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<h2> CHAPTER XXXV </h2>
<h3> RUTH IS NOT LIKE LORNA </h3>
<p>Although by our mother's reluctant consent a large part of the obstacles
between Annie and her lover appeared to be removed, on the other hand
Lorna and myself gained little, except as regarded comfort of mind, and
some ease to the conscience. Moreover, our chance of frequent meetings and
delightful converse was much impaired, at least for the present; because
though mother was not aware of my narrow escape from Carver Doone, she
made me promise never to risk my life by needless visits. And upon this
point, that is to say, the necessity of the visit, she was well content,
as she said, to leave me to my own good sense and honour; only begging me
always to tell her of my intention beforehand. This pledge, however, for
her own sake, I declined to give; knowing how wretched she would be during
all the time of my absence; and, on that account, I promised instead, that
I would always give her a full account of my adventure upon returning.</p>
<p>Now my mother, as might be expected, began at once to cast about for some
means of relieving me from all further peril, and herself from great
anxiety. She was full of plans for fetching Lorna, in some wonderful
manner, out of the power of the Doones entirely, and into her own hands,
where she was to remain for at least a twelve-month, learning all mother
and Annie could teach her of dairy business, and farm-house life, and the
best mode of packing butter. And all this arose from my happening to say,
without meaning anything, how the poor dear had longed for quiet, and a
life of simplicity, and a rest away from violence! Bless thee, mother—now
long in heaven, there is no need to bless thee; but it often makes a
dimness now in my well-worn eyes, when I think of thy loving-kindness,
warmth, and romantic innocence.</p>
<p>As to stealing my beloved from that vile Glen Doone, the deed itself was
not impossible, nor beyond my daring; but in the first place would she
come, leaving her old grandfather to die without her tendence? And even
if, through fear of Carver and that wicked Counsellor, she should consent
to fly, would it be possible to keep her without a regiment of soldiers?
Would not the Doones at once ride forth to scour the country for their
queen, and finding her (as they must do), burn our house, and murder us,
and carry her back triumphantly?</p>
<p>All this I laid before my mother, and to such effect that she
acknowledged, with a sigh that nothing else remained for me (in the
present state of matters) except to keep a careful watch upon Lorna from
safe distance, observe the policy of the Doones, and wait for a tide in
their affairs. Meanwhile I might even fall in love (as mother unwisely
hinted) with a certain more peaceful heiress, although of inferior blood,
who would be daily at my elbow. I am not sure but what dear mother herself
would have been disappointed, had I proved myself so fickle; and my
disdain and indignation at the mere suggestion did not so much displease
her; for she only smiled and answered,—</p>
<p>'Well, it is not for me to say; God knows what is good for us. Likings
will not come to order; otherwise I should not be where I am this day. And
of one thing I am rather glad; Uncle Reuben well deserves that his pet
scheme should miscarry. He who called my boy a coward, an ignoble coward,
because he would not join some crack-brained plan against the valley which
sheltered his beloved one! And all the time this dreadful "coward" risking
his life daily there, without a word to any one! How glad I am that you
will not have, for all her miserable money, that little dwarfish
granddaughter of the insolent old miser!'</p>
<p>She turned, and by her side was standing poor Ruth Huckaback herself,
white, and sad, and looking steadily at my mother's face, which became as
red as a plum while her breath deserted her.</p>
<p>'If you please, madam,' said the little maiden, with her large calm eyes
unwavering, 'it is not my fault, but God Almighty's, that I am a little
dwarfish creature. I knew not that you regarded me with so much contempt
on that account; neither have you told my grandfather, at least within my
hearing, that he was an insolent old miser. When I return to Dulverton,
which I trust to do to-morrow (for it is too late to-day), I shall be
careful not to tell him your opinion of him, lest I should thwart any
schemes you may have upon his property. I thank you all for your kindness
to me, which has been very great, far more than a little dwarfish creature
could, for her own sake, expect. I will only add for your further guidance
one more little truth. It is by no means certain that my grandfather will
settle any of his miserable money upon me. If I offend him, as I would in
a moment, for the sake of a brave and straightforward man'—here she
gave me a glance which I scarcely knew what to do with—'my
grandfather, upright as he is, would leave me without a shilling. And I
often wish it were so. So many miseries come upon me from the miserable
money—' Here she broke down, and burst out crying, and ran away with
a faint good-bye; while we three looked at one another, and felt that we
had the worst of it.</p>
<p>'Impudent little dwarf!' said my mother, recovering her breath after ever
so long. 'Oh, John, how thankful you ought to be! What a life she would
have led you!'</p>
<p>'Well, I am sure!' said Annie, throwing her arms around poor mother: 'who
could have thought that little atomy had such an outrageous spirit! For my
part I cannot think how she can have been sly enough to hide it in that
crafty manner, that John might think her an angel!'</p>
<p>'Well, for my part,' I answered, laughing, 'I never admired Ruth Huckaback
half, or a quarter so much before. She is rare stuff. I would have been
glad to have married her to-morrow, if I had never seen my Lorna.'</p>
<p>'And a nice nobody I should have been, in my own house!' cried mother: 'I
never can be thankful enough to darling Lorna for saving me. Did you see
how her eyes flashed?'</p>
<p>'That I did; and very fine they were. Now nine maidens out of ten would
have feigned not to have heard one word that was said, and have borne
black malice in their hearts. Come, Annie, now, would not you have done
so?'</p>
<p>'I think,' said Annie, 'although of course I cannot tell, you know, John,
that I should have been ashamed at hearing what was never meant for me,
and should have been almost as angry with myself as anybody.'</p>
<p>'So you would,' replied my mother; 'so any daughter of mine would have
done, instead of railing and reviling. However, I am very sorry that any
words of mine which the poor little thing chose to overhear should have
made her so forget herself. I shall beg her pardon before she goes, and I
shall expect her to beg mine.'</p>
<p>'That she will never do,' said I; 'a more resolute little maiden never yet
had right upon her side; although it was a mere accident. I might have
said the same thing myself, and she was hard upon you, mother dear.'</p>
<p>After this, we said no more, at least about that matter; and little Ruth,
the next morning, left us, in spite of all that we could do. She vowed an
everlasting friendship to my younger sister Eliza; but she looked at Annie
with some resentment, when they said good-bye, for being so much taller.
At any rate so Annie fancied, but she may have been quite wrong. I rode
beside the little maid till far beyond Exeford, when all danger of the
moor was past, and then I left her with John Fry, not wishing to be too
particular, after all the talk about her money. She had tears in her eyes
when she bade me farewell, and she sent a kind message home to mother, and
promised to come again at Christmas, if she could win permission.</p>
<p>Upon the whole, my opinion was that she had behaved uncommonly well for a
maid whose self-love was outraged, with spirit, I mean, and proper pride;
and yet with a great endeavour to forgive, which is, meseems, the hardest
of all things to a woman, outside of her own family.</p>
<p>After this, for another month, nothing worthy of notice happened, except
of course that I found it needful, according to the strictest good sense
and honour, to visit Lorna immediately after my discourse with mother, and
to tell her all about it. My beauty gave me one sweet kiss with all her
heart (as she always did, when she kissed at all), and I begged for one
more to take to our mother, and before leaving, I obtained it. It is not
for me to tell all she said, even supposing (what is not likely) that any
one cared to know it, being more and more peculiar to ourselves and no one
else. But one thing that she said was this, and I took good care to carry
it, word for word, to my mother and Annie:—</p>
<p>'I never can believe, dear John, that after all the crime and outrage
wrought by my reckless family, it ever can be meant for me to settle down
to peace and comfort in a simple household. With all my heart I long for
home; any home, however dull and wearisome to those used to it, would seem
a paradise to me, if only free from brawl and tumult, and such as I could
call my own. But even if God would allow me this, in lieu of my wild
inheritance, it is quite certain that the Doones never can and never
will.'</p>
<p>Again, when I told her how my mother and Annie, as well as myself, longed
to have her at Plover's Barrows, and teach her all the quiet duties in
which she was sure to take such delight, she only answered with a bright
blush, that while her grandfather was living she would never leave him;
and that even if she were free, certain ruin was all she should bring to
any house that received her, at least within the utmost reach of her
amiable family. This was too plain to be denied, and seeing my dejection
at it, she told me bravely that we must hope for better times, if
possible, and asked how long I would wait for her.</p>
<p>'Not a day if I had my will,' I answered very warmly; at which she turned
away confused, and would not look at me for awhile; 'but all my life,' I
went on to say, 'if my fortune is so ill. And how long would you wait for
me, Lorna?'</p>
<p>'Till I could get you,' she answered slyly, with a smile which was
brighter to me than the brightest wit could be. 'And now,' she continued,
'you bound me, John, with a very beautiful ring to you, and when I dare
not wear it, I carry it always on my heart. But I will bind you to me, you
dearest, with the very poorest and plainest thing that ever you set eyes
on. I could give you fifty fairer ones, but they would not be honest; and
I love you for your honesty, and nothing else of course, John; so don't
you be conceited. Look at it, what a queer old thing! There are some
ancient marks upon it, very grotesque and wonderful; it looks like a cat
in a tree almost, but never mind what it looks like. This old ring must
have been a giant's; therefore it will fit you perhaps, you enormous John.
It has been on the front of my old glass necklace (which my grandfather
found them taking away, and very soon made them give back again) ever
since I can remember; and long before that, as some woman told me. Now you
seem very greatly amazed; pray what thinks my lord of it?'</p>
<p>'That is worth fifty of the pearl thing which I gave you, you darling; and
that I will not take it from you.'</p>
<p>'Then you will never take me, that is all. I will have nothing to do with
a gentleman'—</p>
<p>'No gentleman, dear—a yeoman.'</p>
<p>'Very well, a yeoman—nothing to do with a yeoman who will not accept
my love-gage. So, if you please, give it back again, and take your lovely
ring back.'</p>
<p>She looked at me in such a manner, half in earnest, half in jest, and
three times three in love, that in spite of all good resolutions, and her
own faint protest, I was forced to abandon all firm ideas, and kiss her
till she was quite ashamed, and her head hung on my bosom, with the night
of her hair shed over me. Then I placed the pearl ring back on the soft
elastic bend of the finger she held up to scold me; and on my own smallest
finger drew the heavy hoop she had given me. I considered this with
satisfaction, until my darling recovered herself; and then I began very
gravely about it, to keep her (if I could) from chiding me:—</p>
<p>'Mistress Lorna, this is not the ring of any giant. It is nothing more nor
less than a very ancient thumb-ring, such as once in my father's time was
ploughed up out of the ground in our farm, and sent to learned doctors,
who told us all about it, but kept the ring for their trouble. I will
accept it, my own one love; and it shall go to my grave with me.' And so
it shall, unless there be villains who would dare to rob the dead.</p>
<p>Now I have spoken about this ring (though I scarcely meant to do so, and
would rather keep to myself things so very holy) because it holds an
important part in the history of my Lorna. I asked her where the glass
necklace was from which the ring was fastened, and which she had worn in
her childhood, and she answered that she hardly knew, but remembered that
her grandfather had begged her to give it up to him, when she was ten
years old or so, and had promised to keep it for her until she could take
care of it; at the same time giving her back the ring, and fastening it
from her pretty neck, and telling her to be proud of it. And so she always
had been, and now from her sweet breast she took it, and it became John
Ridd's delight.</p>
<p>All this, or at least great part of it, I told my mother truly, according
to my promise; and she was greatly pleased with Lorna for having been so
good to me, and for speaking so very sensibly; and then she looked at the
great gold ring, but could by no means interpret it. Only she was quite
certain, as indeed I myself was, that it must have belonged to an ancient
race of great consideration, and high rank, in their time. Upon which I
was for taking it off, lest it should be degraded by a common farmer's
finger. But mother said 'No,' with tears in her eyes; 'if the common
farmer had won the great lady of the ancient race, what were rings and
old-world trinkets, when compared to the living jewel?' Being quite of her
opinion in this, and loving the ring (which had no gem in it) as the token
of my priceless gem, I resolved to wear it at any cost, except when I
should be ploughing, or doing things likely to break it; although I must
own that it felt very queer (for I never had throttled a finger before),
and it looked very queer, for a length of time, upon my great hard-working
hand.</p>
<p>And before I got used to my ring, or people could think that it belonged
to me (plain and ungarnished though it was), and before I went to see
Lorna again, having failed to find any necessity, and remembering my duty
to mother, we all had something else to think of, not so pleasant, and
more puzzling.</p>
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