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<h2> CHAPTER XX. </h2>
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<p>Tracy made slow progress with his work, for his mind wandered a good deal.
Many things were puzzling him. Finally a light burst upon him all of a
sudden—seemed to, at any rate—and he said to himself, "I've
got the clew at last—this man's mind is off its balance; I don't
know how much, but it's off a point or two, sure; off enough to explain
this mess of perplexities, anyway. These dreadful chromos which he takes
for old masters; these villainous portraits—which to his frantic
mind represent Rossmores; the hatchments; the pompous name of this
ramshackle old crib—Rossmore Towers; and that odd assertion of his,
that I was expected. How could I be expected? that is, Lord Berkeley. He
knows by the papers that that person was burned up in the New Gadsby. Why,
hang it, he really doesn't know who he was expecting; for his talk showed
that he was not expecting an Englishman, or yet an artist, yet I answer
his requirements notwithstanding. He seems sufficiently satisfied with me.
Yes, he is a little off; in fact I am afraid he is a good deal off, poor
old gentleman. But he's interesting—all people in about his
condition are, I suppose. I hope he'll like my work; I would like to come
every day and study him. And when I write my father—ah, that hurts!
I mustn't get on that subject; it isn't good for my spirits. Somebody
coming—I must get to work. It's the old gentleman again. He looks
bothered. Maybe my clothes are suspicious; and they are—for an
artist. If my conscience would allow me to make a change, but that is out
of the question. I wonder what he's making those passes in the air for,
with his hands. I seem to be the object of them. Can he be trying to
mesmerize me? I don't quite like it. There's something uncanny about it."</p>
<p>The colonel muttered to himself, "It has an effect on him, I can see it
myself. That's enough for one time, I reckon. He's not very solid, yet, I
suppose, and I might disintegrate him. I'll just put a sly question or two
at him, now, and see if I can find out what his condition is, and where
he's from."</p>
<p>He approached and said affably:</p>
<p>"Don't let me disturb you, Mr. Tracy; I only want to take a little glimpse
of your work. Ah, that's fine—that's very fine indeed. You are doing
it elegantly. My daughter will be charmed with this. May I sit down by
you?"</p>
<p>"Oh, do; I shall be glad."</p>
<p>"It won't disturb you? I mean, won't dissipate your inspirations?"</p>
<p>Tracy laughed and said they were not ethereal enough to be very easily
discommoded.</p>
<p>The colonel asked a number of cautious and well-considered questions—questions
which seemed pretty odd and flighty to Tracy—but the answers
conveyed the information desired, apparently, for the colonel said to
himself, with mixed pride and gratification:</p>
<p>"It's a good job as far as I've got with it. He's solid. Solid and going
to last, solid as the real thing."</p>
<p>"It's wonderful—wonderful. I believe I could—petrify him."
After a little he asked, warily "Do you prefer being here, or—or
there?"</p>
<p>"There? Where?"</p>
<p>"Why—er—where you've been?"</p>
<p>Tracy's thought flew to his boarding-house, and he answered with decision.</p>
<p>"Oh, here, much!"</p>
<p>The colonel was startled, and said to himself, "There's no uncertain ring
about that. It indicates where he's been to, poor fellow. Well, I am
satisfied, now. I'm glad I got him out."</p>
<p>He sat thinking, and thinking, and watching the brush go. At length he
said to himself, "Yes, it certainly seems to account for the failure of my
endeavors in poor Berkeley's case. He went in the other direction. Well,
it's all right. He's better off."</p>
<p>Sally Sellers entered from the street, now, looking her divinest, and the
artist was introduced to her. It was a violent case of mutual love at
first sight, though neither party was entirely aware of the fact, perhaps.
The Englishman made this irrelevant remark to himself, "Perhaps he is not
insane, after all." Sally sat down, and showed an interest in Tracy's work
which greatly pleased him, and a benevolent forgiveness of it which
convinced him that the girl's nature was cast in a large mould. Sellers
was anxious to report his discoveries to Hawkins; so he took his leave,
saying that if the two "young devotees of the colored Muse" thought they
could manage without him, he would go and look after his affairs. The
artist said to himself, "I think he is a little eccentric, perhaps, but
that is all." He reproached himself for having injuriously judged a man
without giving him any fair chance to show what he really was.</p>
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<p>Of course the stranger was very soon at his ease and chatting along
comfortably. The average American girl possesses the valuable qualities of
naturalness, honesty, and inoffensive straightforwardness; she is nearly
barren of troublesome conventions and artificialities, consequently her
presence and her ways are unembarrassing, and one is acquainted with her
and on the pleasantest terms with her before he knows how it came about.
This new acquaintanceship—friendship, indeed—progressed
swiftly; and the unusual swiftness of it, and the thoroughness of it are
sufficiently evidenced and established by one noteworthy fact—that
within the first half hour both parties had ceased to be conscious of
Tracy's clothes. Later this consciousness was re-awakened; it was then
apparent to Gwendolen that she was almost reconciled to them, and it was
apparent to Tracy that he wasn't. The re-awakening was brought about by
Gwendolen's inviting the artist to stay to dinner. He had to decline,
because he wanted to live, now—that is, now that there was something
to live for—and he could not survive in those clothes at a
gentleman's table. He thought he knew that. But he went away happy, for he
saw that Gwendolen was disappointed.</p>
<p>And whither did he go? He went straight to a slopshop and bought as neat
and reasonably well-fitting a suit of clothes as an Englishman could be
persuaded to wear. He said—to himself, but at his conscience—"I
know it's wrong; but it would be wrong not to do it; and two wrongs do not
make a right."</p>
<p>This satisfied him, and made his heart light. Perhaps it will also satisfy
the reader—if he can make out what it means.</p>
<p>The old people were troubled about Gwendolen at dinner, because she was so
distraught and silent. If they had noticed, they would have found that she
was sufficiently alert and interested whenever the talk stumbled upon the
artist and his work; but they didn't notice, and so the chat would swap
around to some other subject, and then somebody would presently be
privately worrying about Gwendolen again, and wondering if she were not
well, or if something had gone wrong in the millinery line. Her mother
offered her various reputable patent medicines, and tonics with iron and
other hardware in them, and her father even proposed to send out for wine,
relentless prohibitionist and head of the order in the District of
Columbia as he was, but these kindnesses were all declined—thankfully,
but with decision. At bedtime, when the family were breaking up for the
night, she privately looted one of the brushes, saying to herself, "It's
the one he has used, the most."</p>
<p>The next morning Tracy went forth wearing his new suit, and equipped with
a pink in his button-hole—a daily attention from Puss. His whole
soul was full of Gwendolen Sellers, and this condition was an inspiration,
art-wise. All the morning his brush pawed nimbly away at the canvases,
almost without his awarity—awarity, in this sense being the sense of
being aware, though disputed by some authorities—turning out marvel
upon marvel, in the way of decorative accessories to the portraits, with a
felicity and celerity which amazed the veterans of the firm and fetched
out of them continuous explosions of applause.</p>
<p>Meantime Gwendolen was losing her morning, and many dollars. She supposed
Tracy was coming in the forenoon—a conclusion which she had jumped
to without outside help. So she tripped down stairs every little while
from her work-parlor to arrange the brushes and things over again, and see
if he had arrived. And when she was in her work-parlor it was not
profitable, but just the other way—as she found out to her sorrow.</p>
<p>She had put in her idle moments during the last little while back, in
designing a particularly rare and capable gown for herself, and this
morning she set about making it up; but she was absent minded, and made an
irremediable botch of it. When she saw what she had done, she knew the
reason of it and the meaning of it; and she put her work away from her and
said she would accept the sign. And from that time forth she came no more
away from the Audience Chamber, but remained there and waited. After
luncheon she waited again. A whole hour. Then a great joy welled up in her
heart, for she saw him coming. So she flew back up stairs thankful, and
could hardly wait for him to miss the principal brush, which she had
mislaid down there, but knew where she had mislaid it. However, all in
good time the others were called in and couldn't find the brush, and then
she was sent for, and she couldn't find it herself for some little time;
but then she found it when the others had gone away to hunt in the kitchen
and down cellar and in the woodshed, and all those other places where
people look for things whose ways they are not familiar with. So she gave
him the brush, and remarked that she ought to have seen that everything
was ready for him, but it hadn't seemed necessary, because it was so early
that she wasn't expecting—but she stopped there, surprised at
herself for what she was saying; and he felt caught and ashamed, and said
to himself, "I knew my impatience would drag me here before I was
expected, and betray me, and that is just what it has done; she sees
straight through me—and is laughing at me, inside, of course."</p>
<p>Gwendolen was very much pleased, on one account, and a little the other
way in another; pleased with the new clothes and the improvement which
they had achieved; less pleased by the pink in the buttonhole. Yesterday's
pink had hardly interested her; this one was just like it, but somehow it
had got her immediate attention, and kept it. She wished she could think
of some way of getting at its history in a properly colorless and
indifferent way. Presently she made a venture. She said:</p>
<p>"Whatever a man's age may be, he can reduce it several years by putting a
bright-colored flower in his button-hole. I have often noticed that. Is
that your sex's reason for wearing a boutonniere?"</p>
<p>"I fancy not, but certainly that reason would be a sufficient one. I've
never heard of the idea before."</p>
<p>"You seem to prefer pinks. Is it on account of the color, or the form?"</p>
<p>"Oh no," he said, simply, "they are given to me. I don't think I have any
preference."</p>
<p>"They are given to him," she said to herself, and she felt a coldness
toward that pink. "I wonder who it is, and what she is like." The flower
began to take up a good deal of room; it obtruded itself everywhere, it
intercepted all views, and marred them; it was becoming exceedingly
annoying and conspicuous for a little thing. "I wonder if he cares for
her." That thought gave her a quite definite pain.</p>
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