<h2 class="gap3 chaphead"><SPAN name="IV" id="IV"></SPAN>IV</h2>
<h2 class="chaphead">April's Sun</h2>
<div class="sidenote">The Joy
of
Morning</div>
<p>With a rush of warm winds and a tinkle
of raindrops, Spring danced over the
hills. The river stirred beneath the drifting
ice, then woke into musical murmuring. Even
the dead reeds and dry rushes at the bend
of the stream gave forth a faint melody when
swayed by the full waters beneath.</p>
<p>The joy of morning was abroad in the
world. Robins sang it, winds whispered it,
and, beneath the sod, every fibre of root and
tree quivered with aspiration, groping through
the labyrinth of darkness with a blind impulse
toward the light. Across the valley, on the
southern slope, a faint glow of green seemed to
hover above the dark tangle of the vineyard,
like some indefinite suggestion of colour, promising
the sure beauty yet to come.</p>
<p>Rosemary had climbed the Hill of the
Muses early in the afternoon. She, too, was
awake, in every fibre of body and soul.
Springs had come and gone before—twenty-five
of them—but she had never known one
like this. A vague delight possessed her, and<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_46" id="Page_46">[Pg 46]</SPAN></span>
her heart throbbed as from imprisoned wings.
Purpose and uplift and aspiration swayed her
strangely; she yearned blindly toward some
unknown goal.</p>
<div class="sidenote">The
Family
Religion</div>
<p>She had not seen Alden for a long time.
The melting ice and snow had made the hill
unpleasant, if not impossible, and the annual
sewing had kept her closely indoors. She and
Aunt Matilda had made the year's supply of
underwear from the unbleached muslin, and
one garment for each from the bolt of brown-and-white
gingham. Rosemary disdained to
say "gown" or even "dress," for the result of
her labour was a garment, simply, and nothing
more.</p>
<p>Every third Summer she had a new white
muslin, of the cheapest quality, which she
wore to church whenever it was ordained that
she should go. Grandmother and Aunt Matilda
were deeply religious, but not according to any
popular plan. They had their own private
path to Heaven, and had done their best to set
Rosemary's feet firmly upon it, but with small
success.</p>
<p>When she was a child, Rosemary had spent
many long, desolate Sunday afternoons thinking
how lonely it would be in Heaven with
nobody there but God and the angels and the
Starr family. Even the family, it seemed, was
not to be admitted as an entity, but separately,
according to individual merit. Grandmother<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_47" id="Page_47">[Pg 47]</SPAN></span>
and Aunt Matilda had many a wordy battle as
to who would be there and who wouldn't, but
both were sadly agreed that Frank must stay
outside.</p>
<div class="sidenote">Rewards
and
Punishments</div>
<p>Rosemary was deeply hurt when she discovered
that Grandmother did not expect to
meet her son there, and as for her son's wife—the
old lady had dismissed the hapless bride to
the Abode of the Lost with a single comprehensive
snort. Alternately, Rosemary had
been rewarded for good behaviour by the
promise of Heaven and punished for small misdemeanours
by having the gates closed in her
face. As she grew older and began to think
for herself, she wondered how Grandmother
and Aunt Matilda had obtained their celestial
appointment as gate-keepers, and reflected
that it might possibly be very pleasant outside,
with the father and mother whom she had
never seen.</p>
<p>So, of late years, religion had not disturbed
Rosemary much. She paid no attention to
the pointed allusions to "heathen" and "infidels"
that assailed her ears from time to
time, and ceased to feel her young flesh creep
when the Place of Torment was described with
all the power of two separate and vivid imaginations.
Disobedience troubled her no longer
unless she was found out, and, gradually, she
developed a complicated system of deception.</p>
<p>When she was discovered reading a novel,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_48" id="Page_48">[Pg 48]</SPAN></span>
she had accepted the inevitable punishment
with outward submission. Naturally, it was
not easy to tear out the leaves one by one,
especially from a borrowed book, and put them
into the fire, saying, each time she put one in:
"I will never read another novel as long as I
live," but she had compelled herself to do it
gracefully. Only her flaming cheeks had
betrayed her real feeling.</p>
<div class="sidenote">Forbidden
Reading</div>
<p>A week later, when she was locked in her
room for the entire day, on account of some
slight offence, she had wept so much over the
sorrows of Jane Eyre that even Aunt Matilda
was affected when she brought up the bread
and milk for the captive's supper. Rosemary
had hidden the book under the mattress at the
first sound of approaching footsteps, but Aunt
Matilda, by describing the tears of penitence
to the stern authority below, obtained permission
for Rosemary to come down-stairs, eat her
bread and milk at the table, and, afterward, to
wash the dishes.</p>
<p>She continued to borrow books from the
school library, however, and later from Alden
Marsh. When he learned that she dared not
read at night, for fear of burning too much oil,
he began to supply her with candles. Thus the
world of books was opened to her, and many
a midnight had found her, absorbed and
breathless, straining her eyes over the last
page. More than once she had read all night<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_49" id="Page_49">[Pg 49]</SPAN></span>
and fallen asleep afterward at the breakfast
table.</p>
<div class="sidenote">Occasional Meetings</div>
<p>Once, long ago, Alden had called upon her,
but the evening was made so unpleasant, both
for him and his unhappy hostess, that he never
came again. Rosemary used to go to the
schoolhouse occasionally, to sit and talk for
an hour or so after school, but some keen-eyed
busy-body had told Grandmother and the
innocent joy had come to an abrupt conclusion.
Rosemary kept her promise not to go to the
schoolhouse simply because she dared not
break it.</p>
<p>The windows of the little brown house,
where the Starrs lived, commanded an unobstructed
view of the Marshs' big Colonial porch,
in Winter, when the trees between were bare,
so it was impossible for the girl to go there,
openly, as Mrs. Marsh had never returned Aunt
Matilda's last call.</p>
<p>Sometimes Alden wrote to her, but she was
unable to answer, for stationery and stamps
were unfamiliar possessions; Grandmother held
the purse-strings tightly, and every penny
had to be accounted for. On Thursday,
Rosemary always went to the post-office, as
<i>The Household Guardian</i> was due then, so it
happened that occasionally she received a letter,
or a book which she could not return until
Spring.</p>
<p>At length, the Hill of the Muses became the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_50" id="Page_50">[Pg 50]</SPAN></span>
one possible rendezvous, though, at the chosen
hour of four, Rosemary was usually too weary
to attempt the long climb. Moreover, she
must be back by six to get supper, so one little
hour was all she might ever hope for, at a time.</p>
<div class="sidenote">Far Above
Her</div>
<p>Yet these hours had become a rosary of
memories to her, jewelled upon the chain of her
uneventful days. Alden's unfailing friendliness
and sympathy warmed her heart, though
she had never thought of him as a possible
lover. In her eyes, he was as far above her as
the fairy prince had been above Cinderella. It
was only kindness that made him stoop at all.</p>
<p>When the school bell, sounding for dismissal,
echoed through the valley below, Rosemary
hung her scarlet signal to the outstanding
bough of the lowest birch, and went back to
the crest of the hill to wait for him. She had
with her the little red book that he had given
her long ago, and which she had not had
opportunity to return.</p>
<p>She turned the pages regretfully, though
she knew the poems almost by heart. Days,
while she washed dishes and scrubbed, the
exquisite melody of the words haunted her,
like some far-off strain of music. For the first
time she had discovered the subtle harmonies
of which the language is capable, entirely apart
from sense.</p>
<p>Living lines stood out upon the printed
page, glowing with a rapture all their own.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_51" id="Page_51">[Pg 51]</SPAN></span></p>
<div class="sidenote">Thrilling
Lines</div>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"Now, shadowed by his wings, our faces yearn<br/></span>
<span class="i2">Together,"<br/></span></div>
</div>
<p>she read aloud, thrilled by the very sound.</p>
<div class="blockquot"><p>"Tender as dawn's first hill-fire," ... "What marshalled
marvels on the skirts of May," ... "Shadows
and shoals that edge eternity." ...</p>
</div>
<p>"Oh," she breathed, "if only I didn't have
to give it back!"</p>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"Lo! what am I to Love, the lord of all?<br/></span>
<span class="i2">One murmuring shell he gathers from the sand,—<br/></span>
<span class="i2">One little heart-flame sheltered in his hand."<br/></span></div>
</div>
<p>"What, indeed?" thought Rosemary.
What was she to Love, or what ever might she
be?</p>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"But April's sun strikes down the glades to-day;<br/></span>
<span class="i2">So shut your eyes upturned, and feel my kiss<br/></span>
<span class="i0">Creep, as the Spring now thrills through every spray,<br/></span>
<span class="i2">Up your warm throat to your warm lips: for this" ...<br/></span></div>
</div>
<p>Rosemary put the book down, face to face
at last with self-knowledge. She would have
torn down the flaming signal, but it was too
late. If he were coming—and he never had
failed to come—he would be there very soon.</p>
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<p>Alden had closed his desk with a sigh as the
last pair of restless little feet tumbled down<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_52" id="Page_52">[Pg 52]</SPAN></span>
the schoolhouse steps. Scraps of paper littered
the floor and the room was musty and close in
spite of two open windows. From where he
sat, he could see the vineyard, with its perpetual
demand upon him. Since his painful
interview with his mother, he had shrunk,
inwardly, from even the sight of the vineyard.
It somehow seemed to have a malicious air
about it. Mutely it challenged his manhood,
menaced his soul.</p>
<div class="sidenote">Uneventful
Days</div>
<p>He had accepted the inevitable but had not
ceased to rebel. The coming years stretched
out before him in a procession of grey, uneventful
days. Breakfast, school, luncheon, school,
long evenings spent in reading to his mother,
and, from Spring to frost, the vineyard, with
its multitudinous necessities.</p>
<p>He felt, keenly, that his mother did not quite
understand him. In fact, nobody did, unless
it was Rosemary, whom he had not seen for
weeks. Brave little Rosemary, for whom life
consisted wholly of deprivations! How seldom
she complained and how often she had soothed
his discontent!</p>
<p>It was three years ago that she had come
shyly to the schoolhouse and asked if she might
borrow a book. He had known her, of course,
before that, but had scarcely exchanged a
dozen words with her. When he saw her,
rarely, at church, Grandmother or Aunt Matilda
was always with her, and the Starrs had had<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_53" id="Page_53">[Pg 53]</SPAN></span>
nothing to do with the Marshs for several
years past, as Mrs. Marsh had been remiss in
her social obligations.</p>
<div class="sidenote">A Growing
Interest</div>
<p>At first, Rosemary had been purely negative
to him, and he regarded her with kindly indifference.
The girl's personality seemed as
ashen as her hair, as colourless as her face.
Her dull eyes seemed to see nothing, to care
for nothing. Within the last few months he
had begun to wonder whether her cold and
impassive exterior might not be the shield
with which she protected an abnormal sensitiveness.
Now and then he had longed to awaken
the woman who dwelt securely within the
forbidding fortress—to strike from the flint
some stray gleams of soul.</p>
<p>Of late he had begun to miss her, and, each
afternoon, to look with a little more conscious
eagerness for the scarlet thread on the hill-top
signalling against the grey sky beyond. His
interest in her welfare was becoming more
surely personal, not merely human. During
the Winter, though he had seen her only twice,
he had thought about her a great deal, and
had written to her several times without
expecting an answer.</p>
<p>The iron bars of circumstance which bound
her, had, though less narrowly, imprisoned him
also. It seemed permanent for them both,
and, indeed, the way of escape was even more
definitely closed for Rosemary than for him.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_54" id="Page_54">[Pg 54]</SPAN></span></p>
<div class="sidenote">A New
Rosemary</div>
<p>He sighed as he rose and brushed the chalk
from his clothes. Through force of habit, he
looked up to the crest of the Hill of the Muses as
he locked the door. The red ribbon fluttered
like an oriflamme against the blue-and-white of
the April sky. His heart quickened its beat a
little as he saw it, and his steps insensibly
hastened as he began to climb the hill.</p>
<p>When he took her hand, with a word of
friendly greeting, he noticed a change in her,
though she had made a valiant effort to recover
her composure. This was a new Rosemary,
with eyes shining and the colour flaming in her
cheeks and lips.</p>
<p>"Spring seems to have come to you, too,"
he said, seating himself on the log beside her.
"How well you look!"</p>
<p>The deep crimson mounted to her temples,
then as swiftly retreated. "Better take down
the ribbon," she suggested, practically.</p>
<p>"I've been watching a long time for this,"
he resumed, as he folded it and restored it to its
place in the hollow tree. "What have you
been doing?"</p>
<p>"All the usual dreary things, to which a
mountain of sewing has been added."</p>
<p>"Is that a new gown?"</p>
<p>She laughed, mirthlessly. "It's as new a
gown as I'll ever have," she returned, trying
to keep her voice even. "My wardrobe consists
of an endless parade of brown alpaca and<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_55" id="Page_55">[Pg 55]</SPAN></span>
brown gingham garments, all made exactly
alike."</p>
<div class="sidenote">Thwarted
on All
Sides</div>
<p>"Like a dozen stage soldiers, marching in
and out, to create the illusion of a procession?"</p>
<p>"I suppose so. You know I've never seen
a stage, much less a stage soldier."</p>
<p>Alden's heart softened with pity. He
longed to take Rosemary to town and let her
feast her eyes upon some gorgeous spectacle;
to see her senses run riot, for once, with colour
and light and sound.</p>
<p>"I feel sometimes," she was saying, "as
though I had sold my soul for pretty things in
some previous existence, and was paying the
penalty for it now."</p>
<p>"You love pretty things, don't you?"</p>
<p>She turned brimming eyes toward him.
"Love them?" she repeated, brokenly. "There
aren't words enough to say how much!"</p>
<p>From a fresh point of view he saw her countless
deprivations, binding her, thwarting her,
oppressing her on all sides by continual denial.
His own rebellion against circumstances seemed
weak and unworthy.</p>
<p>"Whenever I think of you," he said, in a different
tone, "I feel ashamed of myself. I have
freedom, of a certain sort, and you've never
had a chance to learn the meaning of the word.
You're dominated, body and soul, by a couple
of old women who haven't discovered, as yet,
that the earth is round and not flat."<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_56" id="Page_56">[Pg 56]</SPAN></span></p>
<div class="sidenote">Freedom</div>
<p>"My soul isn't bound," returned Rosemary,
softly, "but it would have been, if it hadn't
been for you."</p>
<p>"I? Why, my dear girl, what have I done?"</p>
<p>"Everything. Think of all the books
you've loaned me, all the candles you've
given me—all the times you've climbed this
steep hill just to talk to me for an hour and give
me new strength to go on."</p>
<p>"It's only selfishness, Rosemary. I knew
you were here and I like to talk to you. Don't
forget that you've meant something to me,
too. Why, you're the only woman I know,
except my mother."</p>
<p>"Your mother is lovely," she returned. "I
wish I could go to see her once in a while. I
like to look at her. Even her voice is different
someway."</p>
<p>"Yes, mother is 'different,'" he agreed, idly.
"It's astonishing, sometimes, how 'different'
she manages to be. We had it out the other
day, about the vineyard, and I'm to stay
here—all the rest of my life," he concluded
bitterly.</p>
<p>"I don't see why, if you don't want to,"
she answered, half-fearfully. "You're a man,
and men can do as they please."</p>
<p>"It probably seems so to you, but I assure
you it's very far from the truth. I wonder,
now and then, if any of us ever really do as we
please. Freedom is the great gift."<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_57" id="Page_57">[Pg 57]</SPAN></span></p>
<div class="sidenote">Choosing</div>
<p>"And the great loneliness," she added, after
a pause.</p>
<p>"You may be right," he sighed. "Still,
I'd like to try it for a while. It's the one
thing I'd choose. What would you take, if
you could have anything you wanted?"</p>
<p>"Do you mean for just a little while, or for
always?"</p>
<p>"For always. The one great gift you'd
choose from all that Life has to give."</p>
<p>"I'd take love," she said, in a low tone.
She was not looking at him now, but far across
the valley where the vineyard lay. Her face
was wistful in the half-light; the corners of
her mouth quivered, ever so little.</p>
<p>Alden looked at her, then rubbed his eyes
and looked at her again. In some subtle way
she had changed, or he had, since they last
met. Never before had he thought of her as a
woman; she had been merely another individual
to whom he liked to talk. To-day her
womanhood carried its own appeal. She was
not beautiful and no one would ever think her
so, but she was sweet and wholesome and had
a new, indefinable freshness about her that,
in another woman, would have been called
charm.</p>
<p>It came to him, all at once, that, in some
mysterious way, he and Rosemary belonged
together. They had been born to the same
lot, and must spend all their days in the valley,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_58" id="Page_58">[Pg 58]</SPAN></span>
hedged in by the same narrow restrictions.
Even an occasional hour on the Hill of the
Muses was forbidden to her, and constant
scheming was the price she was obliged to
pay for it.</p>
<div class="sidenote">The
Book</div>
<p>The restraint chafed and fretted him, for
her as much as for himself. It was absurd
that a girl of twenty-five and a man of thirty
should not have some little independence of
thought and action. The silence persisted
and finally became awkward.</p>
<p>"It's the book," said Rosemary, with a
forced laugh. She was endeavouring to brush
her mood away as though it were an annoying
cobweb. "I've grown foolish over the book."</p>
<p>"I'm glad you liked it," he returned, taking
it from her. "I was sure you would. What
part of it did you like best?"</p>
<p>"All of it. I can't choose, though of course
some of it seems more beautiful than the rest."</p>
<p>"I suppose you know it by heart, now,
don't you?"</p>
<p>"Almost."</p>
<p>"Listen. Isn't this like to-day?"</p>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"Spring's foot half falters; scarce she yet may know<br/></span>
<span class="i2">The leafless blackthorn-blossom from the snow;<br/></span>
<span class="i0">And through her bowers the wind's way still is clear."<br/></span></div>
</div>
<p>Rosemary got to her feet unsteadily. She
went to the brow of the hill, on the side farthest<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_59" id="Page_59">[Pg 59]</SPAN></span>
from the vineyard, and stood facing the sunset.
Scarcely knowing that she had moved,
Alden read on:</p>
<div class="poem"><div class="stanza">
<span class="i0">"But April's sun strikes down the glades to-day;<br/></span>
<span class="i2">So shut your eyes upturned, and feel my kiss——"<br/></span></div>
</div>
<div class="sidenote">Alden
Speaks</div>
<p>A smothered sob made him look up quickly.
She stood with her back to him, but her
shoulders were shaking. He dropped the
book and went to her.</p>
<p>A strange, new tenderness possessed him.
"Rosemary," he whispered, slipping his arm
around her. "What is it—dear?"</p>
<p>"Nothing," she sobbed, trying to release
herself. "I'm—I'm tired—and foolish—that's
all. Please let me go!"</p>
<p>Something within him stirred in answer to
the girl's infinite hunger, to the unspoken appeal
that vibrated through her voice. "No,"
he said, with quiet mastery, "I won't let you
go. I want to take care of you, Rosemary.
Leave all that misery and come to me, won't
you?"</p>
<p>Her eyes met his for an instant, then turned
away. "I don't quite—understand," she said,
with difficulty.</p>
<p>"I'm asking you to marry me—to come to
mother and me. We'll make the best of it
together."</p>
<p>Her eyes met his clearly now, but her face<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_60" id="Page_60">[Pg 60]</SPAN></span>
was pale and cold. She was openly incredulous
and frightened.</p>
<div class="sidenote">Her
Birthright</div>
<p>"I mean it, dear. Don't be afraid. Oh,
Rosemary, can't you trust me?"</p>
<p>"Trust you? Yes, a thousand times, yes!"</p>
<p>He drew her closer. "And love me—a
little?"</p>
<p>"Love you?" The last light shone upon
her face and the colour surged back in waves.
She seemed exalted, transfigured, as by a
radiance that shone from within.</p>
<p>He put his hand under her chin and lifted
her face to his. "Kiss me, won't you, dear?"</p>
<p>And so, Rosemary came to her woman's
birthright, in the shelter of a man's arms.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_61" id="Page_61">[Pg 61]</SPAN></span></p>
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