<div><span class='pageno' title='355' id='Page_355'></span><h1>CHAPTER XXIV</h1></div>
<p class='noindent'><span class='dropcap'>T</span><span class='sc'>ommy</span>, calling for Clementina the next morning;
was confronted at the open door, not by Eliza,
but by a demure damsel in a black frock, black
apron, and a black bow in her hair, who said “Oui,
monsieur,” when addressed. Tommy, still bewildered,
asked whether she was a new lady’s maid. “Oui;
monsieur,” said the damsel, and showed him into
the Sheraton drawing-room. He sat down meekly
and waited for Clementina. She came down soon,
a resplendent vision, exquisitely gowned, perfectly
hatted, delicately gloved, and in her hand she jingled
a small goldsmith’s shop. She pirouetted round.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Like it?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Tommy groaned. “Clementina, darling, tell me,
in Heaven’s name, what you’re playing at, or I’ll
go raving mad.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I told you that one of these days I was going to
become a lady. The day has come. Don’t I look like
a lady?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“That’s the devil of it,” he laughed. “You look
like an archduchess.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>They picked up Etta and met Quixtus at the Carlton
where they lunched in the middle of the great gay
room. The young people’s curious awe of the transmogrified
Clementina soon melted away. The big,
warm-hearted Clementina they loved was unchanged;
but to her was added a laughter-evoking, brilliant,
joyous personage whose existence they had never
suspected. Quixtus went home stimulated and
uplifted. He had never enjoyed two hours so much
in his life.</p>
<p class='pindent'>And that was the beginning of the glory of
Clementina Wing.</p>
<p class='pindent'>Day by day the glory deepened. The pyrotechnic—a
flash, a bedazzlement and then darkness—was not
in Clementina’s nature. She had deliberately immolated
the phœnix of dusky plumage and from its ashes
had arisen this second and radiant phœnix incarnation.
She suffered, as she confessed to herself, infernally;
for a new fire-born phœnix must have its skin
peculiarly tender; but she grinned and bore it for
the greater glory—well, not of Clementina alone—but
of God and her sex and the happiness of those
she loved and the things that stood for the right.</p>
<p class='pindent'>She was fighting the interloping woman with her
own weapons. She, Clementina, the despised and
rejected of men, was pitting her sex’s fascinations
against the professional seductress. She had won the
first pitched battle. She had swept the enemy from
the field. Sheer fierceness of love, almost animal,
for the child, sheer pity flaming white for the man
grown dear to her, sheer sex, sheer womanhood—these
were the forces at work. It would have been
easy to denounce the woman to Quixtus. But that
might have thrown him back into darkness. Easy,
too, to have held her knowledge as a threat over the
woman’s head and bade her begone. But where had
been the triumph? Where the glory? Whereas
to scorn the use of her knowledge and conquer otherwise,
therein lay matter for thrilling exultation.
It was an achievement worth the struggle.</p>
<p class='pindent'>And the glory of the riot through her veins of the
tumultuous Thing she had kept strangled to torpor
within her! The Thing that had been stirred by the
springtide in a girl’s heart, that had leapt at the parrot
tulips in the early May, that had almost escaped from
grip on the moonlit night at Vienne, that had remained
awake and struggling ever since—the glory to let it
go free and carry her whithersoever it would! Art—to
the devil with it! What was Art in comparison
with this new-found glory?</p>
<p class='pindent'>It made her ten years younger. It took years from
the man for whose fascination she brought it into
play. Hers was a double conquest, the rout of the
woman, the capture of the man. Daily she battled.
Sheila, the lovers, a new portrait of him which she
suddenly conceived the splendid notion of painting,
all were pretexts for keeping the unconscious man
within the sphere of her influence. Any impression
that the other had made on his heart or his mind
should be deleted, and her impression stamped there
in its place, so that when he met the other out of her
presence, as meet her he undoubtedly must, he would
wear it as a talisman against her arts and blandishments.
Twice also during the dying days of the season,
late that year, she went out into the great world and
gave her adversary battle in the open.</p>
<p class='pindent'>It was between these two engagements that she
had a talk with Huckaby.</p>
<p class='pindent'>Huckaby, doing his best to act loyally towards
both parties, led a precarious moral existence. The
sight of Clementina queening it in dazzling raiment
about Quixtus’s house and the despairing confidences
of Lena Fontaine had enabled him to form a fairly
accurate judgment of the state of affairs. His heart
began to bleed for Lena Fontaine. She would come
to his lodgings and claim sympathy. To not a soul
in the world but him could she talk freely. She was
desperate. That abominable woman insulted her,
trampled on her, poisoned Quixtus’s mind against
her. He had changed suddenly, seemed to avoid her,
and, when he found himself in her company, he was
just polite and courteous in his gentle way, and
smilingly eluded her. The Dinard intimacy, on which
she had reckoned, had faded into the land of dreams.
He was being dragged off before her eyes to some
fool place up the river to be watched and guarded
like a lunatic. What was she to do? Ruin would
soon be staring her in the face. She had thought of
upbraiding him for neglect, of reproaching him for
having played fast and loose with her affections,
of putting him through the ordeal of an emotional
scene. Of that, however, she was afraid; it might
scare him away for good and all. She wept, an
unhappy and ill-treated woman, and Huckaby supplied
sympathy and handkerchiefs and a mirror so that
she could repair the ravages of tears.</p>
<p class='pindent'>One day Huckaby and Clementina met in the hall
of the Russell Square house.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Well,” she said. “Have you seen Mrs. Fontaine
lately?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>He admitted that he had.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Taking it rather badly, I suppose,” she remarked
with a reversion to her grim manner.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“She is miserable. As I told you, it means all
the world to her—her very salvation.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Clementina caught the note of deep pleading in
his voice and fixed him with her shrewd eyes.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“You seem to concern yourself very deeply about
the lady.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Huckaby glanced at her for a moment hesitatingly;
then shrugged his shoulders. Clementina was a
woman to whom straight dealing counted for righteousness.
He gave her his secret.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I’ve grown to care for her—to care for her very
much. I know I’m a fool, but I can’t help it.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Do you know anything of the lady’s private
affairs—financial, I mean—how much she has honestly
of her own?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Four hundred pounds a year.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“And you?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“When I take up the appointment of the Anthropological
Society I shall have five hundred.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Nine hundred pounds. Have you any idea of
the minimum rate per annum at which she would
accept salvation?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“No,” said Huckaby in a dazed way.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Well, work it out,” said Clementina. “Good-bye.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Her second sortie into the great world was on the
occasion of a garden-party at the Quinns. Lady
Quinn had asked her verbally at Quixtus’s dinner
and had sent her a formal card. Knowing that
Quixtus was going and more than suspecting that
the enemy would be there too, she had kept her own
invitation a secret. Welcomed, flattered, surrounded
by the gay crowd in the large, pleasant Hampstead
garden, it was some time before she saw Mrs. Fontaine.
At last she caught sight of her sitting with Quixtus,
at the end of the garden, half screened by a tree-trunk
from the mass of guests. As soon as Clementina
could work her way through, she advanced quickly
and smiling towards them. Quixtus sprang to his
feet and seemed to take a deep breath as a man does
when he flings bedroom windows wide open on his
first morning in mountain air.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Clementina! I hadn’t the dimmest notion that
you were coming! How delightful!” He surveyed
her for a moment as she stood before him; parasol
on shoulder. Clementina with a parasol! “Pray
forgive my impertinence,” said he, “but you’re
wearing the most beautiful dress I ever saw.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>It was hand-painted muslin—a fabulous thing.
She laughed, turned to Lena Fontaine, demure in a
simple fawn costume.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“He’s improving. Have you ever known him to
compliment a woman on her dress before?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Many times,” said Mrs. Fontaine, mendaciously.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“It must be your excellent training,” said
Clementina. She turned to Quixtus. “I’ve seen
Huckaby this morning, and everything’s quite arranged
for the transportation of your necessary books and
specimens down to Moleham. He’ll do it beautifully
even though it takes a pantechnicon van, and you
won’t be worried about it at all. He’s a splendid
fellow.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“He is rendering me invaluable assistance.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Dr. Quixtus tells me he is quite an old friend of
yours, Mrs. Fontaine,” said Clementina. “What a pity
you can’t be persuaded to come down to Moleham.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Are you going to have a chaperon to your rather
mixed house-party?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I should if you would honour me by coming;
my dear Mrs. Fontaine—a dowager dragon of propriety.
But an Admiral of the British navy is quite
safeguard enough for me.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>The hostess, coming through the edge of the crowd,
carried off Quixtus. The two women were left alone.
Lena Fontaine turned suddenly, white-lipped, shaking
with anger.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I’ve had enough of it. I’m not going to stand it.
I’m not going to be persecuted like this any longer.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“What will you do?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Lena Fontaine clenched her small hands. What
could she do?</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Come, come,” said Clementina. “Let us have
a straight talk like sensible women, and put the
pussy-cat aside, if we can. Sit down. Do. There’s
only one point of dissension between us. You know
very well what it is—there’s no use fencing. Give it
up. Give up all idea of it and I’ll let you alone.
Give it all up. You can see for yourself that I won’t
let you do it.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“It’s outrageous for you to speak to me like this,”
said the other, half hysterically.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I know it is,” said Clementina coolly. “I’m
an outrageous woman. Been so all my life. To do
an outrageous thing is only part of the day’s work.
So I just say outrageously; give it up.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Lena Fontaine fluttered a glance at the strong face
and caught the magnetism of the black glittering
eyes, and remained silent. She knew that she was
no match for this vital creature. She was confronting
overwhelming odds. The rough fishfag of Paris
who could walk straight into the mould of a great
lady and carry everything contemptuously before her
suddenly impressed her with a paralysing sense of
something uncanny, relentless, irresistible. She was
less a woman than an implacable force. For the
first time in her life of Hagardom, Lena Fontaine
felt beaten. The nun’s face grew drawn and haggard.
Fright replaced the allurement of her eyes. She said
nothing, but twisted one gloved hand nervously in
the other. She was at the mercy of the victor. There
was silence for some moments. Then Clementina’s
heart smote her. All this elaborate wheel to break
a butterfly—a very naughty, sordid, frayed and empty
little butterfly—but still a butterfly!</p>
<p class='pindent'>“My dear,” she said, at last very gently. “I
know how hard life is on a lone and defenceless woman.
I know you have many reasons to hate me for preventing
you from making that life softer and sweeter.
But perhaps, one of these days, you mayn’t hate
me so much. I’m every infernal thing you like to
call me, and when I’m interfered with I’m a devil.
But at heart I’m a woman and a good sort. I won’t
outrage you by saying such an idiot thing as ‘Let
us be friends,’ when you’ve every rational desire to
murder me; but I ask you to remember—and I’ve
suffered enough not to be a silly fool going round
saying serious things I don’t mean—I ask you to remember
that if ever you want a woman to turn to,
you can count on me. I’m a good bit older than
you,” she added generously, “I’m thirty-six.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Oh, God!” cried the other, bursting into tears,
“I’m thirty-seven.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Impossible,” said Clementina, in genuine amazement.
“You look nothing like it.” She rose and
touched the weeping woman’s shoulder. “Anyhow,”
she said, “I’ve a certain amount of female horse-sense
that might come in useful if you want it.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Whereupon Clementina made her way straight
through the throng to her hostess, and after a swift
farewell left the garden-party.</p>
<p class='pindent'>The enemy was finally routed; the confession of
age, a confession of defeat. The victory had been
achieved much more easily than she had anticipated.
When she went home she looked with a queer smile into
one of the hanging wardrobes with which she had been
obliged to furnish her bedroom so as to accommodate
the prodigious quantity of new dresses. Why all the
lavish expenditure, the feverish preparation, the
many hours wasted at great dressmakers, modistes,
and other vendors of frippery—why the hairdressers,
the face specialists—why the exquisite torture of
tight lacing—why the responsibility of valuable
jewels, her mother’s, up till then safely stored at the
bank—why the renting of the caravanserai at Moleham—why
the revolution of her habits, her modes of
expression, her very life—why, in short, such fantastic
means to gain so simple an end? Was it worth it?
Clementina slammed the wardrobe door and glanced
at herself in the long mirror that was exposed. She
saw a happy woman, and she laughed. It was worth
it. She had gained infinitely more than a victory over
a poor sister of no account. Sheila came running
into the room.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Oh, what a beautiful auntie!”</p>
<p class='pindent'>She caught the child to her and hugged her close.</p>
<p class='pindent'>The legal formalities with regard to Will Hammersley’s
affairs were eventually concluded; but
in spite of all inquiries the identity of Sheila’s
mother remained a curious mystery. No record
of Hammersley’s marriage could be found, either
at Somerset House or at Shanghai. No reference
to his wife appeared in the papers he had left behind
him. At last, a day or two before her departure
for Moleham, Clementina made a discovery.</p>
<p class='pindent'>A trunk of Hammersley’s merely containing suits
of clothes and other wearing apparel had remained
undisposed of, and Clementina was going through
them with the object of packing them off to some
charitable association, when from the folds of a jacket
there dropped a bundle of letters tied round with a
bit of tape. She glanced idly at the outer sheet.
The handwriting was a woman’s. The few words that
met her eyes showed that they were love-letters.
Clementina sat on an empty packing case—all
Hammersley’s personal belongings had been dumped
in her box-room—and balanced the bundle in her
hand. They were sacred things belonging to the
hearts of the dead. Ought she to read them? Yet
she became conscious of a feminine intuition that they
might hold a secret that would bring comfort to the
living. So she undid the tape and spread out the
old crumpled pages, and as she read, a tragedy, a
romance as old as the world was revealed to her.
The letters dated from seven years back. They were
from one, Nora Duglade, a woman wretchedly married,
breaking her heart for Will Hammersley. Clementina
read on. Suddenly she gave a sharp cry of astonishment
and leaped to her feat. There was a reference
to Angela Quixtus, who was in her confidence.
Clementina rapidly scanned page after page and found
more and more of Angela. The writer; like most
women, could not bear to destroy the beloved letters;
she dared not keep them at home; Angela had lent
her a drawer in her bureau. . . .</p>
<p class='pindent'>Clementina telephoned to Quixtus to come immediately
on urgent business. In twenty minutes
he arrived, somewhat scared. Was anything wrong
with Sheila?</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I’ve found out who her mother was,” said
Clementina.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Who was she?” he asked quickly.</p>
<p class='pindent'>She bade him sit down. They were in the drawing
room.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Some one called Nora Duglade. . . . I don’t
remember her.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Quixtus passed his hand over his forehead as he
threw back his thoughts.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Mrs. Duglade . . .” he said in bewilderment,
“Mrs. Duglade . . .”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“A friend of Angela’s,” said Clementina.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Yes. A school friend. They saw very little of
each other. I met her only once or twice. I had no
notion Hammersley knew her. . . . Her husband
was a brute, I remember—used to beat her. . . . I
think I heard she had left him——”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“For Will Hammersley.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“He died years ago . . . of drink. . . . Oh-h!”
He shuddered and hid his face in his hands.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Read these few pages,” said Clementina and she
left the room very quietly.</p>
<p class='pindent'>About ten minutes afterwards she came in again.
He sprang up from his chair and grasped both her
hands. His eyes were wet and his lips worked
tremulously.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I found a letter from Hammersley in Angela’s
drawer—it had got stuck at the back. . . . It was
for the other woman, my dear——” his voice quavered
into the treble. “It was for the other woman.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>She led him to the stiff sofa and sat beside him and
held his hand. And she had the joy of seeing a
black cloud melt away from a man’s soul.</p>
<p class='pindent'>From that hour when he had revealed to her the
things deep and sacred, dark and despairing of his
heart, and had gone forth from her sympathy aglow
with a new-found faith in humanity, the bond between
them was strengthened a thousandfold. Quixtus
found that he could obtain not only swift response to
his thoughts from a keen intelligence, but wide,
undreamed of understanding of all those subtle
workings of the spirit, regrets, hopes, judgments,
prejudices, shrinkings, wonderings, impulses, which
are too elusive to be thoughts, too vague to be
emotions. And yet, she herself was never subtle.
She was direct and uncompromising. As a shivering
man enters a cosy room and warms himself before a
blazing fire, so did he unquestioningly warm his heart
in Clementina’s personality. And as the shivering
man knows, without speculating, that the fire is
intense and strong, so did he know that Clementina
was intense and strong.</p>
<p class='pindent'>All through the idyll of the remaining summer;
he felt this more and more. She stood for something
that he had missed in life, something that Angela,
pale, passionless, negative reflection of himself, had
never given him. She stood for richness, bigness,
meaning. A simple man, not given to introspection
or analysis of motive, new sensations, new realisations
came to him as they come to a child and caused
development. And among other impressions that
deepened on his mind—and his was the mind of a
scholar and dreamer, sweet and clean—was that of
Clementina (now appearing to the world as God
Almighty intended her to appear) as a physically
fine and splendid creature.</p>
<p class='pindent'>And, during all the summer idyll in the Manor
House at Moleham-on-Thames, Clementina, in her
uncompromising way, maintained the new phœnix’s
plumage preened and shiny. The old habit of clawing
at her hair while she was painting she circumvented
by tying her head in an Angelica Kauffmann handkerchief.
Tommy made her a present of one, in
cardinal red, in which she flamed gipsy-like about the
studio. Involuntarily, inevitably, the manner of
all the men in her house-party, Quixtus, Huckaby,
Admiral Concannon, Poynter (who spent a week-end),
Tommy and Tommy’s cronies who came and went as
they pleased, was tinged with a deference and a homage
which made life a thing of meaning and delight.</p>
<p class='pindent'>Sometimes a little scene like this would take place;</p>
<p class='pindent'>To Clementina painting hard in the morning, enter
the housekeeper.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Please, ma’am, we’ll soon be out of wine.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>She would frown at the canvas. “Well, what of
it?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“The gentlemen, ma’am.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Oh, let them drink ginger-beer.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Very well, ma’am.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Then with a laugh she would fling down her brushes,
and go and attend to her cellar. To make the men
in her house comfortable, the commonplace care of
a hostess, gave her unimagined pleasure. Etta and
her young friends could look after themselves, being
females and therefore resourceful. But the men
were helpless children, even the Admiral; sometimes,
she thought—especially the Admiral. Their nourishment
became a matter of peculiar solicitude. She
invented wants for them which she forthwith supplied.
Sometimes she summoned Tommy to consultation.
But when he gravely prescribed a large bath powder-puff
for his uncle she upbraided him for making a
jest of solemn things and dismissed him from her
counsels. Her painting suffered from these inroads
on her time and thoughts; but Clementina cared not.
The happiness of the trustful men around her was
of more consequence than the successful application
of paint to canvas. Sometimes, sitting at the head of
her table she would feel herself a mother to them all,
and her lips would twist themselves into a new smile.</p>
<p class='pindent'>Her happiest hours were those which she spent
alone with Sheila and Quixtus. Since the cloud
had been lifted from his soul he loved the child with
a new tenderness, thus inarticulately expressing his
gratitude to God for having put it into his heart to
love her while the cloud hung heavy. And Clementina
knew this, and invested his relations with the child
in a curious sanctity. She loved to share with him
the child’s affection in actual physical presence. The
late afternoon was Sheila’s hour. Clementina would sit
with them beneath the great cedar tree on the lawn
and listen to the stories he had learned to pour into
Sheila’s insatiable ears. They were mostly odds
and ends of folk-lore. But now and then she suspected
heterogeneous strains; and one day she called
out;</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Are you inventing all that, Ephraim?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>He confessed with the air of a detected schoolboy.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“To hear you playing the deuce with folk-lore
which you regard as a strict and sacred science amazes
me. From you it sounds almost immoral.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Quixtus fingered the soft curls. “What,” said he,
“is all the science in the world compared with this
little head?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Clementina was silent for a moment. Then she
said abruptly. “You feel like that, too, do you?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Quixtus nodded and dreamed over the curls.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“But what happened to the princess and the
Ju-Ju man?” demanded Sheila, and Quixtus had to
pursue his immoral course.</p>
<p class='pindent'>August melted into September, and September
drew to its close. Admiral Concannon and Etta
and all the boys and girls, save Tommy, had gone,
and Huckaby was busy with the repacking of books
and specimens. The weather had broken. The
trees dripped with rain and the leaves began to fall.
Mists rose from the meadows by the river and a blue
haze, sweet and sad, enveloped the low-lying hills.
In the garden the sunflowers, a week before so glorious,
hung their heads with a dying grace. The birds,
even the thrushes, were mute. The hour under
the cedar tree had become the hour of deepening
twilight by the fireside. The idyll was over. London
called. . . .</p>
<hr class='tbk'/>
<p class='pindent'>They had been sitting before the drawing-room
fire for a long time without speaking. Sheila, with
a toy shop and an army of dolls for customers, played
on the floor between them, absorbed in her game.
No one of the three noticed that darkness had crept
into the room, for the fire leaped and flamed, throwing
on them fierce lights and shadows.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“The day after to-morrow,” said Clementina,
breaking the silence, and looking intently at the
blaze.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Yes,” said Quixtus. “The day after to-morrow.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I think you’ll find I’ve made all arrangements
for Sheila, Atkins understands.” Atkins was the
nurse. “I’ve seen about the nursery fender which
I had overlooked. . . . You mustn’t let Atkins bully
you, or she’ll get out of hand. . . . How these three
months have flown!”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“If you didn’t insist,” said Quixtus, “I wouldn’t
take her from you. But you’ll miss her terribly.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“So will you when my turn comes again,” replied
Clementina gruffly. “What’s the good of talking
rubbish?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>There was another silence. He glanced at her,
and a sudden flame from the fire lit up her face and
he saw that her brows were bent and her mouth
set grimly tight and that something glistened for
a second on each cheek and then fell quickly. And
each time he glanced at her he saw the same glistening
drop fall.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Uncle Ephim,” said Sheila coming and insinuating
herself between his legs, “Mrs. Brown wants to buy
some matches and I haven’t got any.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>He gave her his silver match-box and Sheila went
away happy to her game.</p>
<p class='pindent'>Clementina choked a sob.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“My dear,” said he, at last.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Yes?” said Clementina.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Why shouldn’t we have her always with us?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“You mean——?” said Clementina, after a pause,
and still looking into the fire.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Even with her, I can’t face that great lonely
house. I can’t face my empty, lonely existence.
My dear,” said he, bending forward in his chair;
“it has come to this—that I can’t think a thought
or feel an emotion without you becoming inextricably
interwoven with it. You have grown into the texture
of my life. I know I may be impertinent and presumptuous
in putting such a proposal before you——”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“You haven’t put one yet,” said Clementina.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“It is that you would do me the honour of marrying
me,” replied Quixtus.</p>
<p class='pindent'>Again there was silence. For the first time in her
life she was afraid to speak, lest she should betray
the commotion in her being. She loved him. She
did not hide the fact from herself. It was not the
mad, gorgeous passion of romance; she knew it for
something deeper, stronger, based on essentials.
He lay deeply rooted in her heart, half child for her
mothering, all man for her loving. When had she
begun to care for him? She scarcely knew. Perhaps
at Marseilles, when he had returned to her for companionship
and they had walked out arm in arm.
She knew that he spoke truly of his need of her. But
the words that mattered, the foolish little words;
he had not uttered.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Do you care for me enough to marry me?” she
asked, at last.</p>
<p class='pindent'>He glanced at Sheila weighing out matches in her
toy scales. It is difficult to carry on a love-scene
with conviction in the presence of a third party,
even of that of a beloved child of five.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Very, very, deeply,” he said in a low voice.</p>
<p class='pindent'>The dressing-bell rang and Clementina rose. “Put
up your shop, darling. It’s time to go to bed.” Then
she crossed to Quixtus’s chair and stood behind him
and laid one arm on his shoulder. He kissed her hand.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Well?” said he, looking up.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I’ll tell you presently,” she said, and in withdrawing
her hand, she lightly brushed his cheek.</p>
<p class='pindent'>Quixtus dressed quickly and came down early to
the drawing-room, and soon Clementina appeared.
She was wearing a red dress which she had bought
during her wholesale purchasing of raiment, but had
never yet worn, thinking it too flaring, and she
had a red dahlia in her hair. Quixtus took both
her hands and raised them to his shoulders, and she
stood away from him at the distance of her bare;
shapely arms, and she smiled into his eyes.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Your answer?” said he.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Tell me,” she said. “What do you really want
me for?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“For yourself,” he cried, and he caught her in his
arms with swift passion and kissed her.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“If you hadn’t said that,” she remarked a few
moments afterwards, “I don’t know what my answer
would have been. At any rate,” she added, touching
her hair with uplifted hands, “it would not have been
quite so spontaneous.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>He leaned his elbow on the mantelpiece and a great
light came into his pale blue eyes as he looked at her.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“Do you think, my dear,” said he, “that I’m
such a dry stick of a man as not to want you for your
great self—your great, splendid, and wonderful self?
I want you with everything in me.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>She turned half aside and said gently;</p>
<p class='pindent'>“That’s all a woman wants, Ephraim.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“What?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“To be wanted,” said Clementina.</p>
<p class='pindent'>It was not till the next day that she told Tommy
the great news. She took him for a walk and broke
it to him bluntly. But he was prepared for it. Etta
had foreseen and had prophesied to his sceptical
ears. He murmured well-bred congratulations.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“But your painting,” said he, after a while.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“It can go hang,” said Clementina. She laughed
at his look of horror. “Art for the polygamous
man and the celibate woman. A man can throw his
soul into his pictures and also attend to his wife and
family. That’s out of a woman’s power. She must
choose between her art on the one side, and husband
and children on the other—I’m telling you this, <span class='it'>mon
petit</span>, for your education. I’ve chosen husband and
children as any woman with blood in her veins would
choose. It’s the women without blood that choose
art—don’t make any mistake about it. Now and then
one of ’em chooses the other—and, as she doesn’t
get any children and doesn’t know what the deuce
to do with a husband, falls back on her art again and
gives the poor devil soup with camel-hair brushes
floating about it and a painting-rag for a napkin,
and then there are ructions, and she goes among her
weary pals and says that their sex is misunderstood
and down-trodden, and they must clamour for their
rights. Bosh!”</p>
<p class='pindent'>She sniffed in her old way. Tommy insisted.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“But you’re a born painter, Clementina. A great
painter. It means such a tremendous sacrifice.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“You young men of the present day make me
tired!” she exclaimed. “You all seem to think
that larks ought to fall ready roasted into your mouth.
There’s not a blessed thing in this world worth having
without sacrifice. The big people, the people that
have the big things in life are those that have paid
or are prepared to pay the big price for them.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I don’t see why you should round on me like that,”
said Tommy. “After all, a little while ago I made
no bones about sacrificing the loaves and fishes for
the sake of my art—I don’t want to brag—but <span class='it'>fiat
justitia</span> at any rate.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I know what you did,” said Clementina, mollified,
“and if you hadn’t done it, I shouldn’t be talking
like this to you. And you’re a painter and my very
dear Tommy, and you can understand—Of course,
I’ll go on painting—I’ve got it in my blood. I could
no more do without a paint brush handy than a tooth
brush. But it’s going to be secondary. I’ll be the
gifted amateur. Clementina Wing, painter of portraits
to the nobility, gentry, mayoralty, and pork-butchery
of Great Britain and Ireland is dead. You can
paraphrase the epitaph. ‘Here lies Clementina Wing,
the married woman.’ And, Tommy, my dear,” she
added in a softer voice, “You can add to it; ‘<span class='it'>Sic
itur ad astra</span>.’ ”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I do hope you’ll be jolly happy,” said Tommy.</p>
<p class='pindent'>On their way back it happened that the postman
met them with the household budget. She took the
letters into the hall and sorted them. Tommy
went off with his precious epistle from Etta. Huckaby
appeared in quest of his chief’s correspondence, and,
seeing her alone, congratulated her on her approaching
marriage. She thanked him and held out a letter
addressed to him from Dinard.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I’ve been dealing in quotations lately,” she said.
“And I find I’ve got one for you. ‘Go thou and
do likewise.’ ”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Huckaby sighed and laughed.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“One of these days, perhaps,” said he.</p>
<p class='pindent'>So the idyll that seemed to be coming to an end
had only just begun. They returned to London,
and while Clementina (in whose charge Sheila now
remained) painted frenziedly to finish the work she
had in hand, Quixtus, with her help, reorganised
the great gaunt house in Russell Square. The worm-eaten
scarecrow of a billiard table was removed from
the billiard-room built by Quixtus’s father over
the garden at the back of the house, and the room,
spacious and top-lighted, was converted into a studio
for the bride to be. Tommy, enthusiastically
iconoclast, being given authority, under Clementina’s
directions, to refurnish, condemned rep curtains,
mahogany mid-Victorian furniture—a dining-room
sideboard disfigured by carvings of plethoric fruit
had sent shivers down his back since infancy—Turkey
carpets and all the gloom of a bygone age, and
converted the grim abode into a bower of delight.</p>
<p class='pindent'>And towards the end of October the oddly
mated pair were married, and Clementina went to her
husband’s home and the patter of the feet of the
beloved child of their adoption was heard about the
house and great joy fell upon them.</p>
<p class='pindent'>One day, in the early spring, Quixtus burst into the
studio, a letter in hand. The greatest of all honours
that the civilised world has to give to the scholar
had fallen on him—honorary membership of the
Institut de France. She must know of it at once.</p>
<p class='pindent'>She was sitting before the easel, a bit of charcoal
in hand, absorbed in her drawing. What he saw on
the drawing-paper put, for the moment, the Institute
of France out of his mind. Two arms came from the
vague, headless trunk of a draped woman; one arm
clasped Sheila, a living portrait, and the other something
all chubby, kissable curves, such as Murillo
has rendered immortal. As soon as she was aware
of his presence she tore the sheet from the board,
and looked at him somewhat defiantly. He went up
and put his arm round her, deeply moved.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“My dear,” said he, “I saw. You’re the only
woman in the world that could have done it. Let me
look. I can share it with you, dear.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>She yielded. His delicate perception of the innermost
sweetnesses of life was infinitely dear to her.
She set the drawing upright on the ledge. He drew
a chair close to her and sat down, and he forgot the
crowning glory of his intellectual life.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“It’s not bad of Sheila, is it?” she said.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“And the other?”</p>
<p class='pindent'>She kissed him. “The very image. It’s bound to be.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>Presently she laughed and said:</p>
<p class='pindent'>“I’ve been thinking of the good St. Paul lately.
He has a lot to say about glory. Do you remember?
About the glory of celestial bodies and bodies terrestrial.
‘There is one glory of the sun and another
glory of the moon and another glory of the stars.’
But there is one glory which that eminent bachelor
never dreamed of.”</p>
<p class='pindent'>“And what is that, my dear?” asked Quixtus.</p>
<p class='pindent'>“The glory of being a woman,” said Clementina.</p>
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Where multiple spellings occur, majority use has been
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