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<h3>CHAPTER X.</h3>
<h4>HARD WORDS.<br/> </h4>
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It is to be feared that men in general do not regret as they should
do any temporary ill-feeling, or irritating jealousy between husbands
and wives, of which they themselves have been the cause. The author
is not speaking now of actual love-makings, of intrigues and devilish
villany, either perpetrated or imagined; but rather of those passing
gusts of short-lived and unfounded suspicion to which, as to other
accidents, very well-regulated families may occasionally be liable.
When such suspicion rises in the bosom of a wife, some woman
intervening or being believed to intervene between her and the man
who is her own, that woman who has intervened or been supposed to
intervene, will either glory in her position or bewail it bitterly,
according to the circumstances of the case. We will charitably
suppose that, in a great majority of such instances, she will bewail
it. But when such painful jealous doubts annoy the husband, the man
who is in the way will almost always feel himself justified in
extracting a slightly pleasurable sensation from the transaction. He
will say to himself probably, unconsciously indeed, and with no
formed words, that the husband is an ass, an ass if he be in a
twitter either for that which he has kept or for that which he has
been unable to keep, that the lady has shewn a good deal of
appreciation, and that he himself is—is—is—quite a Captain bold of
Halifax. All the while he will not have the slightest intention of
wronging the husband's honour, and will have received no greater
favour from the intimacy accorded to him than the privilege of
running on one day to Marshall and Snellgrove's, the haberdashers,
and on another to Handcocks', the jewellers. If he be allowed to buy
a present or two, or to pay a few shillings here or there, he has
achieved much. Terrible things now and again do occur, even here in
England; but women, with us, are slow to burn their household gods.
It happens, however, occasionally, as we are all aware, that the
outward garments of a domestic deity will be a little scorched; and
when this occurs, the man who is the interloper, will generally find
a gentle consolation in his position, let its interest be ever so
flaccid and unreal, and its troubles in running about, and the like,
ever so considerable and time-destructive.</p>
<p>It was so certainly with Colonel Osborne when he became aware that
his intimacy with Mrs. Trevelyan had caused her husband uneasiness.
He was not especially a vicious man, and had now, as we know, reached
a time of life when such vice as that in question might be supposed
to have lost its charm for him. A gentleman over fifty, popular in
London, with a seat in Parliament, fond of good dinners, and
possessed of everything which the world has to give, could hardly
have wished to run away with his neighbour's wife, or to have
destroyed the happiness of his old friend's daughter. Such wickedness
had never come into his head; but he had a certain pleasure in being
the confidential friend of a very pretty woman; and when he heard
that that pretty woman's husband was jealous, the pleasure was
enhanced rather than otherwise. On that Sunday, as he had left the
house in Curzon Street, he had told Stanbury that Trevelyan had just
gone off in a huff, which was true enough, and he had walked from
thence down Clarges Street, and across Piccadilly to St. James's
Street, with a jauntier step than usual, because he was aware that he
himself had been the occasion of that trouble. This was very wrong;
but there is reason to believe that many such men as Colonel Osborne,
who are bachelors at fifty, are equally malicious.</p>
<p>He thought a good deal about it on that evening, and was still
thinking about it on the following morning. He had promised to go up
to Curzon Street on the Monday,—really on some most trivial mission,
on a matter of business which no man could have taken in hand whose
time was of the slightest value to himself or any one else. But now
that mission assumed an importance in his eyes, and seemed to require
either a special observance or a special excuse. There was no real
reason why he should not have stayed away from Curzon Street for the
next fortnight; and had he done so he need have made no excuse to
Mrs. Trevelyan when he met her. But the opportunity for a little
excitement was not to be missed, and instead of going he wrote to her
the following <span class="nowrap">note:—</span><br/> </p>
<blockquote>
<p class="jright">Albany, Monday.</p>
<p class="noindent"><span class="smallcaps">Dear Emily</span>,</p>
<p>What was it all about yesterday? I was to have come up
with the words of that opera, but perhaps it will be
better to send it. If it be not wicked, do tell me whether
I am to consider myself as a banished man. I thought that
our little meetings were so innocent,—and so pleasant!
The green-eyed monster is of all monsters the most
monstrous,—and the most unreasonable. Pray let me have a
line, if it be not forbidden.</p>
<p class="ind10">Yours always heartily,</p>
<p class="ind15">F. O.</p>
<p class="noindent">Putting aside all
joking, I beg you to remember that I
consider myself always entitled to be regarded by you as
your most sincere friend.<br/> </p>
</blockquote>
<p>When this was brought to Mrs. Trevelyan, about twelve o'clock in the
day, she had already undergone the infliction of those words of
wisdom which her husband had prepared for her, and which were
threatened at the close of the last chapter. Her husband had come up
to her while she was yet in her bed-room, and had striven hard to
prevail against her. But his success had been very doubtful. In
regard to the number of words, Mrs. Trevelyan certainly had had the
best of it. As far as any understanding, one of another, was
concerned, the conversation had been useless. She believed herself to
be injured and aggrieved, and would continue so to assert, let him
implore her to listen to him as loudly as he might. "Yes;—I will
listen, and I will obey you," she had said, "but I will not endure
such insults without telling you that I feel them." Then he had left
her, fully conscious that he had failed, and went forth out of his
house into the City, to his club, to wander about the streets, not
knowing what he had best do to bring back that state of tranquillity
at home which he felt to be so desirable.</p>
<p>Mrs. Trevelyan was alone when Colonel Osborne's note was brought to
her, and was at that moment struggling with herself in anger against
her husband. If he laid any command upon her, she would execute it;
but she would never cease to tell him that he had ill-used her. She
would din it into his ears, let him come to her as often as he might
with his wise words. Wise words! What was the use of wise words when
a man was such a fool in nature? And as for Colonel Osborne,—she
would see him if he came to her three times a day, unless her husband
gave some clearly intelligible order to the contrary. She was
fortifying her mind with this resolution when Colonel Osborne's
letter was brought to her. She asked whether any servant was waiting
for an answer. No,—the servant, who had left it, had gone at once.
She read the note, and sat working, with it before her, for a quarter
of an hour; and then walked over to her desk and answered it.<br/> </p>
<blockquote>
<p class="noindent"><span class="smallcaps">My dear Colonel
Osborne</span>,</p>
<p>It will be best to say nothing whatever about the
occurrence of yesterday; and if possible, not to think of
it. As far as I am concerned, I wish for no
change;—except that people should be more reasonable. You
can call of course whenever you please; and I am very
grateful for your expression of friendship.</p>
<p class="ind10">Yours most sincerely,</p>
<p class="ind15"><span class="smallcaps">Emily
Trevelyan</span>.</p>
<p class="noindent">Thanks for the words of the opera.<br/> </p>
</blockquote>
<p>When she had written this, being determined that all should be open
and above board, she put a penny stamp on the envelope, and desired
that the letter should be posted. But she destroyed that which she
had received from Colonel Osborne. In all things she would act as she
would have done if her husband had not been so foolish, and there
could have been no reason why she should have kept so unimportant a
communication.</p>
<p>In the course of the day Trevelyan passed through the hall to the
room which he himself was accustomed to occupy behind the parlour,
and as he did so saw the note lying ready to be posted, took it up,
and read the address. He held it for a moment in his hand, then
replaced it on the hall table, and passed on. When he reached his own
table he sat down hurriedly, and took up in his hand some Review that
was lying ready for him to read. But he was quite unable to fix his
mind upon the words before him. He had spoken to his wife on that
morning in the strongest language he could use as to the unseemliness
of her intimacy with Colonel Osborne; and then, the first thing she
had done when his back was turned was to write to this very Colonel
Osborne, and tell him, no doubt, what had occurred between her and
her husband. He sat thinking of it all for many minutes. He would
probably have declared himself that he had thought of it for an hour
as he sat there. Then he got up, went up-stairs and walked slowly
into the drawing-room. There he found his wife sitting with her
sister. "Nora," he said, "I want to speak to Emily. Will you forgive
me, if I ask you to leave us for a few minutes?" Nora, with an
anxious look at Emily, got up and left the room.</p>
<p>"Why do you send her away?" said Mrs. Trevelyan.</p>
<p>"Because I wish to be alone with you for a few minutes. Since what I
said to you this morning, you have written to Colonel Osborne."</p>
<p>"Yes;—I have. I do not know how you have found it out; but I suppose
you keep a watch on me."</p>
<p>"I keep no watch on you. As I came into the house, I saw your letter
lying in the hall."</p>
<p>"Very well. You could have read it if you pleased."</p>
<p>"Emily, this matter is becoming very serious, and I strongly advise
you to be on your guard in what you say. I will bear much for you,
and much for our boy; but I will not bear to have my name made a
reproach."</p>
<p>"Sir, if you think your name is shamed by me, we had better part,"
said Mrs. Trevelyan, rising from her chair, and confronting him with
a look before which his own almost quailed.</p>
<p>"It may be that we had better part," he said, slowly. "But in the
first place I wish you to tell me what were the contents of that
letter."</p>
<p>"If it was there when you came in, no doubt it is there still. Go and
look at it."</p>
<p>"That is no answer to me. I have desired you to tell me what are its
contents."</p>
<p>"I shall not tell you. I will not demean myself by repeating anything
so insignificant in my own justification. If you suspect me of
writing what I should not write, you will suspect me also of lying to
conceal it."</p>
<p>"Have you heard from Colonel Osborne this morning?"</p>
<p>"I have."</p>
<p>"And where is his letter?"</p>
<p>"I have destroyed it."</p>
<p>Again he paused, trying to think what he had better do, trying to be
calm. And she stood still opposite to him, confronting him with the
scorn of her bright angry eyes. Of course, he was not calm. He was
the very reverse of calm. "And you refuse to tell me what you wrote,"
he said.</p>
<p>"The letter is there," she answered, pointing away towards the door.
"If you want to play the spy, go and look at it for yourself."</p>
<p>"Do you call me a spy?"</p>
<p>"And what have you called me? Because you are a husband, is the
privilege of vituperation to be all on your side?"</p>
<p>"It is impossible that I should put up with this," he said;—"quite
impossible. This would kill me. Anything is better than this. My
present orders to you are not to see Colonel Osborne, not to write to
him or have any communication with him, and to put under cover to me,
unopened, any letter that may come from him. I shall expect your
implicit obedience to these orders."</p>
<p>"Well;—go on."</p>
<p>"Have I your promise?"</p>
<p>"No;—no. You have no promise. I will make no promise exacted from me
in so disgraceful a manner."</p>
<p>"You refuse to obey me?"</p>
<p>"I will refuse nothing, and will promise nothing."</p>
<p>"Then we must part;—that is all. I will take care that you shall
hear from me before to-morrow morning."</p>
<p>So saying, he left the room, and, passing through the hall, saw that
the letter had been taken away.</p>
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