<h2>21</h2>
<p>Cal didn't know, couldn't have known, that his efforts to signal
McGinnis not to land were unnecessary. Didn't know, couldn't
have known, that he himself was the specimen They had hoped
to catch. That having caught what They wanted They would
naturally close the door to the trap to prevent any possibility of
escape, as yet, or any interference with their experiment.</p>
<p>From the moment he walked away from the grassy slope where
he had signaled the outer ship, he moved and thought as someone
detached from ordinary existence. As he walked away from the
slope, ignoring the frantic signals from the ship out in space, he
felt he was also walking out of a shell of superficial cerebration
and into a deeper sense of reality. It was as if, in spite of E
training, for the first time in his life, he could commit himself
wholly, in all areas of his being, to the consideration of a problem.</p>
<p>His conviction was complete that the ship could give him nothing
he needed, that all Earth's mechanical science could give him
nothing he needed. That it could not provide the key to unlock
the door which led into this new area of reality. He must find,
must define, some new concept of man's relation to the universe.
He must again travel that road, that million-year-long road man
had traveled in trying to determine his position in reality.</p>
<p>He wandered down to the river, climbed to the top of a great<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_138" id="Page_138">[138]</SPAN></span>
boulder that overhung a pool, and sat down with his feet hanging
over the edge. He watched some young colonists wade through
the pool to drive fish into the shallows where they could pin them,
with their legs, catch them with their hands. In their need for
protein, the colonists were finding, as many Earth peoples had
found, raw fish were excellent in flavor and texture as food.</p>
<p>At the beginning of the road man had traveled first there was
awareness, awareness of self as something separate from environment.
There was awareness of self-strength, ability to do certain
things to and with that environment. There was awareness of self
always at the center of things, and therefore awareness of his
importance in the scheme of things. But there was awareness of
more.</p>
<p>There was awareness of things happening to his environment
which he, in all his strength and importance, could not do. Awareness
gives rise to reason, reason gives rise to rationalization. If
things happened in his environment which he himself could not
do, then there must be something stronger and more important
than he.</p>
<p>To be ascendant at the center of things, to remain ascendant,
meant that all things of lesser importance, outside the center,
must be made subservient to him, else that ascendancy was lost.
And if they would not assume positions of subservience, they
must be destroyed.</p>
<p>If there were unseen beings, stronger and more important than
he, who could do unexplained things to his environment; then it
was plain that he must assume positions of subservience to those
beings, lest he himself be destroyed.</p>
<p>So man created his gods in his own image, with his own
attributes magnified.</p>
<p>Was this a wrong turning of the road? No-o.... Awareness
carries with it its commands and penalties. A problem must have
an answer. Conscious and willful beings beyond his own strength
and importance became the only answer open to him at that
stage of his mental evolution. And served the important need of<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_139" id="Page_139">[139]</SPAN></span>
bringing order to chaos. Let all things he could not do, and therefore
could not understand, be attributed to those higher beings.
Without such an answer, awareness without resolution would
have driven him into madness. Without such an answer, man
could not have survived to remain aware.</p>
<p>But answers also carry in themselves their commands and their
penalties. The penalty being that when one thinks he has the
answer he stops looking for it. The command being that he must
conduct himself in accord with the answer.</p>
<p>The long, long road that led him nowhere. That today still leads
untold millions nowhere. For the penalty of a wrong answer is
failure to solve the problem. That non-science had failed to provide
any answer beyond the primitive one was self-evident.</p>
<p>To some, then, it became evident that the question must be
reopened. Through the long written history of man, here and
there, by accident often, sometimes by cerebration, the use of
the brain with which he was endowed, man found on occasion
he could do things to his environment that heretofore had been
the province of the gods—and in the doing had not become a
god! To the courageous, the brave, the daring, the foolhardy
questions then that demanded new answers.</p>
<p>Perhaps the most daring and courageous question of all time
was asked by Copernicus: What if man is not at the center of
the universe, the reason for its creation?</p>
<p>He personally escaped the penalties for asking it. The question
was too new, too revolutionary for the men of his day to grasp,
for the non-science leaders, secure in their ascendancy at the
center of things, to see in it the threat to their ascendancy. It was
on his followers, those who saw sense in the question, that the
wrath of non-science descended. Non-science used the only
method it had ever devised to achieve the only result it had
ever been able to countenance—torture and force to make dissidents
kneel in subservience.</p>
<p>But the question had been asked! And once asked, it could
not be erased!<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_140" id="Page_140">[140]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>Still, it was almost an accidental question. For the method of
science, as something understood and communicable, as a calculated
point of view, had not yet been discovered. The key that
would unlock its door had not yet been found.</p>
<p>Cal lay back on the rock to bathe in the warm rays of Ceti,
almost to doze, yet with thought running clear and unimpeded.
The splashing and the laughter of the colonists below the rock
were no more than accompanying music.</p>
<p>The key which opened the door to physical science was not
discovered until 1646 by a bunch of loafers, ne'er-do-wells,
beatniks, who hung around the coffee shops of London. Later,
because non-science always persecutes those who dare ask questions
and thereby demonstrate some subversion to subservience,
many had to flee to Oxford which, at that time, was sanctuary
for those who differed from popular thought.</p>
<p>As he lay there drinking in the sun, the peacefulness, he sent
his vision back through the card index of his mind to find the
reference, the key that opened the door to physical science, the
pregnant point of view that would give birth to a whole new
concept of man's relationship to the universe. He found the
passages in Thomas Sprat's <i>History of the Royal Society of
London (1667)</i>.</p>
<p>"... to make faithful records of all the works of nature, or art
which can come within their reach ... They have stud'd to make
it, not only an enterprise of one season, or of some lucky opportunity;
but a business of time; a steddy, a lasting, a popular, an
uninterrupted work."</p>
<p>He stirred restlessly and changed his position to lay his head
on one arm. Not quite, not yet the key. Ah, here it was, perhaps
the most significant sentence ever written by man.</p>
<p>"They have attempted to free it from the artifice, and humors,
and passions of sects; to render it an instrument whereby mankind
may obtain a dominion over <i>Things</i>, and not only over one
another's judgements."</p>
<p>That was it. That was the essence of its difference from non-science,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_141" id="Page_141">[141]</SPAN></span>
for the only method ever discovered until then was the
non-science method of making its judgments prevail over all
others.</p>
<p>Once this answer was discovered, it too could not be erased
in spite of all the efforts of non-science. With that answer, man
had come this far.</p>
<p>And now?</p>
<p>Could it be that science, as with non-science, was only a partial
answer? Only another stage? Only a section of the road man
must travel? Something as limited in its way as non-science was
limited? Something too narrow to contain the whole of reality?
Something also to be left behind? A milestone passed, instead
of the goal?</p>
<p>What comes after science? What new door must be opened
into a still newer point of view? What pregnant new concept of
his relationship to reality must man now discover before he could
continue his journey down the long road toward total comprehension?</p>
<p>He could ask the question, but it was not the right question;
for it contained no hint of an answer. He felt an irritation in himself,
almost as if some teacher in the past had shaken his head
in disapproval.</p>
<p>For a moment he welcomed the distracting shout from one of
the colonists, and sat up. In the shallows of the river one of the
men had caught a foot long fish and was holding it up in his hands.
Delightedly, the others acknowledged his victory, and renewed
their efforts. He lay back down again, and stretched his cramped
muscles.</p>
<p>Too fast! He had come down the long, long road too fast. He
had missed something, something early. Something man had
known in pre-science, and had forgotten in science.</p>
<p>These colonists. Would they grow in awareness? Now they
seemed only to be a part of their environment, without curiosity,
their fears of even the day before forgotten. Wiped away, as
though it had never been, was their memory of a previous existence<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_142" id="Page_142">[142]</SPAN></span>
to this. They were wholly at one with their environment—unaware.</p>
<p>Were they to begin the long road? To telescope its distance?
Would they be able to continue living without peopling the trees,
the streams, the clouds, the winds, with spirits benign and
vengeful—created in their own image? Could they continue to live
alone in the universe?</p>
<p>Yes, that was the thing he had missed. Loneliness.</p>
<p>In separating himself from the animals, man had cut off his
kinship with them. And so he found companionship with the gods.
And cutting himself off from the gods ...</p>
<p>Loneliness.</p>
<p>Was man the only thing aware throughout the universe? What
purpose then his exploration of it? What might he find that he
had not already found?</p>
<p>Already, like a minor thread almost unheard in the symphony
of exploding exploration, the questions of the artists were already
finding themselves woven into music, painting, literature.</p>
<p>"Are we alone? In all this glittering, sterile universe, are there
none other than we who are aware?"</p>
<p>The theme would expand as the purposelessness of colonizing
still more and more worlds became wider known. The minor
would become major, the recessive dominant. The endless aim
of non-science to make all others subservient had lost its purpose
for those who could still think. The dominion over things instead
of people, the goal of science—was that also to lose its purpose
for those who could still think? Until man, defeated by purposelessness,
sank back in apathy, lost the very willingness to live—and
so died?</p>
<p>What if some other awareness did inhabit the universe, sentient—and
lonely? What if, farther along in its explorations, it was
feeling that apathy? Facing that dissolution?</p>
<p>When one is lonely, the sensible thing is to seek companionship!
To discover in companionship purpose not apparent to the
alone—or at least hope to discover it.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_143" id="Page_143">[143]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>For companionship there must be communication. And yet the
exasperation, the futility of trying to communicate with a friend
who always interpreted everything one said and did as meaning
something entirely different from the intent.</p>
<p>Some other friend was the normal answer. But what if there
were no other? Wouldn't one extra effort, a final attempt to break
through that closed mind be made?</p>
<p>All right.</p>
<p>Communication, then. That was wanted. He would try. But if
Their frameworks were so different from his that They misinterpreted
all his efforts?</p>
<p>He was interrupted by the soft pad of footsteps, bare feet on
grass that sprang up to leave no sign it had been trod upon. A
young colonist and his wife, hand in hand, laughing gaily, were
coming toward him. The man was carrying a fresh-caught fish.
They came to a stop at the base of his rock and looked up at
him, the Ceti light glinting on their smiling faces.</p>
<p>"We gave Louie a fish because he said it was our duty," the
young man said. "I don't remember why it is our duty. Perhaps
it is our duty to give you one too."</p>
<p>At least they were being impartial.</p>
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