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<h2> CHAPTER LXI </h2>
<h3> THEREFORE HE SEEKS COMFORT </h3>
<p>It was for poor Annie's sake that I had spoken my mind to her husband so
freely, and even harshly. For we all knew she would break her heart, if
Tom took to evil ways again. And the right mode of preventing this was,
not to coax, and flatter, and make a hero of him (which he did for
himself, quite sufficiently), but to set before him the folly of the
thing, and the ruin to his own interests. They would both be vexed with
me, of course, for having left them so hastily, and especially just before
dinner-time; but that would soon wear off; and most likely they would come
to see mother, and tell her that I was hard to manage, and they could feel
for her about it.</p>
<p>Now with a certain yearning, I know not what, for softness, and for one
who could understand me—for simple as a child though being, I found
few to do that last, at any rate in my love-time—I relied upon
Kickum's strength to take me round by Dulverton. It would make the journey
some eight miles longer, but what was that to a brisk young horse, even
with my weight upon him?</p>
<p>And having left Squire Faggus and Annie much sooner than had been
intended, I had plenty of time before me, and too much, ere a prospect of
dinner. Therefore I struck to the right, across the hills, for Dulverton.</p>
<p>Pretty Ruth was in the main street of the town, with a basket in her hand,
going home from the market.</p>
<p>'Why, Cousin Ruth, you are grown, I exclaimed; 'I do believe you are,
Ruth. And you were almost too tall, already.'</p>
<p>At this the little thing was so pleased, that she smiled through her
blushes beautifully, and must needs come to shake hands with me; though I
signed to her not to do it, because of my horse's temper. But scarcely was
her hand in mine, when Kickums turned like an eel upon her, and caught her
by the left arm with his teeth, so that she screamed with agony. I saw the
white of his vicious eye, and struck him there with all my force, with my
left hand over her right arm, and he never used that eye again; none the
less he kept his hold on her. Then I smote him again on the jaw, and
caught the little maid up by her right hand, and laid her on the saddle in
front of me; while the horse being giddy and staggered with blows, and
foiled of his spite, ran backward. Ruth's wits were gone; and she lay
before me, in such a helpless and senseless way that I could have killed
vile Kickums. I struck the spurs into him past the rowels, and away he
went at full gallop; while I had enough to do to hold on, with the little
girl lying in front of me. But I called to the men who were flocking
around, to send up a surgeon, as quick as could be, to Master Reuben
Huckaback's.</p>
<p>The moment I brought my right arm to bear, the vicious horse had no chance
with me; and if ever a horse was well paid for spite, Kickums had his
change that day. The bridle would almost have held a whale and I drew on
it so that his lower jaw was well-nigh broken from him; while with both
spurs I tore his flanks, and he learned a little lesson. There are times
when a man is more vicious than any horse may vie with. Therefore by the
time we had reached Uncle Reuben's house at the top of the hill, the bad
horse was only too happy to stop; every string of his body was trembling,
and his head hanging down with impotence. I leaped from his back at once,
and carried the maiden into her own sweet room.</p>
<p>Now Cousin Ruth was recovering softly from her fright and faintness; and
the volley of the wind from galloping so had made her little ears quite
pink, and shaken her locks all round her. But any one who might wish to
see a comely sight and a moving one, need only have looked at Ruth
Huckaback, when she learned (and imagined yet more than it was) the manner
of her little ride with me. Her hair was of a hazel-brown, and full of
waving readiness; and with no concealment of the trick, she spread it over
her eyes and face. Being so delighted with her, and so glad to see her
safe, I kissed her through the thick of it, as a cousin has a right to do;
yea, and ought to do, with gravity.</p>
<p>'Darling,' I said; 'he has bitten you dreadfully: show me your poor arm,
dear.'</p>
<p>She pulled up her sleeve in the simplest manner, rather to look at it
herself, than to show me where the wound was. Her sleeve was of dark blue
Taunton staple; and her white arm shone, coming out of it, as round and
plump and velvety, as a stalk of asparagus, newly fetched out of the
ground. But above the curved soft elbow, where no room was for one cross
word (according to our proverb),* three sad gashes, edged with crimson,
spoiled the flow of the pearly flesh. My presence of mind was lost
altogether; and I raised the poor sore arm to my lips, both to stop the
bleeding and to take the venom out, having heard how wise it was, and
thinking of my mother. But Ruth, to my great amazement, drew away from me
in bitter haste, as if I had been inserting instead of extracting poison.
For the bite of a horse is most venomous; especially when he sheds his
teeth; and far more to be feared than the bite of a dog, or even of a cat.
And in my haste I had forgotten that Ruth might not know a word about
this, and might doubt about my meaning, and the warmth of my osculation.
But knowing her danger, I durst not heed her childishness, or her
feelings.</p>
<p>* A maid with an elbow sharp, or knee,<br/>
Hath cross words two, out of every three.<br/></p>
<p>'Don't be a fool, Cousin Ruth,' I said, catching her so that she could not
move; 'the poison is soaking into you. Do you think that I do it for
pleasure?'</p>
<p>The spread of shame on her face was such, when she saw her own
misunderstanding, that I was ashamed to look at her; and occupied myself
with drawing all the risk of glanders forth from the white limb, hanging
helpless now, and left entirely to my will. Before I was quite sure of
having wholly exhausted suction, and when I had made the holes in her arm
look like the gills of a lamprey, in came the doctor, partly drunk, and in
haste to get through his business.</p>
<p>'Ha, ha! I see,' he cried; 'bite of a horse, they tell me. Very poisonous;
must be burned away. Sally, the iron in the fire. If you have a fire, this
weather.'</p>
<p>'Crave your pardon, good sir,' I said; for poor little Ruth was fainting
again at his savage orders: 'but my cousin's arm shall not be burned; it
is a great deal too pretty, and I have sucked all the poison out. Look,
sir, how clean and fresh it is.'</p>
<p>'Bless my heart! And so it is! No need at all for cauterising. The
epidermis will close over, and the cutis and the pellis. John Ridd, you
ought to have studied medicine, with your healing powers. Half my virtue
lies in touch. A clean and wholesome body, sir; I have taught you the
Latin grammar. I leave you in excellent hands, my dear, and they wait for
me at shovel-board. Bread and water poultice cold, to be renewed, tribus
horis. John Ridd, I was at school with you, and you beat me very
lamentably, when I tried to fight with you. You remember me not? It is
likely enough: I am forced to take strong waters, John, from infirmity of
the liver. Attend to my directions; and I will call again in the morning.'</p>
<p>And in that melancholy plight, caring nothing for business, went one of
the cleverest fellows ever known at Tiverton. He could write Latin verses
a great deal faster than I could ever write English prose, and nothing
seemed too great for him. We thought that he would go to Oxford and
astonish every one, and write in the style of Buchanan; but he fell all
abroad very lamentably; and now, when I met him again, was come down to
push-pin and shovel-board, with a wager of spirits pending.</p>
<p>When Master Huckaback came home, he looked at me very sulkily; not only
because of my refusal to become a slave to the gold-digging, but also
because he regarded me as the cause of a savage broil between Simon Carfax
and the men who had cheated him as to his Gwenny. However, when Uncle Ben
saw Ruth, and knew what had befallen her, and she with tears in her eyes
declared that she owed her life to Cousin Ridd, the old man became very
gracious to me; for if he loved any one on earth, it was his little
granddaughter.</p>
<p>I could not stay very long, because, my horse being quite unfit to travel
from the injuries which his violence and vice had brought upon him, there
was nothing for me but to go on foot, as none of Uncle Ben's horses could
take me to Plover's Barrows, without downright cruelty: and though there
would be a harvest-moon, Ruth agreed with me that I must not keep my
mother waiting, with no idea where I might be, until a late hour of the
night. I told Ruth all about our Annie, and her noble furniture; and the
little maid was very lively (although her wounds were paining her so, that
half her laughter came 'on the wrong side of her mouth,' as we rather
coarsely express it); especially she laughed about Annie's new-fangled
closet for clothes, or standing-press, as she called it. This had
frightened me so that I would not come without my stick to look at it; for
the front was inlaid with two fiery dragons, and a glass which distorted
everything, making even Annie look hideous; and when it was opened, a
woman's skeleton, all in white, revealed itself, in the midst of three
standing women. 'It is only to keep my best frocks in shape,' Annie had
explained to me; 'hanging them up does ruin them so. But I own that I was
afraid of it, John, until I had got all my best clothes there, and then I
became very fond of it. But even now it frightens me sometimes in the
moonlight.'</p>
<p>Having made poor Ruth a little cheerful, with a full account of all
Annie's frocks, material, pattern, and fashion (of which I had taken a
list for my mother, and for Lizzie, lest they should cry out at man's
stupidity about anything of real interest), I proceeded to tell her about
my own troubles, and the sudden departure of Lorna; concluding with all
the show of indifference which my pride could muster, that now I never
should see her again, and must do my best to forget her, as being so far
above me. I had not intended to speak of this, but Ruth's face was so kind
and earnest, that I could not stop myself.</p>
<p>'You must not talk like that, Cousin Ridd,' she said, in a low and gentle
tone, and turning away her eyes from me; 'no lady can be above a man, who
is pure, and brave, and gentle. And if her heart be worth having, she will
never let you give her up, for her grandeur, and her nobility.'</p>
<p>She pronounced those last few words, as I thought, with a little
bitterness, unperceived by herself perhaps, for it was not in her
appearance. But I, attaching great importance to a maiden's opinion about
a maiden (because she might judge from experience), would have led her
further into that subject. But she declined to follow, having now no more
to say in a matter so removed from her. Then I asked her full and
straight, and looking at her in such a manner that she could not look
away, without appearing vanquished by feelings of her own—which
thing was very vile of me; but all men are so selfish,—</p>
<p>'Dear cousin, tell me, once for all, what is your advice to me?'</p>
<p>'My advice to you,' she answered bravely, with her dark eyes full of
pride, and instead of flinching, foiling me,—'is to do what every
man must do, if he would win fair maiden. Since she cannot send you token,
neither is free to return to you, follow her, pay your court to her; show
that you will not be forgotten; and perhaps she will look down—I
mean, she will relent to you.'</p>
<p>'She has nothing to relent about. I have never vexed nor injured her. My
thoughts have never strayed from her. There is no one to compare with
her.'</p>
<p>'Then keep her in that same mind about you. See now, I can advise no more.
My arm is swelling painfully, in spite of all your goodness, and bitter
task of surgeonship. I shall have another poultice on, and go to bed, I
think, Cousin Ridd, if you will not hold me ungrateful. I am so sorry for
your long walk. Surely it might be avoided. Give my love to dear Lizzie:
oh, the room is going round so.'</p>
<p>And she fainted into the arms of Sally, who was come just in time to fetch
her: no doubt she had been suffering agony all the time she talked to me.
Leaving word that I would come again to inquire for her, and fetch Kickums
home, so soon as the harvest permitted me, I gave directions about the
horse, and striding away from the ancient town, was soon upon the
moorlands.</p>
<p>Now, through the whole of that long walk—the latter part of which
was led by starlight, till the moon arose—I dwelt, in my young and
foolish way, upon the ordering of our steps by a Power beyond us. But as I
could not bring my mind to any clearness upon this matter, and the stars
shed no light upon it, but rather confused me with wondering how their
Lord could attend to them all, and yet to a puny fool like me, it came to
pass that my thoughts on the subject were not worth ink, if I knew them.</p>
<p>But it is perhaps worth ink to relate, so far as I can do so, mother's
delight at my return, when she had almost abandoned hope, and concluded
that I was gone to London, in disgust at her behaviour. And now she was
looking up the lane, at the rise of the harvest-moon, in despair, as she
said afterwards. But if she had despaired in truth, what use to look at
all? Yet according to the epigram made by a good Blundellite,—</p>
<p>Despair was never yet so deep In sinking as in seeming; Despair is hope
just dropped asleep For better chance of dreaming.</p>
<p>And mother's dream was a happy one, when she knew my step at a furlong
distant; for the night was of those that carry sound thrice as far as day
can. She recovered herself, when she was sure, and even made up her mind
to scold me, and felt as if she could do it. But when she was in my arms,
into which she threw herself, and I by the light of the moon descried the
silver gleam on one side of her head (now spreading since Annie's
departure), bless my heart and yours therewith, no room was left for
scolding. She hugged me, and she clung to me; and I looked at her, with
duty made tenfold, and discharged by love. We said nothing to one another;
but all was right between us.</p>
<p>Even Lizzie behaved very well, so far as her nature admitted; not even
saying a nasty thing all the time she was getting my supper ready, with a
weak imitation of Annie. She knew that the gift of cooking was not
vouchsafed by God to her; but sometimes she would do her best, by
intellect to win it. Whereas it is no more to be won by intellect than is
divine poetry. An amount of strong quick heart is needful, and the
understanding must second it, in the one art as in the other. Now my fare
was very choice for the next three days or more; yet not turned out like
Annie's. They could do a thing well enough on the fire; but they could not
put it on table so; nor even have plates all piping hot. This was Annie's
special gift; born in her, and ready to cool with her; like a plate borne
away from the fireplace. I sighed sometimes about Lorna, and they thought
it was about the plates. And mother would stand and look at me, as much as
to say, 'No pleasing him'; and Lizzie would jerk up one shoulder, and cry,
'He had better have Lorna to cook for him'; while the whole truth was that
I wanted not to be plagued about any cookery; but just to have something
good and quiet, and then smoke and think about Lorna.</p>
<p>Nevertheless the time went on, with one change and another; and we
gathered all our harvest in; and Parson Bowden thanked God for it, both in
church and out of it; for his tithes would be very goodly. The unmatched
cold of the previous winter, and general fear of scarcity, and our own
talk about our ruin, had sent prices up to a grand high pitch; and we did
our best to keep them there. For nine Englishmen out of every ten believe
that a bitter winter must breed a sour summer, and explain away topmost
prices. While according to my experience, more often it would be
otherwise, except for the public thinking so. However, I have said too
much; and if any farmer reads my book, he will vow that I wrote it for
nothing else except to rob his family.</p>
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