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<h2> WILLIAM WILSON </h2>
<p>What say of it? what say of CONSCIENCE grim,<br/>
That spectre in my path?<br/>
<br/>
<i>Chamberlayne's Pharronida.</i><br/></p>
<p>LET me call myself, for the present, William Wilson. The fair page now
lying before me need not be sullied with my real appellation. This has
been already too much an object for the scorn—for the horror—for
the detestation of my race. To the uttermost regions of the globe have not
the indignant winds bruited its unparalleled infamy? Oh, outcast of all
outcasts most abandoned!—to the earth art thou not forever dead? to
its honors, to its flowers, to its golden aspirations?—and a cloud,
dense, dismal, and limitless, does it not hang eternally between thy hopes
and heaven?</p>
<p>I would not, if I could, here or to-day, embody a record of my later years
of unspeakable misery, and unpardonable crime. This epoch—these
later years—took unto themselves a sudden elevation in turpitude,
whose origin alone it is my present purpose to assign. Men usually grow
base by degrees. From me, in an instant, all virtue dropped bodily as a
mantle. From comparatively trivial wickedness I passed, with the stride of
a giant, into more than the enormities of an Elah-Gabalus. What chance—what
one event brought this evil thing to pass, bear with me while I relate.
Death approaches; and the shadow which foreruns him has thrown a softening
influence over my spirit. I long, in passing through the dim valley, for
the sympathy—I had nearly said for the pity—of my fellow men.
I would fain have them believe that I have been, in some measure, the
slave of circumstances beyond human control. I would wish them to seek out
for me, in the details I am about to give, some little oasis of fatality
amid a wilderness of error. I would have them allow—what they cannot
refrain from allowing—that, although temptation may have erewhile
existed as great, man was never thus, at least, tempted before—certainly,
never thus fell. And is it therefore that he has never thus suffered? Have
I not indeed been living in a dream? And am I not now dying a victim to
the horror and the mystery of the wildest of all sublunary visions?</p>
<p>I am the descendant of a race whose imaginative and easily excitable
temperament has at all times rendered them remarkable; and, in my earliest
infancy, I gave evidence of having fully inherited the family character.
As I advanced in years it was more strongly developed; becoming, for many
reasons, a cause of serious disquietude to my friends, and of positive
injury to myself. I grew self-willed, addicted to the wildest caprices,
and a prey to the most ungovernable passions. Weak-minded, and beset with
constitutional infirmities akin to my own, my parents could do but little
to check the evil propensities which distinguished me. Some feeble and
ill-directed efforts resulted in complete failure on their part, and, of
course, in total triumph on mine. Thenceforward my voice was a household
law; and at an age when few children have abandoned their leading-strings,
I was left to the guidance of my own will, and became, in all but name,
the master of my own actions.</p>
<p>My earliest recollections of a school-life, are connected with a large,
rambling, Elizabethan house, in a misty-looking village of England, where
were a vast number of gigantic and gnarled trees, and where all the houses
were excessively ancient. In truth, it was a dream-like and
spirit-soothing place, that venerable old town. At this moment, in fancy,
I feel the refreshing chilliness of its deeply-shadowed avenues, inhale
the fragrance of its thousand shrubberies, and thrill anew with
undefinable delight, at the deep hollow note of the church-bell, breaking,
each hour, with sullen and sudden roar, upon the stillness of the dusky
atmosphere in which the fretted Gothic steeple lay imbedded and asleep.</p>
<p>It gives me, perhaps, as much of pleasure as I can now in any manner
experience, to dwell upon minute recollections of the school and its
concerns. Steeped in misery as I am—misery, alas! only too real—I
shall be pardoned for seeking relief, however slight and temporary, in the
weakness of a few rambling details. These, moreover, utterly trivial, and
even ridiculous in themselves, assume, to my fancy, adventitious
importance, as connected with a period and a locality when and where I
recognise the first ambiguous monitions of the destiny which afterwards so
fully overshadowed me. Let me then remember.</p>
<p>The house, I have said, was old and irregular. The grounds were extensive,
and a high and solid brick wall, topped with a bed of mortar and broken
glass, encompassed the whole. This prison-like rampart formed the limit of
our domain; beyond it we saw but thrice a week—once every Saturday
afternoon, when, attended by two ushers, we were permitted to take brief
walks in a body through some of the neighbouring fields—and twice
during Sunday, when we were paraded in the same formal manner to the
morning and evening service in the one church of the village. Of this
church the principal of our school was pastor. With how deep a spirit of
wonder and perplexity was I wont to regard him from our remote pew in the
gallery, as, with step solemn and slow, he ascended the pulpit! This
reverend man, with countenance so demurely benign, with robes so glossy
and so clerically flowing, with wig so minutely powdered, so rigid and so
vast,—-could this be he who, of late, with sour visage, and in
snuffy habiliments, administered, ferule in hand, the Draconian laws of
the academy? Oh, gigantic paradox, too utterly monstrous for solution!</p>
<p>At an angle of the ponderous wall frowned a more ponderous gate. It was
riveted and studded with iron bolts, and surmounted with jagged iron
spikes. What impressions of deep awe did it inspire! It was never opened
save for the three periodical egressions and ingressions already
mentioned; then, in every creak of its mighty hinges, we found a plenitude
of mystery—a world of matter for solemn remark, or for more solemn
meditation.</p>
<p>The extensive enclosure was irregular in form, having many capacious
recesses. Of these, three or four of the largest constituted the
play-ground. It was level, and covered with fine hard gravel. I well
remember it had no trees, nor benches, nor anything similar within it. Of
course it was in the rear of the house. In front lay a small parterre,
planted with box and other shrubs; but through this sacred division we
passed only upon rare occasions indeed—such as a first advent to
school or final departure thence, or perhaps, when a parent or friend
having called for us, we joyfully took our way home for the Christmas or
Midsummer holy-days.</p>
<p>But the house!—how quaint an old building was this!—to me how
veritably a palace of enchantment! There was really no end to its windings—to
its incomprehensible subdivisions. It was difficult, at any given time, to
say with certainty upon which of its two stories one happened to be. From
each room to every other there were sure to be found three or four steps
either in ascent or descent. Then the lateral branches were innumerable—inconceivable—and
so returning in upon themselves, that our most exact ideas in regard to
the whole mansion were not very far different from those with which we
pondered upon infinity. During the five years of my residence here, I was
never able to ascertain with precision, in what remote locality lay the
little sleeping apartment assigned to myself and some eighteen or twenty
other scholars.</p>
<p>The school-room was the largest in the house—I could not help
thinking, in the world. It was very long, narrow, and dismally low, with
pointed Gothic windows and a ceiling of oak. In a remote and
terror-inspiring angle was a square enclosure of eight or ten feet,
comprising the sanctum, "during hours," of our principal, the Reverend Dr.
Bransby. It was a solid structure, with massy door, sooner than open which
in the absence of the "Dominic," we would all have willingly perished by
the peine forte et dure. In other angles were two other similar boxes, far
less reverenced, indeed, but still greatly matters of awe. One of these
was the pulpit of the "classical" usher, one of the "English and
mathematical." Interspersed about the room, crossing and recrossing in
endless irregularity, were innumerable benches and desks, black, ancient,
and time-worn, piled desperately with much-bethumbed books, and so
beseamed with initial letters, names at full length, grotesque figures,
and other multiplied efforts of the knife, as to have entirely lost what
little of original form might have been their portion in days long
departed. A huge bucket with water stood at one extremity of the room, and
a clock of stupendous dimensions at the other.</p>
<p>Encompassed by the massy walls of this venerable academy, I passed, yet
not in tedium or disgust, the years of the third lustrum of my life. The
teeming brain of childhood requires no external world of incident to
occupy or amuse it; and the apparently dismal monotony of a school was
replete with more intense excitement than my riper youth has derived from
luxury, or my full manhood from crime. Yet I must believe that my first
mental development had in it much of the uncommon—even much of the
outre. Upon mankind at large the events of very early existence rarely
leave in mature age any definite impression. All is gray shadow—a
weak and irregular remembrance—an indistinct regathering of feeble
pleasures and phantasmagoric pains. With me this is not so. In childhood I
must have felt with the energy of a man what I now find stamped upon
memory in lines as vivid, as deep, and as durable as the exergues of the
Carthaginian medals.</p>
<p>Yet in fact—in the fact of the world's view—how little was
there to remember! The morning's awakening, the nightly summons to bed;
the connings, the recitations; the periodical half-holidays, and
perambulations; the play-ground, with its broils, its pastimes, its
intrigues;—these, by a mental sorcery long forgotten, were made to
involve a wilderness of sensation, a world of rich incident, an universe
of varied emotion, of excitement the most passionate and spirit-stirring.
"Oh, le bon temps, que ce siecle de fer!"</p>
<p>In truth, the ardor, the enthusiasm, and the imperiousness of my
disposition, soon rendered me a marked character among my schoolmates, and
by slow, but natural gradations, gave me an ascendancy over all not
greatly older than myself;—over all with a single exception. This
exception was found in the person of a scholar, who, although no relation,
bore the same Christian and surname as myself;—a circumstance, in
fact, little remarkable; for, notwithstanding a noble descent, mine was
one of those everyday appellations which seem, by prescriptive right, to
have been, time out of mind, the common property of the mob. In this
narrative I have therefore designated myself as William Wilson,—a
fictitious title not very dissimilar to the real. My namesake alone, of
those who in school phraseology constituted "our set," presumed to compete
with me in the studies of the class—in the sports and broils of the
play-ground—to refuse implicit belief in my assertions, and
submission to my will—indeed, to interfere with my arbitrary
dictation in any respect whatsoever. If there is on earth a supreme and
unqualified despotism, it is the despotism of a master mind in boyhood
over the less energetic spirits of its companions.</p>
<p>Wilson's rebellion was to me a source of the greatest embarrassment;—the
more so as, in spite of the bravado with which in public I made a point of
treating him and his pretensions, I secretly felt that I feared him, and
could not help thinking the equality which he maintained so easily with
myself, a proof of his true superiority; since not to be overcome cost me
a perpetual struggle. Yet this superiority—even this equality—was
in truth acknowledged by no one but myself; our associates, by some
unaccountable blindness, seemed not even to suspect it. Indeed, his
competition, his resistance, and especially his impertinent and dogged
interference with my purposes, were not more pointed than private. He
appeared to be destitute alike of the ambition which urged, and of the
passionate energy of mind which enabled me to excel. In his rivalry he
might have been supposed actuated solely by a whimsical desire to thwart,
astonish, or mortify myself; although there were times when I could not
help observing, with a feeling made up of wonder, abasement, and pique,
that he mingled with his injuries, his insults, or his contradictions, a
certain most inappropriate, and assuredly most unwelcome affectionateness
of manner. I could only conceive this singular behavior to arise from a
consummate self-conceit assuming the vulgar airs of patronage and
protection.</p>
<p>Perhaps it was this latter trait in Wilson's conduct, conjoined with our
identity of name, and the mere accident of our having entered the school
upon the same day, which set afloat the notion that we were brothers,
among the senior classes in the academy. These do not usually inquire with
much strictness into the affairs of their juniors. I have before said, or
should have said, that Wilson was not, in the most remote degree,
connected with my family. But assuredly if we had been brothers we must
have been twins; for, after leaving Dr. Bransby's, I casually learned that
my namesake was born on the nineteenth of January, 1813—and this is
a somewhat remarkable coincidence; for the day is precisely that of my own
nativity.</p>
<p>It may seem strange that in spite of the continual anxiety occasioned me
by the rivalry of Wilson, and his intolerable spirit of contradiction, I
could not bring myself to hate him altogether. We had, to be sure, nearly
every day a quarrel in which, yielding me publicly the palm of victory,
he, in some manner, contrived to make me feel that it was he who had
deserved it; yet a sense of pride on my part, and a veritable dignity on
his own, kept us always upon what are called "speaking terms," while there
were many points of strong congeniality in our tempers, operating to awake
me in a sentiment which our position alone, perhaps, prevented from
ripening into friendship. It is difficult, indeed, to define, or even to
describe, my real feelings towards him. They formed a motley and
heterogeneous admixture;—some petulant animosity, which was not yet
hatred, some esteem, more respect, much fear, with a world of uneasy
curiosity. To the moralist it will be unnecessary to say, in addition,
that Wilson and myself were the most inseparable of companions.</p>
<p>It was no doubt the anomalous state of affairs existing between us, which
turned all my attacks upon him, (and they were many, either open or
covert) into the channel of banter or practical joke (giving pain while
assuming the aspect of mere fun) rather than into a more serious and
determined hostility. But my endeavours on this head were by no means
uniformly successful, even when my plans were the most wittily concocted;
for my namesake had much about him, in character, of that unassuming and
quiet austerity which, while enjoying the poignancy of its own jokes, has
no heel of Achilles in itself, and absolutely refuses to be laughed at. I
could find, indeed, but one vulnerable point, and that, lying in a
personal peculiarity, arising, perhaps, from constitutional disease, would
have been spared by any antagonist less at his wit's end than myself;—my
rival had a weakness in the faucal or guttural organs, which precluded him
from raising his voice at any time above a very low whisper. Of this
defect I did not fail to take what poor advantage lay in my power.</p>
<p>Wilson's retaliations in kind were many; and there was one form of his
practical wit that disturbed me beyond measure. How his sagacity first
discovered at all that so petty a thing would vex me, is a question I
never could solve; but, having discovered, he habitually practised the
annoyance. I had always felt aversion to my uncourtly patronymic, and its
very common, if not plebeian praenomen. The words were venom in my ears;
and when, upon the day of my arrival, a second William Wilson came also to
the academy, I felt angry with him for bearing the name, and doubly
disgusted with the name because a stranger bore it, who would be the cause
of its twofold repetition, who would be constantly in my presence, and
whose concerns, in the ordinary routine of the school business, must
inevitably, on account of the detestable coincidence, be often confounded
with my own.</p>
<p>The feeling of vexation thus engendered grew stronger with every
circumstance tending to show resemblance, moral or physical, between my
rival and myself. I had not then discovered the remarkable fact that we
were of the same age; but I saw that we were of the same height, and I
perceived that we were even singularly alike in general contour of person
and outline of feature. I was galled, too, by the rumor touching a
relationship, which had grown current in the upper forms. In a word,
nothing could more seriously disturb me, (although I scrupulously
concealed such disturbance,) than any allusion to a similarity of mind,
person, or condition existing between us. But, in truth, I had no reason
to believe that (with the exception of the matter of relationship, and in
the case of Wilson himself,) this similarity had ever been made a subject
of comment, or even observed at all by our schoolfellows. That he observed
it in all its bearings, and as fixedly as I, was apparent; but that he
could discover in such circumstances so fruitful a field of annoyance, can
only be attributed, as I said before, to his more than ordinary
penetration.</p>
<p>His cue, which was to perfect an imitation of myself, lay both in words
and in actions; and most admirably did he play his part. My dress it was
an easy matter to copy; my gait and general manner were, without
difficulty, appropriated; in spite of his constitutional defect, even my
voice did not escape him. My louder tones were, of course, unattempted,
but then the key, it was identical; and his singular whisper, it grew the
very echo of my own.</p>
<p>How greatly this most exquisite portraiture harassed me, (for it could not
justly be termed a caricature,) I will not now venture to describe. I had
but one consolation—in the fact that the imitation, apparently, was
noticed by myself alone, and that I had to endure only the knowing and
strangely sarcastic smiles of my namesake himself. Satisfied with having
produced in my bosom the intended effect, he seemed to chuckle in secret
over the sting he had inflicted, and was characteristically disregardful
of the public applause which the success of his witty endeavours might
have so easily elicited. That the school, indeed, did not feel his design,
perceive its accomplishment, and participate in his sneer, was, for many
anxious months, a riddle I could not resolve. Perhaps the gradation of his
copy rendered it not so readily perceptible; or, more possibly, I owed my
security to the master air of the copyist, who, disdaining the letter,
(which in a painting is all the obtuse can see,) gave but the full spirit
of his original for my individual contemplation and chagrin.</p>
<p>I have already more than once spoken of the disgusting air of patronage
which he assumed toward me, and of his frequent officious interference
with my will. This interference often took the ungracious character of
advice; advice not openly given, but hinted or insinuated. I received it
with a repugnance which gained strength as I grew in years. Yet, at this
distant day, let me do him the simple justice to acknowledge that I can
recall no occasion when the suggestions of my rival were on the side of
those errors or follies so usual to his immature age and seeming
inexperience; that his moral sense, at least, if not his general talents
and worldly wisdom, was far keener than my own; and that I might, to-day,
have been a better, and thus a happier man, had I less frequently rejected
the counsels embodied in those meaning whispers which I then but too
cordially hated and too bitterly despised.</p>
<p>As it was, I at length grew restive in the extreme under his distasteful
supervision, and daily resented more and more openly what I considered his
intolerable arrogance. I have said that, in the first years of our
connexion as schoolmates, my feelings in regard to him might have been
easily ripened into friendship: but, in the latter months of my residence
at the academy, although the intrusion of his ordinary manner had, beyond
doubt, in some measure, abated, my sentiments, in nearly similar
proportion, partook very much of positive hatred. Upon one occasion he saw
this, I think, and afterwards avoided, or made a show of avoiding me.</p>
<p>It was about the same period, if I remember aright, that, in an
altercation of violence with him, in which he was more than usually thrown
off his guard, and spoke and acted with an openness of demeanor rather
foreign to his nature, I discovered, or fancied I discovered, in his
accent, his air, and general appearance, a something which first startled,
and then deeply interested me, by bringing to mind dim visions of my
earliest infancy—wild, confused and thronging memories of a time
when memory herself was yet unborn. I cannot better describe the sensation
which oppressed me than by saying that I could with difficulty shake off
the belief of my having been acquainted with the being who stood before
me, at some epoch very long ago—some point of the past even
infinitely remote. The delusion, however, faded rapidly as it came; and I
mention it at all but to define the day of the last conversation I there
held with my singular namesake.</p>
<p>The huge old house, with its countless subdivisions, had several large
chambers communicating with each other, where slept the greater number of
the students. There were, however, (as must necessarily happen in a
building so awkwardly planned,) many little nooks or recesses, the odds
and ends of the structure; and these the economic ingenuity of Dr. Bransby
had also fitted up as dormitories; although, being the merest closets,
they were capable of accommodating but a single individual. One of these
small apartments was occupied by Wilson.</p>
<p>One night, about the close of my fifth year at the school, and immediately
after the altercation just mentioned, finding every one wrapped in sleep,
I arose from bed, and, lamp in hand, stole through a wilderness of narrow
passages from my own bedroom to that of my rival. I had long been plotting
one of those ill-natured pieces of practical wit at his expense in which I
had hitherto been so uniformly unsuccessful. It was my intention, now, to
put my scheme in operation, and I resolved to make him feel the whole
extent of the malice with which I was imbued. Having reached his closet, I
noiselessly entered, leaving the lamp, with a shade over it, on the
outside. I advanced a step, and listened to the sound of his tranquil
breathing. Assured of his being asleep, I returned, took the light, and
with it again approached the bed. Close curtains were around it, which, in
the prosecution of my plan, I slowly and quietly withdrew, when the bright
rays fell vividly upon the sleeper, and my eyes, at the same moment, upon
his countenance. I looked;—and a numbness, an iciness of feeling
instantly pervaded my frame. My breast heaved, my knees tottered, my whole
spirit became possessed with an objectless yet intolerable horror. Gasping
for breath, I lowered the lamp in still nearer proximity to the face. Were
these—these the lineaments of William Wilson? I saw, indeed, that
they were his, but I shook as if with a fit of the ague in fancying they
were not. What was there about them to confound me in this manner? I
gazed;—while my brain reeled with a multitude of incoherent
thoughts. Not thus he appeared—assuredly not thus—in the
vivacity of his waking hours. The same name! the same contour of person!
the same day of arrival at the academy! And then his dogged and
meaningless imitation of my gait, my voice, my habits, and my manner! Was
it, in truth, within the bounds of human possibility, that what I now saw
was the result, merely, of the habitual practice of this sarcastic
imitation? Awe-stricken, and with a creeping shudder, I extinguished the
lamp, passed silently from the chamber, and left, at once, the halls of
that old academy, never to enter them again.</p>
<p>After a lapse of some months, spent at home in mere idleness, I found
myself a student at Eton. The brief interval had been sufficient to
enfeeble my remembrance of the events at Dr. Bransby's, or at least to
effect a material change in the nature of the feelings with which I
remembered them. The truth—the tragedy—of the drama was no
more. I could now find room to doubt the evidence of my senses; and seldom
called up the subject at all but with wonder at extent of human credulity,
and a smile at the vivid force of the imagination which I hereditarily
possessed. Neither was this species of scepticism likely to be diminished
by the character of the life I led at Eton. The vortex of thoughtless
folly into which I there so immediately and so recklessly plunged, washed
away all but the froth of my past hours, engulfed at once every solid or
serious impression, and left to memory only the veriest levities of a
former existence.</p>
<p>I do not wish, however, to trace the course of my miserable profligacy
here—a profligacy which set at defiance the laws, while it eluded
the vigilance of the institution. Three years of folly, passed without
profit, had but given me rooted habits of vice, and added, in a somewhat
unusual degree, to my bodily stature, when, after a week of soulless
dissipation, I invited a small party of the most dissolute students to a
secret carousal in my chambers. We met at a late hour of the night; for
our debaucheries were to be faithfully protracted until morning. The wine
flowed freely, and there were not wanting other and perhaps more dangerous
seductions; so that the gray dawn had already faintly appeared in the
east, while our delirious extravagance was at its height. Madly flushed
with cards and intoxication, I was in the act of insisting upon a toast of
more than wonted profanity, when my attention was suddenly diverted by the
violent, although partial unclosing of the door of the apartment, and by
the eager voice of a servant from without. He said that some person,
apparently in great haste, demanded to speak with me in the hall.</p>
<p>Wildly excited with wine, the unexpected interruption rather delighted
than surprised me. I staggered forward at once, and a few steps brought me
to the vestibule of the building. In this low and small room there hung no
lamp; and now no light at all was admitted, save that of the exceedingly
feeble dawn which made its way through the semi-circular window. As I put
my foot over the threshold, I became aware of the figure of a youth about
my own height, and habited in a white kerseymere morning frock, cut in the
novel fashion of the one I myself wore at the moment. This the faint light
enabled me to perceive; but the features of his face I could not
distinguish. Upon my entering he strode hurriedly up to me, and, seizing
me by the arm with a gesture of petulant impatience, whispered the words
"William Wilson!" in my ear.</p>
<p>I grew perfectly sober in an instant. There was that in the manner of the
stranger, and in the tremulous shake of his uplifted finger, as he held it
between my eyes and the light, which filled me with unqualified amazement;
but it was not this which had so violently moved me. It was the pregnancy
of solemn admonition in the singular, low, hissing utterance; and, above
all, it was the character, the tone, the key, of those few, simple, and
familiar, yet whispered syllables, which came with a thousand thronging
memories of bygone days, and struck upon my soul with the shock of a
galvanic battery. Ere I could recover the use of my senses he was gone.</p>
<p>Although this event failed not of a vivid effect upon my disordered
imagination, yet was it evanescent as vivid. For some weeks, indeed, I
busied myself in earnest inquiry, or was wrapped in a cloud of morbid
speculation. I did not pretend to disguise from my perception the identity
of the singular individual who thus perseveringly interfered with my
affairs, and harassed me with his insinuated counsel. But who and what was
this Wilson?—and whence came he?—and what were his purposes?
Upon neither of these points could I be satisfied; merely ascertaining, in
regard to him, that a sudden accident in his family had caused his removal
from Dr. Bransby's academy on the afternoon of the day in which I myself
had eloped. But in a brief period I ceased to think upon the subject; my
attention being all absorbed in a contemplated departure for Oxford.
Thither I soon went; the uncalculating vanity of my parents furnishing me
with an outfit and annual establishment, which would enable me to indulge
at will in the luxury already so dear to my heart,—to vie in
profuseness of expenditure with the haughtiest heirs of the wealthiest
earldoms in Great Britain.</p>
<p>Excited by such appliances to vice, my constitutional temperament broke
forth with redoubled ardor, and I spurned even the common restraints of
decency in the mad infatuation of my revels. But it were absurd to pause
in the detail of my extravagance. Let it suffice, that among spendthrifts
I out-Heroded Herod, and that, giving name to a multitude of novel
follies, I added no brief appendix to the long catalogue of vices then
usual in the most dissolute university of Europe.</p>
<p>It could hardly be credited, however, that I had, even here, so utterly
fallen from the gentlemanly estate, as to seek acquaintance with the
vilest arts of the gambler by profession, and, having become an adept in
his despicable science, to practise it habitually as a means of increasing
my already enormous income at the expense of the weak-minded among my
fellow-collegians. Such, nevertheless, was the fact. And the very enormity
of this offence against all manly and honourable sentiment proved, beyond
doubt, the main if not the sole reason of the impunity with which it was
committed. Who, indeed, among my most abandoned associates, would not
rather have disputed the clearest evidence of his senses, than have
suspected of such courses, the gay, the frank, the generous William Wilson—the
noblest and most liberal commoner at Oxford—him whose follies (said
his parasites) were but the follies of youth and unbridled fancy—whose
errors but inimitable whim—whose darkest vice but a careless and
dashing extravagance?</p>
<p>I had been now two years successfully busied in this way, when there came
to the university a young parvenu nobleman, Glendinning—rich, said
report, as Herodes Atticus—his riches, too, as easily acquired. I
soon found him of weak intellect, and, of course, marked him as a fitting
subject for my skill. I frequently engaged him in play, and contrived,
with the gambler's usual art, to let him win considerable sums, the more
effectually to entangle him in my snares. At length, my schemes being
ripe, I met him (with the full intention that this meeting should be final
and decisive) at the chambers of a fellow-commoner, (Mr. Preston,) equally
intimate with both, but who, to do him Justice, entertained not even a
remote suspicion of my design. To give to this a better colouring, I had
contrived to have assembled a party of some eight or ten, and was
solicitously careful that the introduction of cards should appear
accidental, and originate in the proposal of my contemplated dupe himself.
To be brief upon a vile topic, none of the low finesse was omitted, so
customary upon similar occasions that it is a just matter for wonder how
any are still found so besotted as to fall its victim.</p>
<p>We had protracted our sitting far into the night, and I had at length
effected the manoeuvre of getting Glendinning as my sole antagonist. The
game, too, was my favorite ecarte! The rest of the company, interested in
the extent of our play, had abandoned their own cards, and were standing
around us as spectators. The parvenu, who had been induced by my artifices
in the early part of the evening, to drink deeply, now shuffled, dealt, or
played, with a wild nervousness of manner for which his intoxication, I
thought, might partially, but could not altogether account. In a very
short period he had become my debtor to a large amount, when, having taken
a long draught of port, he did precisely what I had been coolly
anticipating—he proposed to double our already extravagant stakes.
With a well-feigned show of reluctance, and not until after my repeated
refusal had seduced him into some angry words which gave a color of pique
to my compliance, did I finally comply. The result, of course, did but
prove how entirely the prey was in my toils; in less than an hour he had
quadrupled his debt. For some time his countenance had been losing the
florid tinge lent it by the wine; but now, to my astonishment, I perceived
that it had grown to a pallor truly fearful. I say to my astonishment.
Glendinning had been represented to my eager inquiries as immeasurably
wealthy; and the sums which he had as yet lost, although in themselves
vast, could not, I supposed, very seriously annoy, much less so violently
affect him. That he was overcome by the wine just swallowed, was the idea
which most readily presented itself; and, rather with a view to the
preservation of my own character in the eyes of my associates, than from
any less interested motive, I was about to insist, peremptorily, upon a
discontinuance of the play, when some expressions at my elbow from among
the company, and an ejaculation evincing utter despair on the part of
Glendinning, gave me to understand that I had effected his total ruin
under circumstances which, rendering him an object for the pity of all,
should have protected him from the ill offices even of a fiend.</p>
<p>What now might have been my conduct it is difficult to say. The pitiable
condition of my dupe had thrown an air of embarrassed gloom over all; and,
for some moments, a profound silence was maintained, during which I could
not help feeling my cheeks tingle with the many burning glances of scorn
or reproach cast upon me by the less abandoned of the party. I will even
own that an intolerable weight of anxiety was for a brief instant lifted
from my bosom by the sudden and extraordinary interruption which ensued.
The wide, heavy folding doors of the apartment were all at once thrown
open, to their full extent, with a vigorous and rushing impetuosity that
extinguished, as if by magic, every candle in the room. Their light, in
dying, enabled us just to perceive that a stranger had entered, about my
own height, and closely muffled in a cloak. The darkness, however, was now
total; and we could only feel that he was standing in our midst. Before
any one of us could recover from the extreme astonishment into which this
rudeness had thrown all, we heard the voice of the intruder.</p>
<p>"Gentlemen," he said, in a low, distinct, and never-to-be-forgotten
whisper which thrilled to the very marrow of my bones, "Gentlemen, I make
no apology for this behaviour, because in thus behaving, I am but
fulfilling a duty. You are, beyond doubt, uninformed of the true character
of the person who has to-night won at ecarte a large sum of money from
Lord Glendinning. I will therefore put you upon an expeditious and
decisive plan of obtaining this very necessary information. Please to
examine, at your leisure, the inner linings of the cuff of his left
sleeve, and the several little packages which may be found in the somewhat
capacious pockets of his embroidered morning wrapper."</p>
<p>While he spoke, so profound was the stillness that one might have heard a
pin drop upon the floor. In ceasing, he departed at once, and as abruptly
as he had entered. Can I—shall I describe my sensations?—must
I say that I felt all the horrors of the damned? Most assuredly I had
little time given for reflection. Many hands roughly seized me upon the
spot, and lights were immediately reprocured. A search ensued. In the
lining of my sleeve were found all the court cards essential in ecarte,
and, in the pockets of my wrapper, a number of packs, facsimiles of those
used at our sittings, with the single exception that mine were of the
species called, technically, arrondees; the honours being slightly convex
at the ends, the lower cards slightly convex at the sides. In this
disposition, the dupe who cuts, as customary, at the length of the pack,
will invariably find that he cuts his antagonist an honor; while the
gambler, cutting at the breadth, will, as certainly, cut nothing for his
victim which may count in the records of the game.</p>
<p>Any burst of indignation upon this discovery would have affected me less
than the silent contempt, or the sarcastic composure, with which it was
received.</p>
<p>"Mr. Wilson," said our host, stooping to remove from beneath his feet an
exceedingly luxurious cloak of rare furs, "Mr. Wilson, this is your
property." (The weather was cold; and, upon quitting my own room, I had
thrown a cloak over my dressing wrapper, putting it off upon reaching the
scene of play.) "I presume it is supererogatory to seek here (eyeing the
folds of the garment with a bitter smile) for any farther evidence of your
skill. Indeed, we have had enough. You will see the necessity, I hope, of
quitting Oxford—at all events, of quitting instantly my chambers."</p>
<p>Abased, humbled to the dust as I then was, it is probable that I should
have resented this galling language by immediate personal violence, had
not my whole attention been at the moment arrested by a fact of the most
startling character. The cloak which I had worn was of a rare description
of fur; how rare, how extravagantly costly, I shall not venture to say.
Its fashion, too, was of my own fantastic invention; for I was fastidious
to an absurd degree of coxcombry, in matters of this frivolous nature.
When, therefore, Mr. Preston reached me that which he had picked up upon
the floor, and near the folding doors of the apartment, it was with an
astonishment nearly bordering upon terror, that I perceived my own already
hanging on my arm, (where I had no doubt unwittingly placed it,) and that
the one presented me was but its exact counterpart in every, in even the
minutest possible particular. The singular being who had so disastrously
exposed me, had been muffled, I remembered, in a cloak; and none had been
worn at all by any of the members of our party with the exception of
myself. Retaining some presence of mind, I took the one offered me by
Preston; placed it, unnoticed, over my own; left the apartment with a
resolute scowl of defiance; and, next morning ere dawn of day, commenced a
hurried journey from Oxford to the continent, in a perfect agony of horror
and of shame.</p>
<p>I fled in vain. My evil destiny pursued me as if in exultation, and
proved, indeed, that the exercise of its mysterious dominion had as yet
only begun. Scarcely had I set foot in Paris ere I had fresh evidence of
the detestable interest taken by this Wilson in my concerns. Years flew,
while I experienced no relief. Villain!—at Rome, with how untimely,
yet with how spectral an officiousness, stepped he in between me and my
ambition! At Vienna, too—at Berlin—and at Moscow! Where, in
truth, had I not bitter cause to curse him within my heart? From his
inscrutable tyranny did I at length flee, panic-stricken, as from a
pestilence; and to the very ends of the earth I fled in vain.</p>
<p>And again, and again, in secret communion with my own spirit, would I
demand the questions "Who is he?—whence came he?—and what are
his objects?" But no answer was there found. And then I scrutinized, with
a minute scrutiny, the forms, and the methods, and the leading traits of
his impertinent supervision. But even here there was very little upon
which to base a conjecture. It was noticeable, indeed, that, in no one of
the multiplied instances in which he had of late crossed my path, had he
so crossed it except to frustrate those schemes, or to disturb those
actions, which, if fully carried out, might have resulted in bitter
mischief. Poor justification this, in truth, for an authority so
imperiously assumed! Poor indemnity for natural rights of self-agency so
pertinaciously, so insultingly denied!</p>
<p>I had also been forced to notice that my tormentor, for a very long period
of time, (while scrupulously and with miraculous dexterity maintaining his
whim of an identity of apparel with myself,) had so contrived it, in the
execution of his varied interference with my will, that I saw not, at any
moment, the features of his face. Be Wilson what he might, this, at least,
was but the veriest of affectation, or of folly. Could he, for an instant,
have supposed that, in my admonisher at Eton—in the destroyer of my
honor at Oxford,—in him who thwarted my ambition at Rome, my revenge
at Paris, my passionate love at Naples, or what he falsely termed my
avarice in Egypt,—that in this, my arch-enemy and evil genius, could
fail to recognise the William Wilson of my school boy days,—the
namesake, the companion, the rival,—the hated and dreaded rival at
Dr. Bransby's? Impossible!—But let me hasten to the last eventful
scene of the drama.</p>
<p>Thus far I had succumbed supinely to this imperious domination. The
sentiment of deep awe with which I habitually regarded the elevated
character, the majestic wisdom, the apparent omnipresence and omnipotence
of Wilson, added to a feeling of even terror, with which certain other
traits in his nature and assumptions inspired me, had operated, hitherto,
to impress me with an idea of my own utter weakness and helplessness, and
to suggest an implicit, although bitterly reluctant submission to his
arbitrary will. But, of late days, I had given myself up entirely to wine;
and its maddening influence upon my hereditary temper rendered me more and
more impatient of control. I began to murmur,—to hesitate,—to
resist. And was it only fancy which induced me to believe that, with the
increase of my own firmness, that of my tormentor underwent a proportional
diminution? Be this as it may, I now began to feel the inspiration of a
burning hope, and at length nurtured in my secret thoughts a stern and
desperate resolution that I would submit no longer to be enslaved.</p>
<p>It was at Rome, during the Carnival of 18—, that I attended a
masquerade in the palazzo of the Neapolitan Duke Di Broglio. I had
indulged more freely than usual in the excesses of the wine-table; and now
the suffocating atmosphere of the crowded rooms irritated me beyond
endurance. The difficulty, too, of forcing my way through the mazes of the
company contributed not a little to the ruffling of my temper; for I was
anxiously seeking, (let me not say with what unworthy motive) the young,
the gay, the beautiful wife of the aged and doting Di Broglio. With a too
unscrupulous confidence she had previously communicated to me the secret
of the costume in which she would be habited, and now, having caught a
glimpse of her person, I was hurrying to make my way into her presence.—At
this moment I felt a light hand placed upon my shoulder, and that
ever-remembered, low, damnable whisper within my ear.</p>
<p>In an absolute phrenzy of wrath, I turned at once upon him who had thus
interrupted me, and seized him violently by the collar. He was attired, as
I had expected, in a costume altogether similar to my own; wearing a
Spanish cloak of blue velvet, begirt about the waist with a crimson belt
sustaining a rapier. A mask of black silk entirely covered his face.</p>
<p>"Scoundrel!" I said, in a voice husky with rage, while every syllable I
uttered seemed as new fuel to my fury, "scoundrel! impostor! accursed
villain! you shall not—you shall not dog me unto death! Follow me,
or I stab you where you stand!"—and I broke my way from the
ball-room into a small ante-chamber adjoining—dragging him
unresistingly with me as I went.</p>
<p>Upon entering, I thrust him furiously from me. He staggered against the
wall, while I closed the door with an oath, and commanded him to draw. He
hesitated but for an instant; then, with a slight sigh, drew in silence,
and put himself upon his defence.</p>
<p>The contest was brief indeed. I was frantic with every species of wild
excitement, and felt within my single arm the energy and power of a
multitude. In a few seconds I forced him by sheer strength against the
wainscoting, and thus, getting him at mercy, plunged my sword, with brute
ferocity, repeatedly through and through his bosom.</p>
<p>At that instant some person tried the latch of the door. I hastened to
prevent an intrusion, and then immediately returned to my dying
antagonist. But what human language can adequately portray that
astonishment, that horror which possessed me at the spectacle then
presented to view? The brief moment in which I averted my eyes had been
sufficient to produce, apparently, a material change in the arrangements
at the upper or farther end of the room. A large mirror,—so at first
it seemed to me in my confusion—now stood where none had been
perceptible before; and, as I stepped up to it in extremity of terror,
mine own image, but with features all pale and dabbled in blood, advanced
to meet me with a feeble and tottering gait.</p>
<p>Thus it appeared, I say, but was not. It was my antagonist—it was
Wilson, who then stood before me in the agonies of his dissolution. His
mask and cloak lay, where he had thrown them, upon the floor. Not a thread
in all his raiment—not a line in all the marked and singular
lineaments of his face which was not, even in the most absolute identity,
mine own!</p>
<p>It was Wilson; but he spoke no longer in a whisper, and I could have
fancied that I myself was speaking while he said:</p>
<p>"You have conquered, and I yield. Yet, henceforward art thou also dead—dead
to the World, to Heaven and to Hope! In me didst thou exist—and, in
my death, see by this image, which is thine own, how utterly thou hast
murdered thyself."</p>
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