretty satisfactorily fixed for a good time here.
You send Belle Thompson here—perfectly beautiful creature, Tracy,
perfectly beautiful; I want you to see that girl; why, you'll just go mad;
you'll go mad inside of a minute; yes, you send her right along,
Gwendolen, and tell her—why, she's gone!" He turned—she was
already passing out at the gate. He muttered, "I wonder what's the matter;
I don't know what her mouth's doing, but I think her shoulders are
swearing. Well," said Sellers blithely to Tracy, "I shall miss her—parents
always miss the children as soon as they're out of sight, it's only a
natural and wisely ordained partiality—but you'll be all right,
because Miss Belle will supply the youthful element for you and to your
entire content; and we old people will do our best, too. We shall have a
good enough time. And you'll have a chance to get better acquainted with
Admiral Hawkins. That's a rare character, Mr. Tracy—one of the
rarest and most engaging characters the world has produced. You'll find
him worth studying. I've studied him ever since he was a child and have
always found him developing. I really consider that one of the main things
that have enabled me to master the difficult science of character-reading
was the vivid interest I always felt in that boy and the baffling
inscrutabilities of his ways and inspirations."</p>
<p>Tracy was not hearing a word. His spirits were gone, he was desolate.</p>
<p>"Yes, a most wonderful character. Concealment—that's the basis of
it. Always the first thing you want to do is to find the keystone a man's
character is built on—then you've got it. No misleading and
apparently inconsistent peculiarities can fool you then. What do you read
on the Senator's surface? Simplicity; a kind of rank and protuberant
simplicity; whereas, in fact, that's one of the deepest minds in the
world. A perfectly honest man—an absolutely honest and honorable man—and
yet without doubt the profoundest master of dissimulation the world has
ever seen."</p>
<p>"O, it's devilish!" This was wrung from the unlistening Tracy by the
anguished thought of what might have been if only the dinner arrangements
hadn't got mixed.</p>
<p>"No, I shouldn't call it that," said Sellers, who was now placidly walking
up and down the room with his hands under his coat-tails and listening to
himself talk. "One could quite properly call it devilish in another man,
but not in the Senator. Your term is right—perfectly right—I
grant that—but the application is wrong. It makes a great
difference. Yes, he is a marvelous character. I do not suppose that any
other statesman ever had such a colossal sense of humor, combined with the
ability to totally conceal it. I may except George Washington and
Cromwell, and perhaps Robespierre, but I draw the line there. A person not
an expert might be in Judge Hawkins's company a lifetime and never find
out he had any more sense of humor than a cemetery."</p>
<p>A deep-drawn yard-long sigh from the distraught and dreaming artist,
followed by a murmured, "Miserable, oh, miserable!"</p>
<p>"Well, no, I shouldn't say that about it, quite. On the contrary, I admire
his ability to conceal his humor even more if possible than I admire the
gift itself, stupendous as it is. Another thing—General Hawkins is a
thinker; a keen, logical, exhaustive, analytical thinker—perhaps the
ablest of modern times. That is, of course, upon themes suited to his
size, like the glacial period, and the correlation of forces, and the
evolution of the Christian from the caterpillar—any of those things;
give him a subject according to his size, and just stand back and watch
him think! Why you can see the place rock! Ah, yes, you must know him; you
must get on the inside of him. Perhaps the most extraordinary mind since
Aristotle."</p>
<p>Dinner was kept waiting for a while for Miss Thompson, but as Gwendolen
had not delivered the invitation to her the waiting did no good, and the
household presently went to the meal without her. Poor old Sellers tried
everything his hospitable soul could devise to make the occasion an
enjoyable one for the guest, and the guest tried his honest best to be
cheery and chatty and happy for the old gentleman's sake; in fact all
hands worked hard in the interest of a mutual good time, but the thing was
a failure from the start; Tracy's heart was lead in his bosom, there
seemed to be only one prominent feature in the landscape and that was a
vacant chair, he couldn't drag his mind away from Gwendolen and his hard
luck; consequently his distractions allowed deadly pauses to slip in every
now and then when it was his turn to say something, and of course this
disease spread to the rest of the conversation—wherefore, instead of
having a breezy sail in sunny waters, as anticipated, everybody was
bailing out and praying for land. What could the matter be? Tracy alone
could have told, the others couldn't even invent a theory.</p>
<p>Meanwhile they were having a similarly dismal time at the Thompson house;
in fact a twin experience. Gwendolen was ashamed of herself for allowing
her disappointment to so depress her spirits and make her so strangely and
profoundly miserable; but feeling ashamed of herself didn't improve the
matter any; it only seemed to aggravate the suffering. She explained that
she was not feeling very well, and everybody could see that this was true;
so she got sincere sympathy and commiseration; but that didn't help the
case. Nothing helps that kind of a case. It is best to just stand off and
let it fester. The moment the dinner was over the girl excused herself,
and she hurried home feeling unspeakably grateful to get away from that
house and that intolerable captivity and suffering.</p>
<p>Will he be gone? The thought arose in her brain, but took effect in her
heels. She slipped into the house, threw off her things and made straight
for the dining room. She stopped and listened. Her father's voice—with
no life in it; presently her mother's—no life in that; a
considerable vacancy, then a sterile remark from Washington Hawkins.
Another silence; then, not Tracy's but her father's voice again.</p>
<p>"He's gone," she said to herself despairingly, and listlessly opened the
door and stepped within.</p>
<p>"Why, my child," cried the mother, "how white you are! Are you—has
anything—"</p>
<p>"White?" exclaimed Sellers. "It's gone like a flash; 'twasn't serious.
Already she's as red as the soul of a watermelon! Sit down, dear, sit down—goodness
knows you're welcome. Did you have a good time? We've had great times here—immense.
Why didn't Miss Belle come? Mr. Tracy is not feeling well, and she'd have
made him forget it."</p>
<p>She was content now; and out from her happy eyes there went a light that
told a secret to another pair of eyes there and got a secret in return. In
just that infinitely small fraction of a second those two great
confessions were made, received, and perfectly understood. All anxiety,
apprehension, uncertainty, vanished out of these young people's hearts and
left them filled with a great peace.</p>
<p>Sellers had had the most confident faith that with the new reinforcement
victory would be at this last moment snatched from the jaws of defeat, but
it was an error. The talk was as stubbornly disjointed as ever. He was
proud of Gwendolen, and liked to show her off, even against Miss Belle
Thompson, and here had been a great opportunity, and what had she made of
it? He felt a good deal put out. It vexed him to think that this
Englishman, with the traveling Briton's everlasting disposition to
generalize whole mountain ranges from single sample-grains of sand, would
jump to the conclusion that American girls were as dumb as himself—generalizing
the whole tribe from this single sample and she at her poorest, there
being nothing at that table to inspire her, give her a start, keep her
from going to sleep. He made up his mind that for the honor of the country
he would bring these two together again over the social board before long.
There would be a different result another time, he judged. He said to
himself, with a deep sense of injury, "He'll put in his diary—they
all keep diaries—he'll put in his diary that she was miraculously
uninteresting—dear, dear, but wasn't she! I never saw the like—and
yet looking as beautiful as Satan, too—and couldn't seem to do
anything but paw bread crumbs, and pick flowers to pieces, and look
fidgety. And it isn't any better here in the Hall of Audience. I've had
enough; I'll haul down my flag—the others may fight it out if they
want to."</p>
<p>He shook hands all around and went off to do some work which he said was
pressing. The idolaters were the width of the room apart; and apparently
unconscious of each other's presence. The distance got shortened a little,
now. Very soon the mother withdrew. The distance narrowed again. Tracy
stood before a chromo of some Ohio politician which had been retouched and
chain-mailed for a crusading Rossmore, and Gwendolen was sitting on the
sofa not far from his elbow artificially absorbed in examining a
photograph album that hadn't any photographs in it.</p>
<p>The "Senator" still lingered. He was sorry for the young people; it had
been a dull evening for them. In the goodness of his heart he tried to
make it pleasant for them now; tried to remove the ill impression
necessarily left by the general defeat; tried to be chatty, even tried to
be gay. But the responses were sickly, there was no starting any
enthusiasm; he would give it up and quit—it was a day specially
picked out and consecrated to failures.</p>
<p>But when Gwendolen rose up promptly and smiled a glad smile and said with
thankfulness and blessing, "Must you go?" it seemed cruel to desert, and
he sat down again.</p>
<p>He was about to begin a remark when—when he didn't. We have all been
there. He didn't know how he knew his concluding to stay longer had been a
mistake, he merely knew it; and knew it for dead certain, too. And so he
bade goodnight, and went mooning out, wondering what he could have done
that changed the atmosphere that way. As the door closed behind him those
two were standing side by side, looking at that door—looking at it
in a waiting, second-counting, but deeply grateful kind of way. And the
instant it closed they flung their arms about each other's necks, and
there, heart to heart and lip to lip—</p>
<p>"Oh, my God, she's kissing it!"</p>
<p>Nobody heard this remark, because Hawkins, who bred it, only thought it,
he didn't utter it. He had turned, the moment he had closed the door, and
had pushed it open a little, intending to re-enter and ask what
ill-advised thing he had done or said, and apologize for it. But he didn't
re-enter; he staggered off stunned, terrified, distressed.</p>
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