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<h2> CHAPTER XXXI </h2>
<p>When she was alone Joan sat and gazed not at her wall but at the pictures
that came back to her out of a part of her life which seemed to have been
lived centuries ago. They were the pictures that came back continually
without being called, the clearness of which always startled her afresh.
Sometimes she thought they sprang up to add to her torment, but sometimes
it seemed as if they came to save her from herself—her mad, wicked
self. After all, there were moments when to know that she had been the
girl whose eighteen-year-old heart had leaped so when she turned and met
Jem's eyes, as he stood gazing at her under the beech-tree, was something
to cling to. She had been that girl and Jem had been—Jem. And she
had been the girl who had joined him in that young, ardent vow that they
would say the same prayers at the same hour each night together. Ah! how
young it had been—how YOUNG! Her throat strained itself because sobs
rose in it, and her eyes were hot with the swell of tears.</p>
<p>She could hear voices and laughter and the click of balls from the
billiard-room. Her mother and Palliser laughed the most, but she knew the
sound of her mother's voice would cease soon, because she would come back
to her. She knew she would not leave her long, and she knew the kind of
scene they would pass through together when she returned. The old things
would be said, the old arguments used, but a new one would be added. It
was a pleasant thing to wait here, knowing that it was coming, and that
for all her fierce pride and fierce spirit she had no defense. It was at
once horrible and ridiculous that she must sit and listen—and stare
at the growing wall. It was as she caught her breath against the choking
swell of tears that she heard Lady Mallowe returning. She came in with an
actual sweep across the room. Her society air had fled, and she was
unadornedly furious when she stopped before Joan's chair. For a few
seconds she actually glared; then she broke forth in a suppressed
undertone:</p>
<p>“Come into the billiard-room. I command it!”</p>
<p>Joan lifted her eyes from her book. Her voice was as low as her mother's,
but steadier.</p>
<p>“No,” she answered.</p>
<p>“Is this conduct to continue? Is it?” Lady Mallowe panted.</p>
<p>“Yes,” said Joan, and laid her book on the table near her. There was
nothing else to say. Words made things worse.</p>
<p>Lady Mallowe had lost her head, but she still spoke in the suppressed
voice.</p>
<p>“You SHALL behave yourself!” she cried, under her breath, and actually
made a passionate half-start toward her. “You violent-natured virago! The
very look on your face is enough to drive one mad!”</p>
<p>“I know I am violent-natured,” said Joan. “But don't you think it wise to
remember that you cannot make the kind of scene here that you can in your
own house? We are a bad-tempered pair, and we behave rather like fishwives
when we are in a rage. But when we are guests in other people's houses—”</p>
<p>Lady Mallowe's temper was as elemental as any Billingsgate could provide.</p>
<p>“You think you can take advantage of that!” she said. “Don't trust
yourself too far. Do you imagine that just when all might go well for me I
will allow you to spoil everything?”</p>
<p>“How can I spoil everything?”</p>
<p>“By behaving as you have been behaving since we came here—refusing
to make a home for yourself; by hanging round my neck so that it will
appear that any one who takes me must take you also.”</p>
<p>“There are servants outside,” Joan warned her.</p>
<p>“You shall not stop me!” cried Lady Mallowe.</p>
<p>“You cannot stop yourself,” said Joan. “That is the worst of it. It is bad
enough when we stand and hiss at each other in a stage whisper; but when
you lose control over yourself and raise your voice—”</p>
<p>“I came in here to tell you that this is your last chance. I shall never
give you another. Do you know how old you are?”</p>
<p>“I shall soon be twenty-seven,” Joan answered. “I wish I were a hundred.
Then it would all be over.”</p>
<p>“But it will not be over for years and years and years,” her mother flung
back at her. “Have you forgotten that the very rags you wear are not paid
for?”</p>
<p>“No, I have not forgotten.” The scene was working itself up on the old
lines, as Joan had known it would. Her mother never failed to say the same
things, every time such a scene took place.</p>
<p>“You will get no more such rags—paid or unpaid for. What do you
expect to do? You don't know how to work, and if you did no decent woman
would employ you. You are too good-looking and too bad-tempered.”</p>
<p>Joan knew she was perfectly right. Knowing it, she remained silent, and
her silence added to her mother's helpless rage. She moved a step nearer
to her and flung the javelin which she always knew would strike deep.</p>
<p>“You have made yourself a laughing-stock for all London for years. You are
mad about a man who disgraced and ruined himself.”</p>
<p>She saw the javelin quiver as it struck; but Joan's voice as it answered
her had a quality of low and deadly steadiness.</p>
<p>“You have said that a thousand times, and you will say it another thousand—though
you know the story was a lie and was proved to be one.”</p>
<p>Lady Mallowe knew her way thoroughly.</p>
<p>“Who remembers the denials? What the world remembers is that Jem Temple
Barholm was stamped as a cheat and a trickster. No one has time to
remember the other thing. He is dead—dead! When a man's dead it's
too late.”</p>
<p>She was desperate enough to drive her javelin home deeper than she had
ever chanced to drive it before. The truth—the awful truth she
uttered shook Joan from head to foot. She sprang up and stood before her
in heart-wrung fury.</p>
<p>“Oh! You are a hideously cruel woman!” she cried. “They say even tigers
care for their young! But you—you can say that to <i>me</i>. 'When a
man's dead, it's too late.'”</p>
<p>“It <i>is</i> too late—it IS too late!” Lady Mallowe persisted. Why
had not she struck this note before? It was breaking her will: “I would
say anything to bring you to your senses.”</p>
<p>Joan began to move restlessly to and fro.</p>
<p>“Oh, what a fool I am!” she exclaimed. “As if you could understand—as
if you could care!”</p>
<p>Struggle as she might to be defiant, she was breaking, Lady Mallowe
repeated to herself. She followed her as a hunter might have followed a
young leopardess with a wound in its flank.</p>
<p>“I came here because it <i>is</i> your last chance. Palliser knew what he
was saying when he made a joke of it just now. He knew it wasn't a joke.
You might have been the Duchess of Merthshire; you might have been Lady
St. Maur, with a husband with millions. And here you are. You know what's
before you—when I am out of the trap.”</p>
<p>Joan laughed. It was a wild little laugh, and she felt there was no sense
in it.</p>
<p>“I might apply for a place in Miss Alicia's Home for Decayed Gentlewomen,”
she said.</p>
<p>Lady Mallowe nodded her head fiercely.</p>
<p>“Apply, then. There will be no place for you in the home I am going to
live in,” she retorted.</p>
<p>Joan ceased moving about. She was about to hear the one argument that was
new.</p>
<p>“You may as well tell me,” she said, wearily.</p>
<p>“I have had a letter from Sir Moses Monaldini. He is to be at Broome
Haughton. He is going there purposely to meet me. What he writes can mean
only one thing. He means to ask me to marry him. I'm your mother, and I'm
nearly twenty years older than you; but you see that I'm out of the trap
first.”</p>
<p>“I knew you would be,” answered Joan.</p>
<p>“He detests you,” Lady Mallowe went on. “He will not hear of your living
with us—or even near us. He says you are old enough to take care of
yourself. Take my advice. I am doing you a good turn in giving it. This
New York newsboy is mad over you. If he hadn't been we should have been
bundled out of the house before this. He never has spoken to a lady before
in his life, and he feels as if you were a goddess. Go into the
billiard-room this instant, and do all a woman can. Go!” And she actually
stamped her foot on the carpet.</p>
<p>Joan's thunder-colored eyes seemed to grow larger as she stared at her.
Her breast lifted itself, and her face slowly turned pale. Perhaps—she
thought it wildly—people sometimes did die of feelings like this.</p>
<p>“He would crawl at your feet,” her mother went on, pursuing what she felt
sure was her advantage. She was so sure of it that she added words only a
fool or a woman half hysteric with rage would have added. “You might live
in the very house you would have lived in with Jem Temple Barholm, on the
income he could have given you.”</p>
<p>She saw the crassness of her blunder the next moment. If she had had an
advantage, she had lost it. Wickedly, without a touch of mirth, Joan
laughed in her face.</p>
<p>“Jem's house and Jem's money—and the New York newsboy in his shoes,”
she flung at her. “T. Tembarom to live with until one lay down on one's
deathbed. T. Tembarom!”</p>
<p>Suddenly, something was giving way in her, Lady Mallowe thought again.
Joan slipped into a chair and dropped her head and hidden face on the
table.</p>
<p>“Oh! Mother! Mother!” she ended. “Oh! Jem! Jem!”</p>
<p>Was she sobbing or trying to choke sobbing back? There was no time to be
lost. Her mother had never known a scene to end in this way before.</p>
<p>“Crying!” there was absolute spite in her voice. “That shows you know what
you are in for, at all events. But I've said my last word. What does it
matter to me, after all? You're in the trap. I'm not. Get out as best you
can. I've done with you.”</p>
<p>She turned her back and went out of the room—as she had come into it—with
a sweep Joan would have smiled at as rather vulgar if she had seen it. As
a child in the nursery, she had often seen that her ladyship was vulgar.</p>
<p>But she did not see the sweep because her face was hidden. Something in
her had broken this time, as her mother had felt. That bitter, sordid
truth, driven home as it had been, had done it. Who had time to remember
denials, or lies proved to be lies? Nobody in the world. Who had time to
give to the defense of a dead man? There was not time enough to give to
living ones. It was true—true! When a man is dead, it is too late.
The wall had built itself until it reached her sky; but it was not the
wall she bent her head and sobbed over. It was that suddenly she had seen
again Jem's face as he had stood with slow-growing pallor, and looked
round at the ring of eyes which stared at him; Jem's face as he strode by
her without a glance and went out of the room. She forgot everything else
on earth. She forgot where she was. She was eighteen again, and she sobbed
in her arms as eighteen sobs when its heart is torn from it.</p>
<p>“Oh Jem! Jem!” she cried. “If you were only in the same world with me! If
you were just in the same world!”</p>
<p>She had forgotten all else, indeed. She forgot too long. She did not know
how long. It seemed that no more than a few minutes had passed before she
was without warning struck with the shock of feeling that some one was in
the room with her, standing near her, looking at her. She had been mad not
to remember that exactly this thing would be sure to happen, by some
abominable chance. Her movement as she rose was almost violent, she could
not hold herself still, and her face was horribly wet with shameless,
unconcealable tears. Shameless she felt them—indecent—a sort
of nudity of the soul. If it had been a servant who had intruded, or if it
had been Palliser it would have been intolerable enough. But it was T.
Tembarom who confronted her with his common face, moved mysteriously by
some feeling she resented even more than she resented his presence. He was
too grossly ignorant to know that a man of breeding, having entered by
chance, would have turned and gone away, professing not to have seen. He
seemed to think—the dolt!—that he must make some apology.</p>
<p>“Say! Lady Joan!” he began. “I beg your pardon. I didn't want to butt in.”</p>
<p>“Then go away,” she commanded. “Instantly—instantly!”</p>
<p>She knew he must see that she spoke almost through her teeth in her effort
to control her sobbing breath. But he made no move toward leaving her. He
even drew nearer, looking at her in a sort of meditative, obstinate way.</p>
<p>“N-no,” he replied, deliberately. “I guess—I won't.”</p>
<p>“You won't?” Lady Joan repeated after him. “Then I will.”</p>
<p>He made a stride forward and laid his hand on her arm.</p>
<p>“No. Not on your life. You won't, either—if I can help it. And
you're going to LET me help it.”</p>
<p>Almost any one but herself—any one, at least, who did not resent his
very existence—would have felt the drop in his voice which suddenly
struck the note of boyish, friendly appeal in the last sentence. “You're
going to LET me,” he repeated.</p>
<p>She stood looking down at the daring, unconscious hand on her arm.</p>
<p>“I suppose,” she said, with cutting slowness, “that you do not even <i>know</i>
that you are insolent. Take your hand away,” in arrogant command.</p>
<p>He removed it with an unabashed half-smile.</p>
<p>“I beg your pardon,” he said. “I didn't even know I'd put it there. It was
a break—but I wanted to keep you.”</p>
<p>That he not only wanted to keep her, but intended to do so was apparent.
His air was neither rough nor brutal, but he had ingeniously placed
himself in the outlet between the big table and the way to the door. He
put his hands in his pockets in his vulgar, unconscious way, and watched
her.</p>
<p>“Say, Lady Joan!” he broke forth, in the frank outburst of a man who wants
to get something over. “I should be a fool if I didn't see that you're up
against it—hard! What's the matter?” His voice dropped again.</p>
<p>There was something in the drop this time which—perhaps because of
her recent emotion—sounded to her almost as if he were asking the
question with the protecting sympathy of the tone one would use in
speaking to a child. How dare he! But it came home to her that Jem had
once said “What's the matter?” to her in the same way.</p>
<p>“Do you think it likely that I should confide in you?” she said, and
inwardly quaked at the memory as she said it.</p>
<p>“No,” he answered, considering the matter gravely. “It's not likely—the
way things look to you now. But if you knew me better perhaps it would be
likely.”</p>
<p>“I once explained to you that I do not intend to know you better,” she
gave answer.</p>
<p>He nodded acquiescently.</p>
<p>“Yes. I got on to that. And it's because it's up to me that I came out
here to tell you something I want you to know before you go away. I'm
going to confide in you.”</p>
<p>“Cannot even you see that I am not in the mood to accept confidences?” she
exclaimed.</p>
<p>“Yes, I can. But you're going to accept this one,” steadily. “No,” as she
made a swift movement, “I'm not going to clear the way till I've done.”</p>
<p>“I insist!” she cried. “If you were—”</p>
<p>He put out his hand, but not to touch her.</p>
<p>“I know what you're going to say. If I were a gentleman—Well, I'm
not laying claim to that—but I'm a sort of a man, anyhow, though you
mayn't think it. And you're going to listen.”</p>
<p>She began to stare at him. It was not the ridiculous boyish drop in his
voice which arrested her attention. It was a fantastic, incongruous,
wholly different thing. He had suddenly dropped his slouch and stood
upright. Did he realize that he had slung his words at her as if they were
an order given with the ring of authority?</p>
<p>“I've not bucked against anything you've said or done since you've been
here,” he went on, speaking fast and grimly. “I didn't mean to. I had my
reasons. There were things that I'd have given a good deal to say to you
and ask you about, but you wouldn't let me. You wouldn't give me a chance
to square things for you—if they could be squared. You threw me down
every time I tried!”</p>
<p>He was too wildly incomprehensible with his changes from humanness to
folly. Remembering what he had attempted to say on the day he had followed
her in the avenue, she was inflamed again.</p>
<p>“What in the name of New York slang does that mean?” she demanded.</p>
<p>“Never mind New York,” he answered, cool as well as grim. “A fellow that's
learned slang in the streets has learned something else as well. He's
learned to keep his eyes open. He's on to a way of seeing things. And what
I've seen is that you're so doggone miserable that—that you're
almost down and out.”</p>
<p>This time she spoke to him in the voice with the quality of deadliness in
it which she had used to her mother.</p>
<p>“Do you think that because you are in your own house you can be as
intrusively insulting as you choose?” she said.</p>
<p>“No, I don't,” he answered. “What I think is quite different. I think that
if a man has a house of his own, and there's any one in big trouble under
the roof of it—a woman most of all—he's a cheap skate if he
don't get busy and try to help—just plain, straight help.”</p>
<p>He saw in her eyes all her concentrated disdain of him, but he went on,
still obstinate and cool and grim.</p>
<p>“I guess 'help' is too big a word just yet. That may come later, and it
mayn't. What I'm going to try at now is making it easier for you—just
easier.”</p>
<p>Her contemptuous gesture registered no impression on him as he paused a
moment and looked fixedly at her.</p>
<p>“You just hate me, don't you?” It was a mere statement which couldn't have
been more impersonal to himself if he had been made of wood. “That's all
right. I seem like a low-down intruder to you. Well, that's all right,
too. But what ain't all right is what your mother has set you on to
thinking about me. You'd never have thought it yourself. You'd have known
better.”</p>
<p>“What,” fiercely, “is that?”</p>
<p>“That I'm mutt enough to have a mash on you.”</p>
<p>The common slangy crassness of it was a kind of shock. She caught her
breath and merely stared at him. But he was not staring at her; he was
simply looking straight into her face, and it amazingly flashed upon her
that the extraordinary words were so entirely unembarrassed and direct
that they were actually not offensive.</p>
<p>He was merely telling her something in his own way, not caring the least
about his own effect, but absolutely determined that she should hear and
understand it.</p>
<p>Her caught breath ended in something which was like a half-laugh. His
queer, sharp, incomprehensible face, his queer, unmoved voice were too
extraordinarily unlike anything she had ever seen or heard before.</p>
<p>“I don't want to be brash—and what I want to say may seem kind of
that way to you. But it ain't. Anyhow, I guess it'll relieve your mind.
Lady Joan, you're a looker—you're a beaut from Beautville. If I were
your kind, and things were different, I'd be crazy about you—crazy!
But I'm not your kind—and things are different.” He drew a step
nearer still to her in his intentness. “They're this different. Why, Lady
Joan! I'm dead stuck on another girl!”</p>
<p>She caught her breath again, leaning forward.</p>
<p>“Another—!”</p>
<p>“She says she's not a lady; she threw me down just because all this darned
money came to me,” he hastened on, and suddenly he was imperturbable no
longer, but flushed and boyish, and more of New York than ever. “She's a
little bit of a quiet thing and she drops her h's, but gee—! You're
a looker—you're a queen and she's not. But Little Ann Hutchinson—Why,
Lady Joan, as far as this boy's concerned”—and he oddly touched
himself on the breast—“she makes you look like thirty cents.”</p>
<p>Joan quickly sat down on the chair she had just left. She rested an elbow
on the table and shaded her face with her hand. She was not laughing; she
scarcely knew what she was doing or feeling.</p>
<p>“You are in love with Ann Hutchinson,” she said, in a low voice.</p>
<p>“Am I?” he answered hotly. “Well, I should smile!” He disdained to say
more.</p>
<p>Then she began to know what she felt. There came back to her in flashes
scenes from the past weeks in which she had done her worst by him; in
which she had swept him aside, loathed him, set her feet on him, used the
devices of an ingenious demon to discomfit and show him at his poorest and
least ready. And he had not been giving a thought to the thing for which
she had striven to punish him. And he plainly did not even hate her. His
mind was clear, as water is clear. He had come back to her this evening to
do her a good turn—a good turn. Knowing what she was capable of in
the way of arrogance and villainous temper, he had determined to do her—in
spite of herself—a good turn.</p>
<p>“I don't understand you,” she faltered.</p>
<p>“I know you don't. But it's only because I'm so dead easy to understand.
There's nothing to find out. I'm just friendly—friendly—that's
all.”</p>
<p>“You would have been friends with me!” she exclaimed. “You would have told
me, and I wouldn't let you! Oh!” with an impulsive flinging out of her
hand to him, “you good—good fellow!”</p>
<p>“Good be darned!” he answered, taking the hand at once.</p>
<p>“You are good to tell me! I have behaved like a devil to you. But oh! if
you only knew!”</p>
<p>His face became mature again; but he took a most informal seat on the edge
of the table near her.</p>
<p>“I do know—part of it. That's why I've been trying to be friends
with you all the time.” He said his next words deliberately. “If I was the
woman Jem Temple Barholm had loved wouldn't it have driven me mad to see
another man in his place—and remember what was done to him. I never
even saw him, but, good God! “—she saw his hand clench itself—“when
I think of it I want to kill somebody! I want to kill half a dozen. Why
didn't they know it couldn't be true of a fellow like that!”</p>
<p>She sat up stiffly and watched him.</p>
<p>“Do—you—feel like that—about him?”</p>
<p>“Do I!” red-hotly. “There were men there that knew him! There were women
there that knew him! Why wasn't there just one to stand by him? A man
that's been square all his life doesn't turn into a card-sharp in a night.
Damn fools! I beg your pardon,” hastily. And then, as hastily again: “No,
I mean it. Damn fools!”</p>
<p>“Oh!” she gasped, just once.</p>
<p>Her passionate eyes were suddenly blinded with tears. She caught at his
clenched hand and dragged it to her, letting her face drop on it and
crying like a child.</p>
<p>The way he took her utter breaking down was just like him and like no one
else. He put the other hand on her shoulder and spoke to her exactly as he
had spoken to Miss Alicia on that first afternoon.</p>
<p>“Don't you mind me, Lady Joan,” he said. “Don't you mind me a bit. I'll
turn my back. I'll go into the billiard-room and keep them playing until
you get away up-stairs. Now we understand each other, it'll be better for
both of us.”</p>
<p>“No, don't go! Don't!” she begged. “It is so wonderful to find some one
who sees the cruelty of it.” She spoke fast and passionately. “No one
would listen to any defense of him. My mother simply raved when I said
what you are saying.”</p>
<p>“Do you want “—he put it to her with a curious comprehending of her
emotion—“to talk about him? Would it do you good?”</p>
<p>“Yes! Yes! I have never talked to any one. There has been no one to
listen.”</p>
<p>“Talk all you want,” he answered, with immense gentleness. “I'm here.”</p>
<p>“I can't understand it even now, but he would not see me!” she broke out.
“I was half mad. I wrote, and he would not answer. I went to his chambers
when I heard he was going to leave England. I went to beg him to take me
with him, married or unmarried. I would have gone on my knees to him. He
was gone! Oh, why? Why?”</p>
<p>“You didn't think he'd gone because he didn't love you?” he put it to her
quite literally and unsentimentally. “You knew better than that?”</p>
<p>“How could I be sure of anything! When he left the room that awful night
he would not look at me! He would not look at me!”</p>
<p>“Since I've been here I've been reading a lot of novels, and I've found
out a lot of things about fellows that are not the common, practical kind.
Now, he wasn't. He'd lived pretty much like a fellow in a novel, I guess.
What's struck me about that sort is that they think they have to make
noble sacrifices, and they'll just walk all over a woman because they
won't do anything to hurt her. There's not a bit of sense in it, but that
was what he was doing. He believed he was doing the square thing by you—and
you may bet your life it hurt him like hell. I beg your pardon—but
that's the word—just plain hell.”</p>
<p>“I was only a girl. He was like iron. He went away alone. He was killed,
and when he was dead the truth was told.”</p>
<p>“That's what I've remembered “—quite slowly—“every time I've
looked at you. By gee! I'd have stood anything from a woman that had
suffered as much as that.”</p>
<p>It made her cry—his genuineness—and she did not care in the
least that the tears streamed down her cheeks. How he had stood things!
How he had borne, in that odd, unimpressive way, insolence and arrogance
for which she ought to have been beaten and blackballed by decent society!
She could scarcely bear it.</p>
<p>“Oh! to think it should have been you,” she wept, “just you who
understood!”</p>
<p>“Well,” he answered speculatively, “I mightn't have understood as well if
it hadn't been for Ann. By jings! I used to lie awake at night sometimes
thinking `supposing it bad been Ann and me!' I'd sort of work it out as it
might have happened in New York—at the office of the Sunday Earth.
Supposing some fellow that'd had a grouch against me had managed it so
that Galton thought I'd been getting away with money that didn't belong to
me—fixing up my expense account, or worse. And Galton wouldn't
listen to what I said, and fired me; and I couldn't get a job anywhere
else because I was down and out for good. And nobody would listen. And I
was killed without clearing myself. And Little Ann was left to stand it—Little
Ann! Old Hutchinson wouldn't listen, I know that. And it would be all shut
up burning in her big little heart—burning. And T. T. dead, and not
a word to say for himself. Jehoshaphat!”—taking out his handkerchief
and touching his forehead—“it used to make the cold sweat start out
on me. It's doing it now. Ann and me might have been Jem and you. That's
why I understood.”</p>
<p>He put out his hand and caught hers and frankly squeezed it—squeezed
it hard; and the unconventional clutch was a wonderful thing to her.</p>
<p>“It's all right now, ain't it?” he said. “We've got it straightened out.
You'll not be afraid to come back here if your mother wants you to.” He
stopped for a moment and then went on with something of hesitation: “We
don't want to talk about your mother. We can't. But I understand her, too.
Folks are different from each other in their ways. She's different from
you. I'll—I'll straighten it out with her if you like.”</p>
<p>“Nothing will need straightening out after I tell her that you are going
to marry Little Ann Hutchinson,” said Joan, with a half-smile. “And that
you were engaged to her before you saw me.”</p>
<p>“Well, that does sort of finish things up, doesn't it?” said T. Tembarom.</p>
<p>He looked at her so speculatively for a moment after this that she
wondered whether he had something more to say. He had.</p>
<p>“There's something I want to ask you,” he ventured.</p>
<p>“Ask anything.”</p>
<p>“Do you know any one—just any one—who has a photo—just
any old photo—of Jem Temple Barholm?”</p>
<p>She was rather puzzled.</p>
<p>“Yes. I know a woman who has worn one for nearly eight years. Do you want
to see it?”</p>
<p>“I'd give a good deal to,” was his answer.</p>
<p>She took a flat locket from her dress and handed it to him.</p>
<p>“Women don't wear lockets in these days.” He could barely hear her voice
because it was so low. “But I've never taken it off. I want him near my
heart. It's Jem!”</p>
<p>He held it on the palm of his hand and stood under the light, studying it
as if he wanted to be sure he wouldn't forget it.</p>
<p>“It's—sorter like that picture of Miles Hugo, ain't it?” he
suggested.</p>
<p>“Yes. People always said so. That was why you found me in the
picture-gallery the first time we met.”</p>
<p>“I knew that was the reason—and I knew I'd made a break when I
butted in,” he answered. Then, still looking at the photograph, “You'd
know this face again most anywhere you saw it, I guess.”</p>
<p>“There are no faces like it anywhere,” said Joan.</p>
<p>“I guess that's so,” he replied. “And it's one that wouldn't change much
either. Thank you, Lady Joan.”</p>
<p>He handed back the picture, and she put out her hand again.</p>
<p>“I think I'll go to my room now,” she said. “You've done a strange thing
to me. You've taken nearly all the hatred and bitterness out of my heart.
I shall want to come back here whether my mother comes or not—I
shall want to.”</p>
<p>“The sooner the quicker,” he said. “And so long as I'm here I'll be ready
and waiting.”</p>
<p>“Don't go away,” she said softly. “I shall need you.”</p>
<p>“Isn't that great?” he cried, flushing delightedly. “Isn't it just great
that we've got things straightened so that you can say that. Gee! This is
a queer old world! There's such a lot to do in it, and so few hours in the
day. Seems like there ain't time to stop long enough to hate anybody and
keep a grouch on. A fellow's got to keep hustling not to miss the things
worth while.”</p>
<p>The liking in her eyes was actually wistful.</p>
<p>“That's your way of thinking, isn't it?” she said. “Teach it to me if you
can. I wish you could. Good-night.” She hesitated a second. “God bless
you!” she added, quite suddenly—almost fantastic as the words
sounded to her. That she, Joan Fayre, should be calling down devout
benisons on the head of T. Tembarom—T. Tembarom!</p>
<p>Her mother was in her room when she reached it. She had come up early to
look over her possessions—and Joan's—before she began her
packing. The bed, the chairs, and tables were spread with evening,
morning, and walking-dresses, and the millinery collected from their
combined wardrobes. She was examining anxiously a lace appliqued and
embroidered white coat, and turned a slightly flushed face toward the
opening door.</p>
<p>“I am going over your things as well as my own,” she said. “I shall take
what I can use. You will require nothing in London. You will require
nothing anywhere in future. What is the matter?” she said sharply, as she
saw her daughter's face.</p>
<p>Joan came forward feeling it a strange thing that she was not in the mood
to fight—to lash out and be glad to do it.</p>
<p>“Captain Palliser told me as I came up that Mr. Temple Barholm had been
talking to you,” her mother went on. “He heard you having some sort of
scene as he passed the door. As you have made your decision, of course I
know I needn't hope that anything has happened.”</p>
<p>“What has happened has nothing to do with my decision. He wasn't waiting
for that,” Joan answered her. “We were both entirely mistaken, Mother.”</p>
<p>“What are you talking about?” cried Lady Mallowe, but she temporarily laid
the white coat on a chair. “What do you mean by mistaken?”</p>
<p>“He doesn't want me—he never did,” Joan answered again. A shadow of
a smile hovered over her face, and there was no derision in it, only a
warming recollection of his earnestness when he had said the words she
quoted: “He is what they call in New York `dead stuck on another girl.”'</p>
<p>Lady Mallowe sat down on the chair that held the white coat, and she did
not push the coat aside.</p>
<p>“He told you that in his vulgar slang!” she gasped it out. “You—you
ought to have struck him dead with your answer.”</p>
<p>“Except poor Jem Temple Barholm,” was the amazing reply she received, “he
is the only friend I ever had in my life.”</p>
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