but not amazed, as some people might have been. Then<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_343" id="Page_343">[343]</SPAN></span>
Kitty put up her hand to me, showing the palm of it quite
rosy, as it always had been; and I saw that her dress was the
one in the drawer; but that did not surprise me.</p>
<p>“Darling, you must be patient still. I am thousands of
miles away from you;” she spoke as quietly as if she were
saying—“The tea is not quite drawn yet,” and I received it as
quietly. “There is a good reason for my going; and you
know it better than I do. Only, be happy till I come back;
for whatever you feel, I feel. When I come home, we shall
never part again.”</p>
<p>This was a little too much for me, high and tragical as it
seemed.</p>
<p>“I want you now. Oh Kitty, Kitty, don’t run away again!”
I cried; and over went both my Windsor chairs, as I sprang
up, to fling my arms round her.</p>
<p>But when I came to the place where she had been, lo, there
was no one! Everything was cold and hard; instead of her
soft warm figure, all I embraced was a kitchen towel; and the
handle of a gridiron came between my vainly opened lips.</p>
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<h2>CHAPTER LIII.<br/> <small>A BAD NIGHT.</small></h2>
<p class="unindent"><span class="smcap">Nevertheless</span>, that vision, if it was a vision, cheered me. The
more I thought of it, the more I felt that it meant something;
and though free as any man can be from human superstition,
here I found a special mercy, showing that I was not quite
abandoned and forsaken. But I took good care not to make
myself the laughing-stock of any one. Neither Uncle Corny,
nor Henderson (who was now come back from his honeymoon),
nor even Tabby Tapscott, who might well claim the best right
of all, ever heard a word of it. To Mr. Golightly alone I spoke
at all about the matter, and he, instead of laughing at me, took
it very gravely.</p>
<p>“It is meant to encourage you,” he said; “and you should
be thankful. Many even of the true believers have their doubts,
as is natural, whether our little earthly course is guided by a
higher hand; or whether in the light of full instruction we are
left to work it out. But I venture to think with the men of old,
that all things are ordered for us. You have had a bitter trial,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_344" id="Page_344">[344]</SPAN></span>
such as befalls very few so young; and you have borne it well,
my friend. Sometimes you have been gloomy and downcast,
but never bitter. A more mysterious affliction I have never
witnessed, and you know well how my heart is with you,
though I seldom speak of it. ‘Bear and be strong’ is the true
watchword, and you have kept it nobly. I pray that I may
live to see you in your happiness again; and you may without
presumption hold that this has been vouchsafed you, as a token
of approval, and a signal to encourage you.”</p>
<p>So I tried to take it, though it seemed but meagre comfort.
And I wished that I had broken my knees again, before I
jumped up in such haste, and spoiled the chance of learning
more. My darling seemed to have finished; but if I had only
waited, very likely she would have begun again, as women
generally do. Of geography I had little knowledge, except as
taught at a grammar-school, and then it went some three inches
down the “World as known to the ancients.” I doubted
whether the south of France could be “thousands of miles”
from Sunbury, though that might be a poetical expression, and
no lady is expected to be accurate. And what was meant by
the declaration, that I knew better than she did the reason of
her quitting me? That looked as if I had done something
wrong; and an inspired vision should have known that I had
never even glanced at any other woman. Thinking of all this,
I was puzzled, almost as much as comforted.</p>
<p>In the next thing that occurred I found a further element
of puzzle, but none at all of comfort. It was now the usual
thing for me, being in bachelor condition, to turn into my
Uncle Corny’s house, at the time he was having his early dinner.
Not that it mattered much to me; only that I was able thus
to save myself from bread and cheese, and secure a little
nourishment.</p>
<p>I was doing this to the best of my ability, without observing
it, when in came Tony Tonks, as if he was running away from the
bailiff. One of my firm convictions was that thin men never
panted; but that impression, like all others, now required
revising. Tony Tonks was in such a state, alike of mind and
body, that neither could at all work out the meaning of the
other.</p>
<p>We happened to have a little bit of boiled beef and young
carrots; and my uncle was just helping me to a scutcheon of
gristle at the corner. For he liked to keep a level cut, and he
found me fitter now than he was, for the horny places. But<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_345" id="Page_345">[345]</SPAN></span>
Tony was in such a state, that when his knife and fork were
laid, he said, “Not a bit for me, sir.”</p>
<p>My uncle looked at him as if he were troubled with his ears
again, as he had been last winter. “Certainly, a nice bit,”
he said; “and close to the bone accordingly. We buy it fresh,
and we pickle it. At this time of year, the butchers make it
leather with saltpetre.”</p>
<p>Tony saw that his face was stern; and to escape acrimony,
he took my plate with all upon it that should have been for
my inside. To this sort of thing I am too much accustomed
to remonstrate.</p>
<p>“Not a word, till you have finished,” my uncle spoke
decisively; “I have known a man who cut his throat, by talking
too much at dinner-time.”</p>
<p>Mr. Tonks looked not unlikely to commit this error; but
after yielding to my uncle’s orders he seemed better. Then he
crossed his knife and fork, which is a very defiant thing to do,
and said as if he shot a pea at us—“I am come to throw up my
appointment.”</p>
<p>My uncle did not speak at first. When people took him
suddenly, he would not be disturbed by any contagious gush
of suddenness. And he waited for Tony to go on, instead of
being pushed by him.</p>
<p>“What I mean is”—Tonks continued, seeing that he might
as well go slowly—“I have done the best I can; and there is
nothing more to be made of it. I can make out all about a
horse, because he is straightfor’ard. But about a man is a different
thing; and I shall go back to my business.”</p>
<p>“Have you been frightened?” asked my uncle, looking at
him steadily.</p>
<p>“Not a bit of it. What is there to frighten me, or any
one? In the eye of the law, we are all equal. The man who
killed me would swing as high as if he had killed Prince
Albert.”</p>
<p>“But that would not bring you back to life. You have
been frightened, Tony Tonks; and it is useless to deny it.”</p>
<p>“Well, my life is as much to me as the greatest man’s that
ever lived. ‘Frightened’ is not the proper word. Only I look
things in the face, and weigh the rusk against the risk; and
I find the last come heavier. And I am wanted now for the
Leger nags. I am worth ten pounds a week at least, so I wish
to say good-bye to you.”</p>
<p>“I call you a coward, and a sneak,” said my uncle, getting<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_346" id="Page_346">[346]</SPAN></span>
his wrath up; “and it serves us altogether right for dealing
with such a fellow. I could not bear it from the first; but I
listened to other people, as I am always much too apt to do.
You won’t have your spy-money, I can tell you, for any day
since Saturday.”</p>
<p>“Ah, but I’ve got it,” answered Mr. Tonks, who seemed
well accustomed to reproaches; “it was paid in advance, you
must remember. I have cashed it, and mean to stick to it.”</p>
<p>“I don’t quite see how that can be,” said my uncle, with
great sagacity; “you must be making some mistake. You can
never have got so in front of us.”</p>
<p>“Ah, but I have, old cock, I have. All expenses paid;
and here is my five-pound note, as safe as eggs.” He tapped
his pocket, in a manner quite unworthy of an experienced
tout.</p>
<p>“Very kind of you to show us. We will have it back.”
My uncle seized him by the waist, and planted him on the
table. “Leave him to me, Kit. He won’t hurt me, and I
won’t hurt him, if he is quiet.”</p>
<p>He pinned the spy’s arms with one of his, and took the note
from his waistcoat pocket, while the poor man struggled vainly.
Then he set him again on the floor, and said. “You should
learn to be more just, my friend.”</p>
<p>“Highway robbery!” shouted Tonks.</p>
<p>“High table, you mean,” said my uncle.</p>
<p>“I’ll fetch the police. I’ll give you in charge. I’ll take
out a warrant. I’ll—”</p>
<p>“You won’t do anything of the sort. Sit down, and
reason quietly. You have broken contract; and if you were
one of my workmen, I would pay you nothing. But as you are a
poor little jackanapes, and did your best for us, I believe,
until you got into this blue funk, you shall have half of this
money, Tonks, to pay your way back to your proper work.
But only on one condition—that you tell us what has scared
you so.”</p>
<p>“Well,” answered Tonks very sulkily; “I always do what
is fair and right. But you can’t expect a man to go with his
life in his hand, to please you. Fact of it is I got into grief
by following up that Migwell Bengoose, or whatever his name
is. I told you that I was bound to do it, before Downy went
to see him again, unless I could get any chance, you know, of
seeing what was in that packet. And I got no chance at all of
that, though I did my best in Bulwrag’s rooms, whenever I went<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_347" id="Page_347">[347]</SPAN></span>
to see him. But his hand, in spite of all the doctor’s work got
swollen as big as a horse’s head pretty nearly; and his temper
became that frightful, that I scarcely durst go nigh him, and of
course there was nothing to watch, when he could scarcely get
about at all. Naturally I did my best to make something out
of his grumbles; but he would not have it, and at last he says,
‘Bowles, what the devil are you always after me for? It ain’t
from friendly affection,’ he says, ‘and I can’t pick up anything
now, you see. If you want to spy into family affairs, I’ve got
one hand left,’ he says, ‘and that’s enough for you.’</p>
<p>“Well, that was pretty plain, you know. And worse than
that, in comes the doctor, and says he will not answer for his
life, unless he goes into some place where he can be properly
nursed and tended. So Downy makes his mind up in two
minutes, gives up his rooms in Dover Street, and goes back to
Bulwrag Park, as they call it, for his mother to coddle and
comfort him. And there they’ve got a hospital nurse, and a
wheel-chair, and I don’t know what all; and much too grand
of course for me to go near with a binocle. ‘You’d better
come and see my mother, Bowles, when you want any further
information,’ Downy said to me, with his frightful grin, like a
yellow mangle-wuzzle, ‘ah, she does like answering questions—light
and sweetness, that’s her nature!’</p>
<p>“So I was shut off, as you may suppose; and I pretty soon
found out what made him so suspicious. He discovered somehow
that I had been living, for the first week, you know, not
afterwards, at good mother Wilcox’s place near by, and they
look upon her as an enemy, no doubt, having been nurse to the
young lady they have stolen. If you try any more watching
work up there, you must not make that the head-quarters, for
they keep a look-out there, you may depend. But I don’t see
what more you have now to watch. The lady is out of England,
you may take that for certain; most likely she is snug in some
lunatic asylum, or nunnery perhaps, or monastery”—Mr. Tonks
was not well versed in such matters—“either in the South of
France, or somewhere on the Continent; and unless you can
lay hold of Downy Bulwrag, and put him on the rack (as they
do in Spain) until he squeaks out all the truth, there’s no chance
of your being much the wiser. I mean, of course, unless she
escapes, or comes to herself, or whatever it may be, and tells
you all about it with her own lips; and that is not very likely.
They know what they are about, a great deal better than you
do.”</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_348" id="Page_348">[348]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“Because they are scoundrels, and we are honest men,”
said my uncle, making the little room resound; “it may take
a long time, but we shall win, and grind them beneath our heels,
sir. You have seen as much robbery, Tony Tonks, as any
man yet created. Now don’t deny it, don’t falter with it;
but speak, as you will have to speak that day, when you go
where lies are useless. Have you ever known cheating
prosper?”</p>
<p>“Better than anything else in the world. You can’t get on
without it, Mr. Orchardson.”</p>
<p>“You know what I mean. Don’t play with words. Does
it prosper in the long run?”</p>
<p>“It would, if they only knew when to stop; but that is
just where the difference is. An honest man stops in good time,
you know.”</p>
<p>“An honest man never begins,” said my uncle; “but it is
no good talking to you, Tonks. You have got corrupted
altogether. Well, what did you do about Bengoose?”</p>
<p>“Ah that’s just the point, that is. Says I to myself—‘Now
the coast is clear, and I’ll have a turn at that fellow. Downy
is laid up with his mammy, and I’ll get to the bottom of that
affair.’ So I set off last night, with a pistol in my pocket, one
of those Colt’s revolver things; for I knew it was a bad place,
and they might not stick at trifles. And sure enough, they
didn’t, as you must acknowledge. I came up very quiet, and
knocked gently at the door and said ‘Cluck!’ as the fellow
gave the ticket. It was opened very civil, and I asked for
Migwell Bengoose, and the man said ‘All right, just wait a
minute.’ A little dark place it was under the stairs, and I did
not much like the look of it; for I could hear a lot of voices
further on, and they seemed to be drinking and card-playing.
However, I sat down where I was told, and began to think over
my story. My plan was to tell him that the Captain was ill,
and had sent me to say that the papers were all right, but he
would like to know how he got hold of them, and where he
could get the others that were mentioned in them, and to pay
him a sovereign, just to keep things going, till the Captain
should be about again. The fellow would remember seeing me
with him, and I had made up a very nice tale of it.</p>
<p>“But the smell of the place was something awful, worse
than all the bookmakers put together, and there is plenty to
spare when you get among them. Either that, or something
else, made me feel quite heavy, and I began to doze a little,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_349" id="Page_349">[349]</SPAN></span>
though I fought very hard against it. And all of a sudden,
before I could jump up, there was a leather strap round me, and
my arms were buckled in it, as tight as you had me on the
table, Squire; and a deal worse than that, for I was fastened to
the chair, with a dollop of some stinking stuff across my eyes
and mouth, so that I was blind and pretty well choked. Then
my legs were tied together as tight as any hayband, and in that
way I was left, I shall never know how long, to listen to a lot
of blackguards laughing. There were women cackling too
among the hooting of the men, and they cried ‘Cluck, cluck, my
noble cock!’ and the worse I tried to rave at them the better
they enjoyed it. Then they searched me, and took all my
money, and my pistol, and threw me, chair and all, upon the
floor, and whacked me on the arms and legs with a towel
knotted up.</p>
<p>“I thought my last moment was come; and it would have
been, if I had not shammed dead, and rolled over against the
wall, where I got a little air, by rubbing the sacking against it,
for I could not get my hands near my mouth. Then they began
to talk in some thieves’ lingo, which I could not make head or
tail of. But the upshot was that they released my face, and
gave me some horrible stuff to drink, and let me lie there the
Lord knows how long. I would rather die straight off than
have such another night, for I saw great holes in the floor, and
expected to be pitched down, and never come up again.</p>
<p>“At last a big fellow came and untied me, and pitched me
out of the cellar-flap. ‘Had enough of cluck, cluck, haven’t
you, old chap?’ he said as he banged the door behind me. And
I found it was daylight, and I was in the court where I hid
behind the truck from Downy. I was in such a state that I
could scarcely crawl; but a good-natured coster put me on his
barrow, and took me to Drury Lane, and there I found a cab.
I never saw Bengoose all the time; but no doubt he had
arranged it all, under orders from Downy Bulwrag. If you don’t
think I have had enough of this job, I do, Mr. Orchardson.”</p>
<p>“Show your legs,” said my uncle, with a smile in which
there was not too much compassion; “I don’t wish to be hard
upon a man in trouble; but you are given to romance a little,
by your own account, friend Tonks.”</p>
<p>“Never to my employers, sir. But look here!”</p>
<p>His poor little drumsticks had plainly been acting the part
of the drum quite recently, and were painted of divers colours,
while a broad stripe showed where the ligaments had been.</p>
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