<h2>CHAPTER VI.</h2>
<p>She was always in mourning, yet the day he came back from the
longest absence he had yet made her appearance immediately told
him she had lately had a bereavement. They met on this
occasion as she was leaving the church, so that postponing his
own entrance he instantly offered to turn round and walk away
with her. She considered, then she said: “Go in now,
but come and see me in an hour.” He knew the small
vista of her street, closed at the end and as dreary as an empty
pocket, where the pairs of shabby little houses, semi-detached
but indissolubly united, were like married couples on bad
terms. Often, however, as he had gone to the beginning he
had never gone beyond. Her aunt was dead—that he
immediately guessed, as well as that it made a difference; but
when she had for the first time mentioned her number he found
himself, on her leaving him, not a little agitated by this sudden
liberality. She wasn’t a person with whom, after all,
one got on so very fast: it had taken him months and months to
learn her name, years and years to learn her address. If
she had looked, on this reunion, so much older to him, how in the
world did he look to her? She had reached the period of
life he had long since reached, when, after separations, the
marked clock-face of the friend we meet announces the hour we
have tried to forget. He couldn’t have said what he
expected as, at the end of his waiting, he turned the corner
where for years he had always paused; simply not to pause was a
efficient cause for emotion. It was an event, somehow; and
in all their long acquaintance there had never been an
event. This one grew larger when, five minutes later, in
the faint elegance of her little drawing-room, she quavered out a
greeting that showed the measure she took of it. He had a
strange sense of having come for something in particular; strange
because literally there was nothing particular between them,
nothing save that they were at one on their great point, which
had long ago become a magnificent matter of course. It was
true that after she had said “You can always come now, you
know,” the thing he was there for seemed already to have
happened. He asked her if it was the death of her aunt that
made the difference; to which she replied: “She never knew
I knew you. I wished her not to.” The beautiful
clearness of her candour—her faded beauty was like a summer
twilight—disconnected the words from any image of
deceit. They might have struck him as the record of a deep
dissimulation; but she had always given him a sense of noble
reasons. The vanished aunt was present, as he looked about
him, in the small complacencies of the room, the beaded velvet
and the fluted moreen; and though, as we know, he had the worship
of the Dead, he found himself not definitely regretting this
lady. If she wasn’t in his long list, however, she
was in her niece’s short one, and Stransom presently
observed to the latter that now at least, in the place they
haunted together, she would have another object of devotion.</p>
<p>“Yes, I shall have another. She was very kind to
me. It’s that that’s the difference.”</p>
<p>He judged, wondering a good deal before he made any motion to
leave her, that the difference would somehow be very great and
would consist of still other things than her having let him come
in. It rather chilled him, for they had been happy together
as they were. He extracted from her at any rate an
intimation that she should now have means less limited, that her
aunt’s tiny fortune had come to her, so that there was
henceforth only one to consume what had formerly been made to
suffice for two. This was a joy to Stransom, because it had
hitherto been equally impossible for him either to offer her
presents or contentedly to stay his hand. It was too ugly
to be at her side that way, abounding himself and yet not able to
overflow—a demonstration that would have been signally a
false note. Even her better situation too seemed only to
draw out in a sense the loneliness of her future. It would
merely help her to live more and more for their small ceremonial,
and this at a time when he himself had begun wearily to feel
that, having set it in motion, he might depart. When they
had sat a while in the pale parlour she got up—“This
isn’t my room: let us go into mine.” They had
only to cross the narrow hall, as he found, to pass quite into
another air. When she had closed the door of the second
room, as she called it, he felt at last in real possession of
her. The place had the flush of life—it was
expressive; its dark red walls were articulate with memories and
relics. These were simple things—photographs and
water-colours, scraps of writing framed and ghosts of flowers
embalmed; but a moment sufficed to show him they had a common
meaning. It was here she had lived and worked, and she had
already told him she would make no change of scene. He read
the reference in the objects about her—the general one to
places and times; but after a minute he distinguished among them
a small portrait of a gentleman. At a distance and without
their glasses his eyes were only so caught by it as to feel a
vague curiosity. Presently this impulse carried him nearer,
and in another moment he was staring at the picture in
stupefaction and with the sense that some sound had broken from
him. He was further conscious that he showed his companion
a white face when he turned round on her gasping: “Acton
Hague!”</p>
<p>She matched his great wonder. “Did you know
him?”</p>
<p>“He was the friend of all my youth—of my early
manhood. And <i>you</i> knew him?”</p>
<p>She coloured at this and for a moment her answer failed; her
eyes embraced everything in the place, and a strange irony
reached her lips as she echoed: “Knew him?”</p>
<p>Then Stransom understood, while the room heaved like the cabin
of a ship, that its whole contents cried out with him, that it
was a museum in his honour, that all her later years had been
addressed to him and that the shrine he himself had reared had
been passionately converted to this use. It was all for
Acton Hague that she had kneeled every day at his altar.
What need had there been for a consecrated candle when he was
present in the whole array? The revelation so smote our friend in
the face that he dropped into a seat and sat silent. He had
quickly felt her shaken by the force of his shock, but as she
sank on the sofa beside him and laid her hand on his arm he knew
almost as soon that she mightn’t resent it as much as
she’d have liked.</p>
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