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<h3> CHAPTER XXXIII. </h3>
<p>There was agitation to-day in the lives of all whom these matters
concerned. It was not till the Hintock dinner-time—one o'clock—that
Grace discovered her father's absence from the house after a departure
in the morning under somewhat unusual conditions. By a little
reasoning and inquiry she was able to come to a conclusion on his
destination, and to divine his errand.</p>
<p>Her husband was absent, and her father did not return. He had, in
truth, gone on to Sherton after the interview, but this Grace did not
know. In an indefinite dread that something serious would arise out of
Melbury's visit by reason of the inequalities of temper and nervous
irritation to which he was subject, something possibly that would bring
her much more misery than accompanied her present negative state of
mind, she left the house about three o'clock, and took a loitering walk
in the woodland track by which she imagined he would come home. This
track under the bare trees and over the cracking sticks, screened and
roofed in from the outer world of wind and cloud by a net-work of
boughs, led her slowly on till in time she had left the larger trees
behind her and swept round into the coppice where Winterborne and his
men were clearing the undergrowth.</p>
<p>Had Giles's attention been concentrated on his hurdles he would not
have seen her; but ever since Melbury's passage across the opposite
glade in the morning he had been as uneasy and unsettled as Grace
herself; and her advent now was the one appearance which, since her
father's avowal, could arrest him more than Melbury's return with his
tidings. Fearing that something might be the matter, he hastened up to
her.</p>
<p>She had not seen her old lover for a long time, and, too conscious of
the late pranks of her heart, she could not behold him calmly. "I am
only looking for my father," she said, in an unnecessarily apologetic
intonation.</p>
<p>"I was looking for him too," said Giles. "I think he may perhaps have
gone on farther."</p>
<p>"Then you knew he was going to the House, Giles?" she said, turning her
large tender eyes anxiously upon him. "Did he tell you what for?"</p>
<p>Winterborne glanced doubtingly at her, and then softly hinted that her
father had visited him the evening before, and that their old
friendship was quite restored, on which she guessed the rest.</p>
<p>"Oh, I am glad, indeed, that you two are friends again!" she cried.
And then they stood facing each other, fearing each other, troubling
each other's souls. Grace experienced acute misery at the sight of
these wood-cutting scenes, because she had estranged herself from them,
craving, even to its defects and inconveniences, that homely sylvan
life of her father which in the best probable succession of events
would shortly be denied her.</p>
<p>At a little distance, on the edge of the clearing, Marty South was
shaping spar-gads to take home for manufacture during the evenings.
While Winterborne and Mrs. Fitzpiers stood looking at her in their
mutual embarrassment at each other's presence, they beheld approaching
the girl a lady in a dark fur mantle and a black hat, having a white
veil tied picturesquely round it. She spoke to Marty, who turned and
courtesied, and the lady fell into conversation with her. It was Mrs.
Charmond.</p>
<p>On leaving her house, Mrs. Charmond had walked on and onward under the
fret and fever of her mind with more vigor than she was accustomed to
show in her normal moods—a fever which the solace of a cigarette did
not entirely allay. Reaching the coppice, she listlessly observed
Marty at work, threw away her cigarette, and came near. Chop, chop,
chop, went Marty's little billhook with never more assiduity, till Mrs.
Charmond spoke.</p>
<p>"Who is that young lady I see talking to the woodman yonder?" she asked.</p>
<p>"Mrs. Fitzpiers, ma'am," said Marty.</p>
<p>"Oh," said Mrs. Charmond, with something like a start; for she had not
recognized Grace at that distance. "And the man she is talking to?"</p>
<p>"That's Mr. Winterborne."</p>
<p>A redness stole into Marty's face as she mentioned Giles's name, which
Mrs. Charmond did not fail to notice informed her of the state of the
girl's heart. "Are you engaged to him?" she asked, softly.</p>
<p>"No, ma'am," said Marty. "SHE was once; and I think—"</p>
<p>But Marty could not possibly explain the complications of her thoughts
on this matter—which were nothing less than one of extraordinary
acuteness for a girl so young and inexperienced—namely, that she saw
danger to two hearts naturally honest in Grace being thrown back into
Winterborne's society by the neglect of her husband. Mrs. Charmond,
however, with the almost supersensory means to knowledge which women
have on such occasions, quite understood what Marty had intended to
convey, and the picture thus exhibited to her of lives drifting away,
involving the wreck of poor Marty's hopes, prompted her to more
generous resolves than all Melbury's remonstrances had been able to
stimulate.</p>
<p>Full of the new feeling, she bade the girl good-afternoon, and went on
over the stumps of hazel to where Grace and Winterborne were standing.
They saw her approach, and Winterborne said, "She is coming to you; it
is a good omen. She dislikes me, so I'll go away." He accordingly
retreated to where he had been working before Grace came, and Grace's
formidable rival approached her, each woman taking the other's measure
as she came near.</p>
<p>"Dear—Mrs. Fitzpiers," said Felice Charmond, with some inward turmoil
which stopped her speech. "I have not seen you for a long time."</p>
<p>She held out her hand tentatively, while Grace stood like a wild animal
on first confronting a mirror or other puzzling product of
civilization. Was it really Mrs. Charmond speaking to her thus? If it
was, she could no longer form any guess as to what it signified.</p>
<p>"I want to talk with you," said Mrs. Charmond, imploringly, for the
gaze of the young woman had chilled her through. "Can you walk on with
me till we are quite alone?"</p>
<p>Sick with distaste, Grace nevertheless complied, as by clockwork and
they moved evenly side by side into the deeper recesses of the woods.
They went farther, much farther than Mrs. Charmond had meant to go; but
she could not begin her conversation, and in default of it kept walking.</p>
<p>"I have seen your father," she at length resumed. "And—I am much
troubled by what he told me."</p>
<p>"What did he tell you? I have not been admitted to his confidence on
anything he may have said to you."</p>
<p>"Nevertheless, why should I repeat to you what you can easily divine?"</p>
<p>"True—true," returned Grace, mournfully. "Why should you repeat what
we both know to be in our minds already?"</p>
<p>"Mrs. Fitzpiers, your husband—" The moment that the speaker's tongue
touched the dangerous subject a vivid look of self-consciousness
flashed over her, in which her heart revealed, as by a lightning gleam,
what filled it to overflowing. So transitory was the expression that
none but a sensitive woman, and she in Grace's position, would have had
the power to catch its meaning. Upon her the phase was not lost.</p>
<p>"Then you DO love him!" she exclaimed, in a tone of much surprise.</p>
<p>"What do you mean, my young friend?"</p>
<p>"Why," cried Grace, "I thought till now that you had only been cruelly
flirting with my husband, to amuse your idle moments—a rich lady with
a poor professional gentleman whom in her heart she despised not much
less than her who belongs to him. But I guess from your manner that
you love him desperately, and I don't hate you as I did before."</p>
<p>"Yes, indeed," continued Mrs. Fitzpiers, with a trembling tongue,
"since it is not playing in your case at all, but REAL. Oh, I do pity
you, more than I despise you, for you will s-s-suffer most!"</p>
<p>Mrs. Charmond was now as much agitated as Grace. "I ought not to allow
myself to argue with you," she exclaimed. "I demean myself by doing
it. But I liked you once, and for the sake of that time I try to tell
you how mistaken you are!" Much of her confusion resulted from her
wonder and alarm at finding herself in a sense dominated mentally and
emotionally by this simple school-girl. "I do not love him," she went
on, with desperate untruth. "It was a kindness—my making somewhat
more of him than one usually does of one's doctor. I was lonely; I
talked—well, I trifled with him. I am very sorry if such child's
playing out of pure friendship has been a serious matter to you. Who
could have expected it? But the world is so simple here."</p>
<p>"Oh, that's affectation," said Grace, shaking her head. "It is no
use—you love him. I can see in your face that in this matter of my
husband you have not let your acts belie your feelings. During these
last four or six months you have been terribly indiscreet; but you have
not been insincere, and that almost disarms me."</p>
<p>"I HAVE been insincere—if you will have the word—I mean I HAVE
coquetted, and do NOT love him!"</p>
<p>But Grace clung to her position like a limpet. "You may have trifled
with others, but him you love as you never loved another man."</p>
<p>"Oh, well—I won't argue," said Mrs. Charmond, laughing faintly. "And
you come to reproach me for it, child."</p>
<p>"No," said Grace, magnanimously. "You may go on loving him if you
like—I don't mind at all. You'll find it, let me tell you, a bitterer
business for yourself than for me in the end. He'll get tired of you
soon, as tired as can be—you don't know him so well as I—and then you
may wish you had never seen him!"</p>
<p>Mrs. Charmond had grown quite pale and weak under this prophecy. It was
extraordinary that Grace, whom almost every one would have
characterized as a gentle girl, should be of stronger fibre than her
interlocutor. "You exaggerate—cruel, silly young woman," she
reiterated, writhing with little agonies. "It is nothing but playful
friendship—nothing! It will be proved by my future conduct. I shall
at once refuse to see him more—since it will make no difference to my
heart, and much to my name."</p>
<p>"I question if you will refuse to see him again," said Grace, dryly, as
with eyes askance she bent a sapling down. "But I am not incensed
against you as you are against me," she added, abandoning the tree to
its natural perpendicular. "Before I came I had been despising you for
wanton cruelty; now I only pity you for misplaced affection. When
Edgar has gone out of the house in hope of seeing you, at seasonable
hours and unseasonable; when I have found him riding miles and miles
across the country at midnight, and risking his life, and getting
covered with mud, to get a glimpse of you, I have called him a foolish
man—the plaything of a finished coquette. I thought that what was
getting to be a tragedy to me was a comedy to you. But now I see that
tragedy lies on YOUR side of the situation no less than on MINE, and
more; that if I have felt trouble at my position, you have felt anguish
at yours; that if I have had disappointments, you have had despairs.
Heaven may fortify me—God help you!"</p>
<p>"I cannot attempt to reply to your raving eloquence," returned the
other, struggling to restore a dignity which had completely collapsed.
"My acts will be my proofs. In the world which you have seen nothing
of, friendships between men and women are not unknown, and it would
have been better both for you and your father if you had each judged me
more respectfully, and left me alone. As it is I wish never to see or
speak to you, madam, any more."</p>
<p>Grace bowed, and Mrs. Charmond turned away. The two went apart in
directly opposite courses, and were soon hidden from each other by
their umbrageous surroundings and by the shadows of eve.</p>
<p>In the excitement of their long argument they had walked onward and
zigzagged about without regarding direction or distance. All sound of
the woodcutters had long since faded into remoteness, and even had not
the interval been too great for hearing them they would have been
silent and homeward bound at this twilight hour. But Grace went on her
course without any misgiving, though there was much underwood here,
with only the narrowest passages for walking, across which brambles
hung. She had not, however, traversed this the wildest part of the
wood since her childhood, and the transformation of outlines had been
great; old trees which once were landmarks had been felled or blown
down, and the bushes which then had been small and scrubby were now
large and overhanging. She soon found that her ideas as to direction
were vague—that she had indeed no ideas as to direction at all. If
the evening had not been growing so dark, and the wind had not put on
its night moan so distinctly, Grace would not have minded; but she was
rather frightened now, and began to strike across hither and thither in
random courses.</p>
<p>Denser grew the darkness, more developed the wind-voices, and still no
recognizable spot or outlet of any kind appeared, nor any sound of the
Hintocks floated near, though she had wandered probably between one and
two hours, and began to be weary. She was vexed at her foolishness,
since the ground she had covered, if in a straight line, must
inevitably have taken her out of the wood to some remote village or
other; but she had wasted her forces in countermarches; and now, in
much alarm, wondered if she would have to pass the night here. She
stood still to meditate, and fancied that between the soughing of the
wind she heard shuffling footsteps on the leaves heavier than those of
rabbits or hares. Though fearing at first to meet anybody on the chance
of his being a friend, she decided that the fellow night-rambler, even
if a poacher, would not injure her, and that he might possibly be some
one sent to search for her. She accordingly shouted a rather timid
"Hoi!"</p>
<p>The cry was immediately returned by the other person; and Grace running
at once in the direction whence it came beheld an indistinct figure
hastening up to her as rapidly. They were almost in each other's arms
when she recognized in her vis-a-vis the outline and white veil of her
whom she had parted from an hour and a half before—Mrs. Charmond.</p>
<p>"I have lost my way, I have lost my way," cried that lady. "Oh—is it
indeed you? I am so glad to meet you or anybody. I have been wandering
up and down ever since we parted, and am nearly dead with terror and
misery and fatigue!"</p>
<p>"So am I," said Grace. "What shall we, shall we do?"</p>
<p>"You won't go away from me?" asked her companion, anxiously.</p>
<p>"No, indeed. Are you very tired?"</p>
<p>"I can scarcely move, and I am scratched dreadfully about the ankles."</p>
<p>Grace reflected. "Perhaps, as it is dry under foot, the best thing for
us to do would be to sit down for half an hour, and then start again
when we have thoroughly rested. By walking straight we must come to a
track leading somewhere before the morning."</p>
<p>They found a clump of bushy hollies which afforded a shelter from the
wind, and sat down under it, some tufts of dead fern, crisp and dry,
that remained from the previous season forming a sort of nest for them.
But it was cold, nevertheless, on this March night, particularly for
Grace, who with the sanguine prematureness of youth in matters of
dress, had considered it spring-time, and hence was not so warmly clad
as Mrs. Charmond, who still wore her winter fur. But after sitting a
while the latter lady shivered no less than Grace as the warmth
imparted by her hasty walking began to go off, and they felt the cold
air drawing through the holly leaves which scratched their backs and
shoulders. Moreover, they could hear some drops of rain falling on the
trees, though none reached the nook in which they had ensconced
themselves.</p>
<p>"If we were to cling close together," said Mrs. Charmond, "we should
keep each other warm. But," she added, in an uneven voice, "I suppose
you won't come near me for the world!"</p>
<p>"Why not?"</p>
<p>"Because—well, you know."</p>
<p>"Yes. I will—I don't hate you at all."</p>
<p>They consequently crept up to one another, and being in the dark,
lonely and weary, did what neither had dreamed of doing beforehand,
clasped each other closely, Mrs. Charmond's furs consoling Grace's cold
face, and each one's body as she breathed alternately heaving against
that of her companion.</p>
<p>When a few minutes had been spent thus, Mrs. Charmond said, "I am so
wretched!" in a heavy, emotional whisper.</p>
<p>"You are frightened," said Grace, kindly. "But there is nothing to
fear; I know these woods well."</p>
<p>"I am not at all frightened at the wood, but I am at other things."</p>
<p>Mrs. Charmond embraced Grace more and more tightly, and the younger
woman could feel her neighbor's breathings grow deeper and more
spasmodic, as though uncontrollable feelings were germinating.</p>
<p>"After I had left you," she went on, "I regretted something I had said.
I have to make a confession—I must make it!" she whispered, brokenly,
the instinct to indulge in warmth of sentiment which had led this woman
of passions to respond to Fitzpiers in the first place leading her now
to find luxurious comfort in opening her heart to his wife. "I said to
you I could give him up without pain or deprivation—that he had only
been my pastime. That was untrue—it was said to deceive you. I could
not do it without much pain; and, what is more dreadful, I cannot give
him up—even if I would—of myself alone."</p>
<p>"Why? Because you love him, you mean."</p>
<p>Felice Charmond denoted assent by a movement.</p>
<p>"I knew I was right!" said Grace, exaltedly. "But that should not
deter you," she presently added, in a moral tone. "Oh, do struggle
against it, and you will conquer!"</p>
<p>"You are so simple, so simple!" cried Felice. "You think, because you
guessed my assumed indifference to him to be a sham, that you know the
extremes that people are capable of going to! But a good deal more may
have been going on than you have fathomed with all your insight. I
CANNOT give him up until he chooses to give up me."</p>
<p>"But surely you are the superior in station and in every way, and the
cut must come from you."</p>
<p>"Tchut! Must I tell verbatim, you simple child? Oh, I suppose I must! I
shall eat away my heart if I do not let out all, after meeting you like
this and finding how guileless you are." She thereupon whispered a few
words in the girl's ear, and burst into a violent fit of sobbing.</p>
<p>Grace started roughly away from the shelter of the fur, and sprang to
her feet.</p>
<p>"Oh, my God!" she exclaimed, thunderstruck at a revelation transcending
her utmost suspicion. "Can it be—can it be!"</p>
<p>She turned as if to hasten away. But Felice Charmond's sobs came to
her ear: deep darkness circled her about, the funereal trees rocked and
chanted their diriges and placebos around her, and she did not know
which way to go. After a moment of energy she felt mild again, and
turned to the motionless woman at her feet.</p>
<p>"Are you rested?" she asked, in what seemed something like her own
voice grown ten years older.</p>
<p>Without an answer Mrs. Charmond slowly rose.</p>
<p>"You mean to betray me!" she said from the bitterest depths of her
soul. "Oh fool, fool I!"</p>
<p>"No," said Grace, shortly. "I mean no such thing. But let us be quick
now. We have a serious undertaking before us. Think of nothing but
going straight on."</p>
<p>They walked on in profound silence, pulling back boughs now growing
wet, and treading down woodbine, but still keeping a pretty straight
course. Grace began to be thoroughly worn out, and her companion too,
when, on a sudden, they broke into the deserted highway at the hill-top
on which the Sherton man had waited for Mrs. Dollery's van. Grace
recognized the spot as soon as she looked around her.</p>
<p>"How we have got here I cannot tell," she said, with cold civility.
"We have made a complete circuit of Little Hintock. The hazel copse is
quite on the other side. Now we have only to follow the road."</p>
<p>They dragged themselves onward, turned into the lane, passed the track
to Little Hintock, and so reached the park.</p>
<p>"Here I turn back," said Grace, in the same passionless voice. "You are
quite near home."</p>
<p>Mrs. Charmond stood inert, seeming appalled by her late admission.</p>
<p>"I have told you something in a moment of irresistible desire to
unburden my soul which all but a fool would have kept silent as the
grave," she said. "I cannot help it now. Is it to be a secret—or do
you mean war?"</p>
<p>"A secret, certainly," said Grace, mournfully. "How can you expect war
from such a helpless, wretched being as I!"</p>
<p>"And I'll do my best not to see him. I am his slave; but I'll try."</p>
<p>Grace was naturally kind; but she could not help using a small dagger
now.</p>
<p>"Pray don't distress yourself," she said, with exquisitely fine scorn.
"You may keep him—for me." Had she been wounded instead of mortified
she could not have used the words; but Fitzpiers's hold upon her heart
was slight.</p>
<p>They parted thus and there, and Grace went moodily homeward. Passing
Marty's cottage she observed through the window that the girl was
writing instead of chopping as usual, and wondered what her
correspondence could be. Directly afterwards she met people in search
of her, and reached the house to find all in serious alarm. She soon
explained that she had lost her way, and her general depression was
attributed to exhaustion on that account.</p>
<p>Could she have known what Marty was writing she would have been
surprised.</p>
<p>The rumor which agitated the other folk of Hintock had reached the
young girl, and she was penning a letter to Fitzpiers, to tell him that
Mrs. Charmond wore her hair. It was poor Marty's only card, and she
played it, knowing nothing of fashion, and thinking her revelation a
fatal one for a lover.</p>
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